Trying My Best Novels & Stories

“Yes, exactly. I want my parents to be proud of me. I hate failures, that's why I always try my best.” “Hindi ba nakakapagod?” tanong niya muli. “Noon, oo. Pero unti-unti akong nasanay sa pressure. Alam mo kasi, fake it till you make it. Hindi naman ako ganito ka hyper kapag hindi ko pinepeke ang mga galaw ko noon hindi ba?” “Toxic ba?” nag-aalangan na tanong ko at umiling naman siya. “It’s completely fine. I envy you, to be honest. I try to do my best too but no matter how much I fake everything, I still can’t make it. Nakakapagod lang.”

Sakto naman ang ganitong pagkakataon upang damhin niya ang katahimikan dahil walang mga tao. Balak na sana niyang umupo ngunit namataan niya ang isang pamilyar na lalake'ng nakaupo't nakatagilid mula sa kaniyang kinatatayuan, kaya naman hindi siya agad nito napansin. 🎶 When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse.. 🎶

Hindi ko na mapigilan pa ang luha na kanina ko pa pinigilan. My hear beating so fast because of joy and happiness I felt right now. Maraming pagkakataon na minamaliit ako ng ibang tao at maraming pagkakataon na binababa ko ang sarili ko. Hindi masamang mangarap. Pangarap na magtatayo at aangat ng sarili mo hindi para patunayan sa lahat na hindi habang buhay mamaliitin ka. “Thank you for giving me this opportunity to achieve my biggest dream. I know it just a start but I promise that I'll do the best for my dreams.”

" hala saeng bilisan na natin. late na ko sa trabaho ko." " kaw tong mabagal eonni eh" for me to get that best.. i should keep moving forward. it may takes a lot of effort.. " aish. kanina ka pa saeng ah?" " hihi peace eonni. i labyah" that thing they called ' end' may come.. i may get rejection .. i may win you... or totally lose you .. but at least.. i can say that. i dont regret everthing. coz i tried.

"Why is that? Are you doubting yourself again?" "Sort of. I just can't help it…" "Callista…" Ngumiti ako nang malapad. "I had a doubt, yes. Pero hindi ko naman sinasabing natatakot akong sumubok. This might be new to me, but I'll do my best to make things work. Walang mawawala as long as I'm on the right track. And surely, I'll adapt to it by the time," ika ko.

Buong lakas ng loob ko, kahit nangingilid na ang luha. “I’m doing my best. Maybe it’s not enough for you, but I’m trying. Hindi ko man ma-perfect lahat, at least hindi ko sinusukuan.” Nanahimik siya sandali. Nakatitig lang. Walang reaksyon o emosyon na makikita sa mga mata niya. Nakipagsukatan ako ng tingin sa kanya. Nanginginig pa rin, pinipilit na huwag umiyak.

Giit nito at hinawakan ang kamay ko. Tumango ako ng marahan. "Ofcourse, mas bagay kayo ni Trinity. She have everything, she's way better than me." Sumikip ang dibdib ko at nanliliit sa aking sarili. Pinapangako ko, magsisikap ako sa pagaaral upang makamit ko ang bagay na gusto ko. I want to prove to everybody that I can do everything, I can be successful in life. Someday.

Nag-uunahan kaagad sa pagtakbo ang mga usherettes at nag-aalalang sinuri kaagad ang aking paang natapilok. “D-don't worry-y! I'm fine!” Kumbinsi ko sa kanila sabay ngiti ng hilaw. I tried to stand up but I can't! I tried it three times without their help but I failed! Pinagmasdan lang nila ako at hindi iyon alintana sa 'kin. I affirmed myself that I can do it but I failed again.

Ang tanga tanga ko! Pabida. Trying hard. That's what I looked like to him. Maybe he was right. God, maybe I was trying too hard. Maybe I was just trying too hard to matter to someone who never really looked my way. Someone who probably never knew I gave up my engineering slot just so he could take it.

Puno pa rin ng pag-asa ang mga mata niya. Nangilid ang luha sa mata ko, nasasaktan ako para sa kaniya. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang kakalabasan ng effort na ginagawa niya, pero kung ito ang magagawa ko para tulungan siya then fine. “Okay, I will try my best, Jake. Pero sana makahanap ka agad ng timing para masabi mo sa kaniya lahat, kaunti nalang ang oras na meron tayo.”