Novel & Cerita As Far As I Can Remember

I was delighted that the weather cooperated today because I couldn’t imagine visiting them on a rainy day. “Well… we can distinguish what is right and wrong when we have memories. We can recall where we made mistakes and learn from them,” Marcus stated that brought me back to reality. He paused for a second, I saw his lips tremble when he attempted to talk again. “We can't remember everything, but the ones that evoke strong emotions are the ones that stay with us the longest.” I nodded. “I think so, too…”

"My God, what have I done?" "Iyan din ang tanong ko sa sarili ko kagabi," garalgal na sagot niya. Dali dali siyang bumangon at pumunta sa banyo na matatagpuan sa bedroom nito. Saka lang siya nakadama ng hiya. Ano nga ba itong ginawa ko? Bakit ko pinayagang mangyari ito? My first time and the guy didn't even know that we did it! Gusto niyang iuntog ang ulo sa dingding. What should have been beautiful and sacred turned into something sordid and shameful.

the voice whispered. Warm. Gentle. Broken. My chest tightened painfully. “Mom?” I whispered. The memory surged. A letter. Hands shaking. Tears. “You have to forget,” she said. “You have to survive.” My breath hitched. “Why?” I cried. “Because if you remember—” The memory cut. Sharp. Incomplete. But one thing remained. One word. One name. Burned into my mind. Clearer than anything else. My heart pounded. My lips parted.

Nagpumiglas ako pero sadyang mas malakas siya dahilan para sapilitang maupo ako doon sa upuan at sumimangot. "Ayaw ko nga kasi," ungot ko at akmang tatayo nang hinila na naman niya ako dahilan para maupo ulit ako. "Sige na. Remembrance." Pagpipilit niya pa at hinawakan ng mahigpit ang kamay ko para hindi ako makaalis. "Anong remembrance ka dyan? Bahala ka sa buhay mo! Dinadamay-damay mo pa ako sa kakornihan mo e," reklamo ko at inis na napakamot sa aking noo.

A pair of eyes. A scent. A memory I couldn't quite reach. Like something buried beneath years of dust. "Pakiramdam mo ba ay nakilala mona siya sa kung saan?" tanong niya at umiling ako. "I don't think so. I'm not sure how and when and why she's familiar," pag-amin ko dahil iyon naman ang totoo. I remembered every mission. My memory had never failed me. Yet when I looked at Solana...

All I can remember was that I was having sex with a man who seemed like I was in love with. Vish? Who was that? I couldn’t remember his face. Sobrang linaw ng mukha niya sa panaginip ko pero bakit hindi ko na maalala ngayon? What the heck is happening to me? Bigla na lang akong nahilo at kasabay niyon ang bigla ring pagsakit ng ulo ko kaya napahawak ako roon saka mariin na napapikit. God! I really need to see some specialist that could help me remember my past. Hindi pwedeng ganito na lang ako lagi. Kailangan kong makaalala kasi kung hindi, mababaliw na ‘ko.

Charot, ako rin pala. 'Kausapin mo na siya anak, you're not getting any younger, and you need them. Ayokong kapag nawala na 'ko ay nag-iisa ka pa rin, atsaka... Naniniwala akong maiintindihan ka niya, o kung nakalimutan ka nga niya, make a way for him to remember you. His brain might not remember you, but I know that his heart will never forget about you...' Parang bigla kong narinig ang boses ni mommy sa tenga ko. Sh*t, ito na ba ang tamang panahon?

"Ayan din ang iniisip ko noong ipayo nila Carl na huwag ka munang kausapin sa mga recent memory mo na nawala. Ang sabi nila baka raw ma-trigger ang utak mo at tuluyan mo itong makalimutan." "Pero mas tuluyan ko na hindi na iyon maaalala pa kung ipagdadamot niyo sa akin na sabihin ang mga recent happenings sa buhay ko. Malilimutan ko nang malilimutan ang lahat kung hindi niyo ako tutulungan na alalahanin ang lahat ng bagay na nangyari."

Nakatingin lang ako sa pintuan niya habang may inaalala. “I still don’t remember what happened last last night,” nakangusong saad ko kaya naman mahina itong tumawa. “Too bad for you.” Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. “Paano ba ako napunta sa kwarto mo? Can you help me recall it? Maybe answering my questions will do.” Kumibit-balikat ito. “Why recall it when we can do it again?” Namilog ang mata ko. “Gago ka ba?!”

The heck! Aaminin kong hindi ko alam na it runs to my blood ang ganitong pagiging wild. I can sense it. Maybe na mana ko siguro. Hindi ko nga lang alam kung kanino. Lihim akong natawa sa naiisip. Ganito ba ang epekto ng may amnesia? Damn!