Novel & Cerita Why Do I Cry So Easily

And everything recalls in my mind like a flashback. I gulped as my heartbeat fasten. Natatakot ako. Pumatay ako ng hayop. A tear fell down my face and I wiped it immediately because my mother might see it. And she doesn't want us crying as according to her...you are weak when you cry. You are weak when you express your emotion. And people will take advantage on that. I coudn't agree more on her. Because the last time I acted nice to people, they took advantage my kindness.

Hinayaan ko lang sa pagtulo ang luha ko hanggang sa marinig ko ang pagbukas ng pinto kaya naman mabilis ko ring pinalis ang luha kong kanina pa tumutulo. But he immediately noticed me while wiping my tears. Mabilis siyang lumapit sa akin na nagtataka at nag-aalala ang mukha. “W-why are you crying?” Mabilis akong umiling. But damn these tears, tuloy-tuloy pa rin sa pagtulo! Bakit ba napaka-emosyonal ko ngayon? Because of my mens, maybe? Dalawa lang kasi ang nagiging mood ko sa tuwing nagkakaroon, it’s either I’m hyper or emotional.

Sugat na hindi pansin at dama ng iba. "I don't have the right to cry! I shouldn't show them that I'm hurting! I should have no emotions at all because my feelings weren't valid!" Fuck! I want to ask why? I wanted to cry and shout because of the pain that I'm feeling right now. Paano ko nga ba kinakaya ang ganitong sitwasyon? Bakit ba ako nasadlak sa ganitong klase ng buhay? Buhay nga bang matatawag ang kung ano mang mayroon ako ngayon?

I denied. "It's fine," umiiling na sabi niya. "It's okay to cry sometimes, baliw ka naman. You don't have to pretend to be okay. Crying is a way to cleanse your heart, you know?" taas-babang kilay na sabi niya sa akin. Grace helped me a lot. She was always there everytime I'm struggling. Pero walang palya kong sinabi sa kaniya na hindi ko kayang suklian pabalik ang kung anumang feelings na meron siya para sa akin.

Ni-hindi ko man lang naramdaman ang pagtulo ng luha sa mga mata ko. What the hell am I even crying for? -x

Lahat-lahat. “Hush.” Pagpapatahan sa akin ni Daddy at mahigpit akong niyakap. I cried in his shoulder. I can’t really imagine that I will cry in my Father’s arms because of heart break. I never do this in my entire life cause my childhood was a colorful and full of love. I never cry because of pain, most of all the time I’m crying because of happiness.

"You're such a jerk..." I feel so tired. Umagang-umaga pero pagod na pagod na agad ako. I just cried and shouted, but I feel like I've spent days doing that. I feel... extreme tiredness. Kagaya ng ginawa ko kagabi, wala sa sarili akong umupo mula sa kinatatayuan ko. Wala akong pake kung pinapanood niya akong umiyak ngayon. I just... want to cry. Give me some moment to cry.

sana hindi na ako umasa. Napakurap-kurap ako nang maramdaman kong tumulo ang luha sa pisngi ko. Hindi ko namalayang lumuluha na pala ako sa sobrang lalim ng iniisip ko, I tried to dried my tears dahil ayokong may nakakakita sa aking umiiyak. I hate it. It makes me feel weak.

nilapag ko ng calling card ko bago lumakad palabas, i can feel that anytime, babagsak ang dibdib ko sa bigat at sakit Nag mamadali akong pumasok sa elevator, i burst out my tears and cry hard, tangina. Ang sakit sakit na kahit ilang taon na ang nakakalipas, hindi padin sya naliliwanagan sa mga kagagahan nya saakin "Napaka walang hiya mo talaga!" i shout at the top of my lungs, i gently wipe away my tears and watch my reflection, i look like the same Yhra before. Crying in pain at mahinang tignan

"No you are not. It's normal to cry kapag nasasaktan ka. Ibuhos mo lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman mo. Iiyak mo lang lahat para gumaan ang pakiramdam mo." Umayos ako ng upo bago humarap sa kanya. "Why I am so lucky to have you?" Lumapad ang ngiti nito dahil sa tanong ko. "Because I am always here for you. You are my favorite little sister. So, don't cry because of your worthless ex. He is not worth it. Come on, you know how beautiful you are, you can easily catch a shark, so why are you crying because of a small fish?"