Poem For My Mother Mga Nobela at Kwento

"Si Mama lang ang meron ako, at hindi matutumbasan ng kahit anong kayamanan ang Mama ko!" "I can let go of the throne but I can't let go of my mother."

Ang unan na naging karamay ko, ang unan na siyang kayakap at natatanging kakampi ko. I miss my mom... I’m longing for her embrace... Pero hindi ko talaga kayang patawarin si Dad at Tita Amelia. The wounds may be healed but the scars they’ve caused me remains. Hindi ko kayang magpatawad ng mga trumaydor sa Mommy ko!

Pakiramdam ko noon, basta hawak ko na ang kamay ni Mom, wala na ang pangamba ko. Kahit anong sabi ko kay Dad na kaya ko ito at ako na ang bahala sa sarili ko, sa huli, kay Mom pa rin ako tatakbo. She cleared her throat and began to sing. [Grey November, I’ve been down since July. Motion captured put me in a bad light. I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone, trying to find the one where I went wrong…] Mom, I’m sorry that I became like this.

the maid commented again, and I saw in her eyes that she might remember something. Napangiti naman kami sa sinabi niya at natutuwa sa mga komentong natatanggap namin. I know she's a mother too, and she's making sacrifices. I wish I had a mother too, and I had a parent like her who would fill me with love and care that I never experienced. It's okay, I have my husband and son now—I have my own family now that will fill the missing piece in my heart.

Lumambot ang ekspresyon ng matandang madre superiora at hinaplos ang pisngi ko. "Proud kami sa narating mo, kahit ano pang ibato nilang masasama sayo tandaan mong nandito lang kaming lahat sa likod mo." Ngumiti ako at niyakap ang matanda. "Salamat po, Mother. Salamat po sa lahat. Kung wala kayo, wala din po ako. Utang ko po sa inyo ang meron ako ngayon." "Wala kang utang, anak. Dun pa lang sa ginawa mo ang lahat para lumaban sa buhay, bayad na bayad ka na."

Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa mga bituin na kumikislap, kasabay ng buwan na nagbibigay liwanag sa lahat. Muli ay tumulo ang aking luha, si mama ang dahilan. Ngumiti ako ng mapakla sa kalangitan na animo'y naro'n si mama. "I miss you, Mama," bulong ko habang nakatingin sa buwan. "How have you been? Were you doing good there? Are you having a good rest? Was it fun? If it does, then continue having fun, okay? Don't mind me here. You raise a strong woman. I wouldn't let this lose me. Be happy there though I know you already found your happiness.True happiness to be precise. I love you, mama."

tawag atensyon sa akin ni Mom that woke me up. "Mom, I know that you love me. And believe me when I say that, I love you too. You are the kindest person I've ever met. And, I'm grateful for meeting you, for giving me everything that I could ask for. You are the best, Mom. I cannot thank you enough. But, I hate to say this, Mom, I need to go," naiiyak kong sagot na lalo ako napasinghot dahil sa dami ng sipon sa ilong ko. "No, please. Please stay," umiiyak na aniya na nagmakaawa sa akin.

Kinagat ko ang labi at pilit na idinidilat ang mga mata dahil sunod-sunod na ang patak ng aking luha. A while ago, I am furious on what my father does to my mother. My pride highlighted. Hindi namin siya kailangan! But right now, I am silently wishing for his comeback. Mahina akong humihiling sa aking isip na umuwi na siya. My mother needs him! Siguro'y papagitna na lamang ako upang hindi sila mag-away. Baka kapag pinag-usapan nila ito ng maayos ay maresolba.

Aya holding my hand. Aya crying in the rain. My chest tightened painfully. She wasn’t there that night. The realization hit me like a punch. “Aya wasn’t even there,” I whispered. My mother said nothing. “She had nothing to do with it.” “Her existence was enough.” The cruelty of those words made my stomach churn. “You destroyed her life for nothing.” “I solved the problem.” “No,” paos kong sabi. “You created one.” My mother stepped closer. “You’re emotional right now.”

Mabuti na lang at naidala agad nila ito sa malapit na pagamutan dahil kung hindi, matutulad sa aking ama na maaabutan ko na wala ng buhay si mommy. 'God, huwag please... Huwag n'yo ho munang kunin si mommy, siya na lang talaga ang mayro'n ako ngayon. I can't afford to lose my mother. Hindi pa ho ako handa. Please, let me take care of my mom this time. Maging maayos lang siya, ipapangako kong hindi ko na iiwang mag-isa ang mommy ko.' Wika ng aking puso't isipan.