I Couldn't Ask For More Meaning Novels & Stories

Hindi na ako papayag na maulit iyon. Siguro nga, para sa iba, masyado pang maaga. Pero hindi naman sa tagal nasusukat ang lalim ng nararamdaman. Minsan, isang tao lang sapat na para malaman mo kung hanggang saan ka handang umabot. “Ipapakilala mo ako?” tanong niya, halatang hindi pa rin makapaniwala. “Yes,” sagot ko agad, walang pagdadalawang-isip. “And I don’t accept no for an answer.”

I suddenly became clueless on what he meant dahil iba ang sumagi sa isip ko. “W-What do you mean?” I asked. Baka kasi mamaya iba pala at nang sabihin niya na iyong pagpapakasal, muntik ko ng sampalin sarili ko. Mabuti na lang nagtanong ako. Nakakahiya sana. Pero—kailangan nga ba? “Pagod ka na bang manligaw kaya mo natanong?” “Hindi naman pero naisip ko lang, lumalaki na si Aquia—”

"So, anong pinapamukha mo? Was it my choice that you had to buy that?" Umiling siya. "No. That's not what I mean. Fuck this is so hard..." He breathed heavily. "I want to take care of you, believe me I do. It's just that this request of yours is so difficult that I have to spend the rest of my day just to look for it." He gazed at me. "I mean, whatever request or cravings you have, I'm willing to buy and look for it even in the deepest corner of the country."

Ans I don't want to assume, unless otherwise, stated. "'Di naman ganito ang magkaibigan, 'di ba? Are you expecting more than this?" mahinahong tanong ko. Gusto kong diretsuhin niya ako kasi ayokong nanghuhula. Ayoko sa lahat, 'yung paligoy-ligoy.

Hindi naman niya mahahalata dahil sumasalo ito sa tubig dagat. Pero hindi ko mapigilan ang luha dahil sa sakit na aking nararamdaman. I want more days with him. I want more. I won't ever be contented. I always ask for more because it will never be enough. A second is not enough, a minute will never be enough, and even hour or days. I want years with him. I love him so much. Please...give me more days with him. For the first time in my life I got scared to death.

pang-aasar niya. “Yeah, you did not because I did not use the word promise at all. I said I want to. And it’s more meaningful to me because being with you is part of my dreams and goals now. I won’t promise because it will only feel like an obligation after a while. I’ll just say I want to.” “Damn. Ang unique mo ah?” Nakangiting aniya. “A promise is a heavy word. And don’t say I might lose that desire someday because I probably won’t. You’re all I have.”

“I don’t know why I do what I do…” Tumingin siya sa malayo. “I’m desperate for love,” bulong niya sa hangin. “I need a lot of things. I want a lot of things. I’m so broken I want others to fix me. I’m incapable of asking for help because I don’t want others to pity me. I didn’t grow up like that. Asking for help is a weakness. Ilang beses ko na kayong inabala, nanghingi ng pabor. Hindi na kaya ng kahihiyan ko.”

“Pambili ng personal kong gamit.” “I’m giving you your allowance.” “Hindi na kailangan. May nirequest ako sayo kaya iyon sana ang gusto kong compensation mo para sa aki. Kung sakaling higit pa sa ibibigay mo sa akin ang magagastos mo ay sabihin mo lang at sisikapin kong bayaran.” “What can you do?” tanong ko na lang dahil mukhang desidido din siya. Walang kangiti-ngiti sa kanyang mga labi.

Isang kurap at mahuhulog na ang mga ito. Hindi ako makapagsalita. Hindi ko alam na ganyan ang nararamdaman niya. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pinagdadaan niya habang wala ako. I can't tell. Then, even if it's not his birthday. I will make his wished come true. It's my gift to him. "Nakakahiya man... Then, can I call you kuya?" mahinang tanong ko sapat na marinig niya.

“Why?” Agad siyang nagkibit balikat. “I just want to.” Napatango ito. “I know I am asking for too much, but Nica… can you stay over the night?”