Crying In H Mart Novels & Stories

Then my chest started hurting, and before I could stop it, tears came. Not pretty tears. Not cinematic, single-tear-down-the-cheek type. More like ugly, silent, nakakahiya kind of crying where you press your sleeve to your face because you don’t want even your own room to witness it. I cried for Jun, kahit hindi ko siya kilala. For Miro, who made jokes about fractions and probably grew up with a missing space he didn’t know how to name. For Marisol, who still smiled while carrying groceries, bills, medicine, and ghosts.

Hindi ko na siya pinansin dahil ang atensyon ko ay nakatuon na sa mga luhang nag-uunahan na makalabas mula sa mata ko. When I stepped my feet inside my cold and gloomy room, I immediately covered my eyes and did the only thing I always wanted to do since I woke up earlier: cry. I let myself cry and cry. Just freaking... cry. Hindi ko alam kung kailan hihinto ang mga luhang iyon pero hinayaan ko na lang sila. Wala na akong oras pa para isipin ang ibang bagay. I just... wanted to cry for now.

At piping nagdarasal siya na sana, madali lang na ma-realize ng apo ang lahat. Hungkag ang pakiramdam ni Craig habang nagmamaneho. Hindi alam kung saan tutungo. Masyadong mabigat ang kanyang dibdib. Hanggang sa tuluyang nangilid ang kanyang mga luha. "Fùck! Why am I crying?" Napatigil siya gilid ng daan ng tuluyang bumuhos ang kanyang luha. "Fùck! Fùck! Fack!"

Nagprisinta siyang ipagmaneho ako papunta sa kompanya at ito na kami sa basement parking lot. Suminghot ako at pinunasan ang gilid ng mata ko na may marka pa ng luha. My eyes were swelling from crying after my argument with Millicent. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin lubos maisip kung ano ang maaaring maging dahilan niya kung bakit niya gustong ipalaglag ang anak namin. Pero plano ko siyang kausapin mamaya pag-uwi ko.

I straighten my posture and held my head up high. I won't give anyone glancing at me the satisfaction of seeing me cry. I thought Mason breaking up with me was the most painful thing I would feel. But I didn't expect that cutting Terrence in my life felt like hell. I never attend our class for that afternoon. Dumiretso na ako ng uwi dahil sa sobrang sama ng loob ko. I cried on my room, thinking what did I do wrong to them but I ended up falling asleep, still trying to figure it out.

Doon ko lang nalaman na tumutulo na pala ang luha ko. Napapahiya ko itong pinunasan sa harap ng saleslady. “N-No... Napuwing lang siguro ako. S-Sige... Pasensya na.” Sabi ko at mabilis na lumabas ng boutique. Nakayuko akong naglalakad palabas ng mall dahil sa walang humpay na luha. “Shit!” Bulyaw ko at napahawak sa aking noo dahil sa nabangga ko. Tumunghay ako para humingi ng pasensya. “Sorry po—” pero naputol ang dapat paghingi ko ng sorry.

I still cry and cry at napa upo nalang ako sa sahig. I was shocked nang may kumalabit sa likod ko, I was startled nang makita ko si Nate sa likod na diretsyo talaga ang tingin sa aking mga mata, he wipe my tears flowing down my cheeks. “Why you are crying Mr. 2?” He asked worrying and he hold my shoulders then he breath deeply.

I'm conscious but unconsciously tears fell from my eyes. I couldn't help it and I want too cool down so I decided to take a shower. ***** Nahimasmasan ako ng konti. I cry it all under the shower. I took my pain reliever before laying to bed. Nagbitaw ako ng malalim na hinga before I closed my eyes. Still, after an hour of crying under the shower umiyak pa rin ako ngayon. I wiped my tears. Sinubsob ko ang sarili ko sa kumot. I know I am a cry-baby but it’s really driving me crazy.

I suddenly felt small because he was actually very tall. Nang humarap yung lalaki ay nanlaki ang mata ko sa gulat ng si tatay Rhamsey pala iyon. But what is he doing here in front of my Mama’s grave? And why was he crying so hard, like my mom meant so much to him? “Tatay Ra-Rhamsey?...”takang sambit ko sa kanya. “Ikaw pala ‘yan Martina,”nakangiting bungad niya sa akin at pinunasan ng panyo yung natuyong luha sa mata niya.

mahabang litanya ni Ria habang nakahawak sa balikat ko. Because of her comforting words hindi ko na napigilan pa ang emosyon ko, hindi ko na napigilan pang ilabas lahat ng nararamdaman kong sakit at pighati. For the second time today I hug them both so tight while crying my heart out. I cried and cried, hoping that atleast in this way mababawasan yung bigat na nararamdaman ko. Mabuti na lamang at walang masyadong tao sa Starbucks ngayon at nasa pinaka side na pwesto din pati kami kaya hindi kami ganun ka kita or ka center sa mga tao.