Romans & histoires Fear Not I Am With You

Walang imposible sa Diyos. Hold on Trie. I'm not gonna let you die. We will find a way. You deserve happiness. You deserve everything in this world. You deserve everything but not me— damn it! I'm scared of losing you. That's the truth.

“Wala naman…” Tumingin ako sa kanya nang hinawakan niya ang kamay ko na tila ba pinapakalma kaya napunta ang attention ko sa kanya. “Don’t worry, you’re with me. And as long as you are with me, you are safe. Walang mangyayaring masama sa’yo,” he assured me.

Ang bawat salita nito ay may halong galit, takot, at frustration, na parang pinipilit nitong ilabas ang lahat ng nakapaloob sa loob nito. Kent exhaled slowly, keeping his voice calm even as his chest tightened. “Mae, listen to me… we’re scared, I know, but panicking won’t fix anything. We’ll take it one step at a time, okay? One step at a time.” He tried to keep his tone reassuring, knowing she needed something solid to hold onto, even if he himself wasn’t sure of every next step.

nakangiting tugon ni Miko. "Gusto ko pang humaba ang buhay ko." "At 'yon din naman ang pangarap ko dahil gusto ko pang magkasama tayo nang matagal." "Is this what you really want?" "There's no other way, sweetie. I have to face this fear na ikaw ang kasama ko. Hindi mo naman ako iiwan, 'di ba?" Umiling si Jade. "Never. I'll stick to you like a super glue." "Then, settled. Huwag kang matakot. Kasama mo ako."

"I understand where that fear coming from. He hurt you by his words. But you need to face your fear Maria. Trust me. He won't hurt your children." Wika nito at napabuntong hininga naman ako. Nakapamulsa itong umalis. Pero maya-maya pa ay lumingon ito sa akin.

F*ck. Nagpatuloy pa siya, “Kaya ginamit ko ang kapangyarihan ko para mahanap ang babaeng ‘yon. Hindi lang para manilip o kung ano pa man. Hinding-hindi ko magagawa ‘yon. Wala akong choice kun’di sumunod sa kanila. And now that I’ve told you, I will bet everything on you, FEAR soldiers. Kayo na lang ang pag-asa ko. Please, tulungan niyo si mama!” pagmamakaawa nito.

“Baby, alam kong alam mong matapang ako, pero sa totoo lang ay nakakaramdam na ako ng takot sa ngayon, pero pinipilit kong maging matatag para sa’yo.” [Lift your head, baby don’t be scared of the things that could go wrong along the way… ♫♫] “Mamaya bago ako umuwi, bibili ako ng PT. Hindi ko alam, baby, kung anong gusto kong maramdaman ngayon. Kung mae-excite ba ako sa isiping baka magkaka-baby na tayo o kung malulungkot ba ako dahil sa kalagayan mo. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi isipin na baka hindi ka na gumising. Na baka iwan mo na ako. Na baka napagod ka nang intindihin ‘yong ugali ko.” I bit my lower lip to stop it from trembling kasi pakiramdam ko’y naiiyak na naman ako.

I don't give a fuck! "And let me tell you this, l did not call you because I'm scared about your little dirty trick. I had handled worse, so, if you think you can bring me down, you are wrong! I am Cenon Jam Thiago Alvarez, fear is not in my vocabulary, and giving up is not my style. So, be prepared, you want war? I'll give you war," mariing at matigas na wika niya at pinatay ang tawag.

Nanatili ang matiim na titig nito sa akin. "Pasensiya ka na. . . I just can't take my eyes of you. I just hate the thought of not seeing you anymore, even when all I can do is took a glimpse of you everyday. Wala naman akong pakialam kung hindi mo ako kausapin, sapat na sa akin na makita ka. But I'm scared yo get used to it, to get used to you. Takot ako sa kaya kong gawin. . just to keep you with me."

Umamba akong aalis pero umamba rin siyang lalapit kaya hindi ako natuloy sa balak. "You're not leaving. You will tell me what I want to hear!" sigaw niya. He came to a sudden halt, his body trembling with sobs, tears streaming down his face once more, unable to get any closer to me. "Sabihin mo sa akin na akin si Faja!" Muli akong napaatras sa narinig, nandilat ang mga mata. No words escaped my mouth, overcome by surprise and fear at the weight of his troubled voice and presence.