Novel & Cerita I Couldn't Ask For More Meaning

Chapter 48 Wedding Day Someone asked me, what constitutes a perfect day for me? I would say, a perfect day is when things are falling into place, and all I have been praying for is no longer a 'prayer' but rather an 'answered prayer'. It is indeed a perfect day. I couldn't wish for more.

His eyes were tender while looking at her who was still in shock. “You don’t need to give an answer. Alam kong hindi ka pa handa at nakahanda naman akong maghintay, Thea. I also know that I asked for friendship but I don’t want you to think that that’s only what I want from you. I want more than that, Thea, kung hindi pa iyon malinaw. And I will wait until you start wanting the same thing. Until you’re ready, maghihintay ako.”

Humahagulgol na siya. "Tell me, Iake, what do you want me to do?" He asked me. "Leave me alone." I told him in a cold voice. Napapailing siyang tumingin sa akin. "Iyon lang ang gusto ko, Kairos. Leave me alone. Let me be happy by myself. Hindi ko ipagdadamot si Ada, pero hayaan mo akong maging masaya nang ako lang."

bagkus ay tanong niya. Hindi ako nakaimik sa naging tanong niya. Ano ba ang pwede kong sabihin? Kapag sinabi ko na ngayon pa lang ay nalulungkot na ako, baka bigyan niya ito ng kahulugan. Pero ano nga ba talaga ang status naming dalawa para bigyan ko rin ng kahulugan. Pareho kaya kami ng nararamdaman? O baka ako lang ang nagbibigay ng kahulugan sa pagiging sweet niya sa 'kin? Natatakot ako kapag nagtanong ako. Natatakot akong ma-reject.

Don't mess up, Auxerre. I sighed before looking away. He didn't even bother to ask kung kamusta na 'yung kalagayan nung nasaktan. As I grow older, mas narerealize ko lang na wala s'yang pake sa ibang tao. Kahit may masaktan, kahit may mapahamak, kahit may mawalan ng buhay...imahe at kapakanan lang ng n'ya ang iniintindi n'ya palagi. Selfish.

"Sometimes, learn to take a breather." Imbis na sagutin iyon, iniba ko na lang ang usapan. That was something I still find difficult to learn. Without good grades, I would be nothing. Maybe I live to please people, and to meet the expectations that were set solely for me. "Nasaan ang boyfriend mo?" Nagtatakang tanong ko rito nang maalala iyon. Mas lalo siyang bumusangot kaya napataas ang kilay ko. "May flight." Matipid nitong tugon. "Bukas pa siya makakabalik kaya sumama ka na. Sige na, please?"

He's acting like he owns me but he can't even give me the assurance. Is it too much to ask to put some label on what we have right now? But how would I ask him? Hindi ba ako magmumukhang desperada? Ang dami ko ring bagay na hindi pa nasasabi sa kanya. Ang dami kong ring bagay na gustong itanong pero hindi ko alam paano sisimulan.

mahinang bulong nito. Hindi ko alam kung kung ako ba ang tinatanong niya o sarili niya. Mas gugustuhin ko na lang ibabad ang sarili ko sa trabaho kesa makita siyang may iba. Kung itatanong ko iyon sa sarili ko. “Free from you means happiness right?” tanong ko sa kanya kaya mabilis nitong naitaas ang noo.

To give me more than I deserved. "Hindi mo nagustuhan?" He asked, I smiled bitterly. "No," napasimangot kaagad siya sa sinabi ko. "No, I mean, it's stunning. I... I didn't expect you to buy me expensive gifts, Thaddeus. You don't need to, actually." Mas lalong lumukot ang mukha niya nang sabihin ko iyon.

kunot-noo kong tanong pabalik nang makabawi. “I just… I just want to know…?” Parang hindi pa siya sigurado sa kanyang sagot. “And how did you come up with that question?” Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay. Ang totoo niyan ay ayokong sagutin ang tanong niya. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko sa kanya kasi parang ang hirap para sa akin na sabihing gusto ko naman si Ace bilang kaibigan o bilang tao kasi mabait siya. And I don’t feel comfortable given the fact that Ian is the one who is asking me that question.