Novel & Cerita I Couldn't Ask For More Meaning

Hindi iyon ang ekspresyon ng isang tao kapag sinasadya niya o ginustong gawin ang isang bagay. Dumiin ang pagkakakuyo nya kamay niya, "I-I don't own you anything, okay? I never ask you to lie for me." Sabi nya at hinablot ang bag nya sa lamesa. "I'm leaving. Mukha kasing ihahatid ka pa ni Kuya." Sabi nya at iniwan na akong mag-isa dito. Napabuntong hininga nalang ako sa inasal nya. Mukha kasing nakalimutan nyang humingi ng tawad sa akin o kahit magpasalamat nalang dahil pinagtakpan ko sya.

Hindi na ako papayag na maulit iyon. Siguro nga, para sa iba, masyado pang maaga. Pero hindi naman sa tagal nasusukat ang lalim ng nararamdaman. Minsan, isang tao lang sapat na para malaman mo kung hanggang saan ka handang umabot. “Ipapakilala mo ako?” tanong niya, halatang hindi pa rin makapaniwala. “Yes,” sagot ko agad, walang pagdadalawang-isip. “And I don’t accept no for an answer.”

"I need to.Ako na lang ang inaasahan nila.I need to do my best shot in every decisions or actions that I make.Maliit na pagkakamali ko lang,maaaring malaking apekto ang kapalit." "Masaya ka ba?"tanong ko. "What's with that question?" "I mean-- nasa 'yo na ang lahat.Mapera ka,kaya mong bilhin ang gusto mong bilhin.Pero masaya ka ba?" "Are you hurting me for asking that?"tatawa-tawa niyang tanong.Matapos ay nilagok niya ang bote ng alak sa tabi niya. "Bakit? Natamaan ka ba?"

I suddenly became clueless on what he meant dahil iba ang sumagi sa isip ko. “W-What do you mean?” I asked. Baka kasi mamaya iba pala at nang sabihin niya na iyong pagpapakasal, muntik ko ng sampalin sarili ko. Mabuti na lang nagtanong ako. Nakakahiya sana. Pero—kailangan nga ba? “Pagod ka na bang manligaw kaya mo natanong?” “Hindi naman pero naisip ko lang, lumalaki na si Aquia—”

Hindi na ako makabuo ng mga tamang sasabihin. "You don't love me anymore?" he asked painfully.

"So, anong pinapamukha mo? Was it my choice that you had to buy that?" Umiling siya. "No. That's not what I mean. Fuck this is so hard..." He breathed heavily. "I want to take care of you, believe me I do. It's just that this request of yours is so difficult that I have to spend the rest of my day just to look for it." He gazed at me. "I mean, whatever request or cravings you have, I'm willing to buy and look for it even in the deepest corner of the country."

Ans I don't want to assume, unless otherwise, stated. "'Di naman ganito ang magkaibigan, 'di ba? Are you expecting more than this?" mahinahong tanong ko. Gusto kong diretsuhin niya ako kasi ayokong nanghuhula. Ayoko sa lahat, 'yung paligoy-ligoy.

Hindi naman niya mahahalata dahil sumasalo ito sa tubig dagat. Pero hindi ko mapigilan ang luha dahil sa sakit na aking nararamdaman. I want more days with him. I want more. I won't ever be contented. I always ask for more because it will never be enough. A second is not enough, a minute will never be enough, and even hour or days. I want years with him. I love him so much. Please...give me more days with him. For the first time in my life I got scared to death.

I am that numb? "What do you want me to do mom? We can't force him to embrace things he doesn't want." "I-i can't live without him..." "Then, ano ako sa'yo? I am not enough for you to be happy?" Tinitigan n'ya ako. Wala s'yang nasabi. I nodded. As if she said something and I understand.

pang-aasar niya. “Yeah, you did not because I did not use the word promise at all. I said I want to. And it’s more meaningful to me because being with you is part of my dreams and goals now. I won’t promise because it will only feel like an obligation after a while. I’ll just say I want to.” “Damn. Ang unique mo ah?” Nakangiting aniya. “A promise is a heavy word. And don’t say I might lose that desire someday because I probably won’t. You’re all I have.”