Reminiscing The Past Novels & Stories

I admitted quietly. His eyes lifted slightly, attentive but not intrusive. I hesitated. Then continued anyway. “It’s not like pain. It’s… absence. Like something important used to be there, but I can’t remember what it is anymore.” Lucas didn’t interrupt. So I kept going. “I keep thinking maybe I should remember more clearly. Maybe if I tried harder, I could hold onto something about them. But every time I try, it slips away.” My fingers tightened slightly around the edge of the folder.

sabi ni Jael, “Do you still remember the old friend I mentioned the last time we talked?” Napahigpit ng pagkakahawak ni Amber sa kanyang manibela. Of course she remembered it. That friend he mentioned had once held a place in her past that she had tried so hard to forget. Ngunit hindi nagsalita si Amber. Nanatili itong tahimik, hinihintay ang sunod na sasabihin ni Jael. “Bukas ng gabi ang uwi niya,” malumanay na saad ni Jael. “Don’t you want to meet him again? Maybe reminisce a little about the past?”

Kaya bakit, bakit may ganong larawan na tila ba pilit ibinubulgar ang isang nakatagong katotohanan? So what was it then? Is it a memory of me before? Is it a piece of a life I once lived, now resurfacing like a ghost that refuses to stay buried? Pero ang sabi ni Vince, hindi na daw babalik ang mga dating ala-ala. His voice echoed in my head—firm, cold, final. He said I should just forget it. He said my past was not worth remembering, that the memories I had before were nothing but chains meant to drag me down. Hindi naman daw masaya ang mga ala-ala ko noon, he once told me. Words spoken like a warning, like a curse meant to seal the past away forever.

Ang emosyong nararamdaman ko ngayon nawawala sa tuwing naalala ko na lasing lang siya ngayon at bukas paggising niya ay makakalimutan niya rin lahat ng ito. End of flashback

Pero wala akong mai-react. But when our happy memories came flashing on my head. That's when I start breaking down. I wanted to go back to those times. I suddenly want to beg Him to give me the ability to turn back time. Kahit saglit ko lang na mabalikan 'yung mga panahon na 'yon. Maramdaman ko lang ulit 'yung saya. Kasi kung alam ko lang na matatapos din pala ang lahat ng 'yon, sana nilubos ko na.

"If you keep forcing yourself to remember your past, memories that have long been forgotten, there's a high possibility that you may never recover them. Alam natin pareho na posibleng mangyari 'yon dahil sa damage na natamo mo, Raze. Ilang beses ko nang sinabi sa'yo, huwag mong pilitin. Mas lalala lang ang migraine mo. Mas sasakit ang ulo mo. Gusto mo bang tuluyang hindi na makaalala?" "I just want to remember my past, Lincoln. I have to," he said firmly, though sadness laced his voice. "I really want to. Pakiramdam ko may importanteng bagay akong dapat maalala. Wala na bang ibang paraan para makaalala ako?"

What is something you’ve always want for yourself? Maraming mga bagay na hindi na kayang ibalik at hindi na maiibalik, kahit magbalik tanaw ay hindi pa rin nito maibabalik ang lumipas na kahapon. All we can do is look at those pictures and reminisce the past. The past is important and we’re just realized the important of it - we just appreciate those moment now. Cherish everything because in the future you’ll look back and they were the things that you were depress that you didn’t enjoy.

Sh1t! Maraming taon na ang naglipas pero hindi ko pa rin makakalimutan ang batang iyon na nawawala. Kahit matagal na iyon pero hindi ko pa rin makakalimutan. Kung paano ko siya pinatahan at binantayan hanggang sa dumating ang magulang niya. Muling bumalik sa isipan ko ang mga pangyayaring iyon. Tumingin ako sa paligid!

Dinig ko na ang tawanan bago pa man makarating sa kusina. Sumilip pa ako at nakita nga silang nag-aayos ng hapag. Nakatunghay lang ako sa kanila hanggang sa matapos sila. Masaya silang nag-uusap tungkol sa pinanood nila maghapon. Tapos napunta ang usapan nila sa trip na nagawa nila noon. Reminiscing na sila ng mga memories nila. Masasayang memories. Napangiti ako nang mapakla bago tumalikod.

Napa-iling na lang ako at marahang napatawa sa sinabi niya. Nag-usap kami ni Remus at napansin ko na mas matangkad na talaga siya sa akin ngayon. Nag kuwento lamang siya ng tungkol sa naging past life niya roon sa dating tini-tirahan at dating eskuwelahan niya. Maya-maya pa ay nagpaalam na siya sa akin at babalik na lamang daw siya bukas. Bitbit ang ngiting ibinigay sa akin ni Remus, ay pumasok na ulit ako sa loob ng bahay namin at dumiretso papasok ng aking kuwarto.