Novel & Cerita Reminiscing About The Past

He said as if provoking her. She winced. A sudden pain etched her heart. Bakit kailangan nitong banggitin ang nakaraan? At a times like this. "Sabi mo nga, back in old days. Wala na iyon kinalaman sa atin ngayon. It's all in the past."

Tiyak na mas masaya at maingay ang inuman namin ngayon kapag nandito siya. "How about we forget those things that happened in the past?" basag ko ng katahimikan na ikinatigil niya. "Tapos naman na ang mga 'yon, hindi ba? Wag na nating balikan. Mga magulang naman natin ang may problema at hindi tayo. So, why do we need to stressed ourselves about that?" A smile curved on his lips.

“So you still don't have an idea what happened?” I nodded. “Yes. I still couldn't remember what happened. But I do remember some things in the past. Siguro ay paunti-unti.” Jane came with a bottle of red wine. Muli na naman silang nag-iyakang dalawa. They haven't talked for years too so they really missed each other. We spent hours talking and being emotional towards each other. It's getting me nostalgic as I spent my time with them, watching them together. Napagtanto ko na sa tagal kong nawala sa buhay nila, marami rin akong nalagpasan na mga ganap sa kanila. They have their own family now.

Mariin kong ipinikit ang aking mga mata bago ko hinilot ang aking sentido. What happened in the past should only stay at the past. It shouldn't have affect the present and the future, but why am I still stuck on it? Bakit hindi ko kayang ialis ang sarili ko sa nakaraan? Kahit na anong gawin ko ay lagi akong bumabalik dito, laging ipinapaalala sa akin ng nakaraang iyon na hindi ako p'wedeng maging masaya. Laging pinapaalala sa akin na kailangan kong ikulong ang sarili ko mula rito dahil.... I'm part of it already. Napahilamos ako ng mukha. Naging mabigat ang aking paghinga na tila ba sinasakal ako.

"Kung nakakalimutan mo na ang nangyari anim na taon na ang nakalilipas, pwes ako ay hindi. Hinding-hindi ko iyon nakakalimutan!" Natulala si Lunabella at tumitig na lang kung saan. Hindi niya inaasahang babanggitin ng lalaki ng ganoon-ganoon na lang ang pangyayari anim na taon na ang nakalilipas. Kasabay niyon ay parang pelikulang nag-flashback sa kanyang isipan ang ginawa niya nang gabing iyon.

Minsan, kapag may event lang kami nagkikita but not as often as before. How I miss those days. It's always nice to reminisce those moments were laughter subsides despair. When youth was beautiful vibrant. When they always bully me whenever they want to and when we are each other's strengths and weaknesses. How nice it is to go back to that time where I was busy building my own life but still those people I treasured stayed. Masyado kasi ako noong naka-focus sa pag-aasam kay Brent na nakalimutan ko na ang tao sa paligid ko.

Baka nakakalimutan niyang matagal na ang panahon ang nakakalipas? "Winter, naguguluhan na talaga ako! Ano ba kasi ang gusto mo? If you want us to talk, then we can talk with formality. Remember that we are here for business. And what had been done in the past will remain there. Okay? Let us just forget everything. Dahil ako? Pinagtiyagaan kong kalimutan lahat ng yun at iwanan ang mga bagay na wala nang halaga ngayon. Just leave it behind." tumigil ako nung napagtanto kong marami na ata akong sinabi. Baka kung saan pa mapunta ang usapan na'to.

"Tayo? Paano tayo nagkakilala? Ano ang namiss ko? Ano ang dapat kong matandaan?" Natameme ako. Rewinding to a particular moment and trying to dissect what we could have done differently to change the situation... It is quite a painful process. Even a minute of thinking and reminiscing may dissolve the impenetrable shell I've spent months, if not years, attempting to construct to protect myself. When I remember back to a wonderful moment with someone, I find myself reflecting on how much enjoyment they brought to my life in a short of minutes. These types of recollections cause me seconds of heartbreak while also providing me with a lasting period of tranquility, and in a way, act as a rewind

"It's in the past, Maxine." Mabilis akong bumaling sa kanya. "Wow, so you recall my name?" "You may call it valuable or not but memories were all just a part of every person's past," he said. "You can either forget it intentionally or not, that's no one's business but in your case....it's okay." "Tss. That's what they always said. It's okay. Nakakasawa 'yon." Hindi siya sumagot. Natawa ako sa sarili ko, halata namang hindi siya nakakarelateafter this, so I need to observe and watch."

Kabang ngayon ko na lang ulit naramdaman. Is it because, there is a big posibility na pareho lang kami ng napanaginipan ng anak ko? Na magkadugtong ang panaginip na iyon? Na may kinalaman ang lalaking nasa panaginip namin sa nakalipas na taong hindi ko matandaan? Kung ganoon, I need to find a way to dig those forgotten memories.