How To Value Yourself Novels & Stories

Makikita ba niya effort ko? Breathing in, I stopped myself from overthinking too much. Ito na naman kasi yung mali sakin. Madali ako magpadala sa negatibo when it involves people who are important to me. Gusto ko kasi na masaya sila. It doesn’t matter anymore kung anong mangyari sakin. Pero gusto ko rin patunayan sa sarili ko na I can be someone worth fighting for. I can be someone worth fighting for by… what? Making myself look desperate?

tanong ni Vivian, sabay tingin sa akin nang may kunot sa noo. Umiling lang ako at ngumiti. “Wala. Na-realize ko lang… hindi ko pala kailangan ng maraming tao para maramdaman na valuable ako. Isa o dalawang totoo lang… sapat na.” Napangisi si Vivian, halatang proud. “’Yan ang sinasabi ko sayo dati pa. Quality over quantity. Hindi ka trophy na pwedeng iparada kung kani-kanino. You’re Estella. You’re Alletse. At higit sa lahat, you’re you. That’s enough.”

“Hindi ko pwedeng tanggapin 'to.” “Bakit?” “I just can’t,” tanggi niya. “Asawa kita, at kung anong pag-aari ko ay pag-aari mo rin,” sabi ni Valerian habang nananatiling nakaabot ang card. “Tama ka. Asawa mo ako, pero kumikita ako ng sarili kong pera. Hindi mo kailangang ibigay sa akin ang pera mo.” “Sigurado ka?” tanong ni Valerian, bahagyang nakataas ang isang kilay.

Konting drama, konting arte, para tumaas ang halaga niya. Kapag masyado kang nagmamadali, bumababa ang value mo. Baka maging 500 million ay maging 50 million na lang. Businessman si Vernon, sobrang tuso at kalkulador. Maraming tumatakbo sa isip niya pero mabilis siyang ngumiti at sumagot. “Wag kang mag-alala. Kung hindi talaga kaya, susuko rin ako sa kanya.”

Napahikbi ako sa kawalan at pinigilan ang malakas na pag-iyak habang yakap ang aking sariling nakaupo sa sahig. I’ve never felt this low. I’ve been insecure about myself, but now... I felt so unlovable and unworthy. Pakiramdam ko ay wala akong halaga kahit kanino. People would always see me as the Belmonte heiress who knows and wants nothing but fame, money, and luxury. I wanted to show them that I’m more than that. But who am I kidding? I know I’ll never be enough. I buried my face between my knees and cried so much. Bakit palagi na lang akong nasasaktan? Gusto ko lang naman tumulong.

Its all about how you manage yourself putting off all the negativity around you back to theirselves without them knowing it. And working here is no different in my field before. Nung una ngang pag pasok ko sobrang daming challenges kong na- encounter syempre toxicity is everywhere, but the point is don't be driven in their opinion to be seen and validated. Life is always like a battle field but you don't need to always put up a fight to be understood. The only thing you should do is to be good to yourself. At ayon dahil nag momoment talk ako sa sarili ko muntik na akong mabangga sa sliding door ng Finance Head Office.

Sobra parin ang iniisip niya sa akin. Hindi niya pa ako ganong kakilala para sabihin niyang hindi ko nirerespeto ang sarili ko at hindi ko pinahahalagahan ang sarili. Maybe sometimes, I really forget to value and respect myself the way that I should. But I have reasons for that. I have reasons, why I forget to give those two to my self. "Right! Hindi na ako magtataka, kung bakit ganiyan ang naiisip mo." I said coolly. I took a step back.

sabi ni Luke. “She doesn’t need help,” sagot ni Lucas. “I didn’t ask if she needed help.” He turned to me. “Would you like me to walk you?” Lucas looked like he wanted to punch a wall. Or Luke. Or both. I smiled. “Sure. Let’s go.” And just like that, I walked past Lucas. With Luke. Because sometimes, the best way to remind someone of your worth… is to let someone else see it first. ...