Culpa Mea Novels & Stories

I’ve been blaming myself for everything that has happened kaya nawala na rin sa isip ko na hindi ako ang may kasalanan ng lahat. This is Messina’s fault. That family is to blame for what happened. Sila ang nagpapatay sa kambal ko na pati si Joaquin ay nadamay. Sila ang dahilan kung bakit nagkahiwalay pati kami ni Chanel. And I can’t see my dad as well whenever I want to.

“Sino ka para pagbantaan ako nang ganiyan?!” “All I need is your apology, Madame. Kung talagang matigas ka at hindi nagsisisi sa mga ginawa mo, then I will see you in court for slandering me and accusing me of theft. Sinisira mo ang reputasyon ko kaya dapat kang magbayad.” “Klaire, ano’ng sabi mo?” gulat na tanong ni Sophia. “I’m not talking to you,” malamig na wika ni Klaire.

Hindi siya makapaniwala. "MS ARABELLA SIMON, PLS FORGIVE ME. IT WAS NOT MY INTENTION TO RUIN YOU REPUTATION. AIN'T HAPPEN AGAIN" "I DON'T KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF MY INCOGNIZANCE, PLS FORGIVE ME MS. ARABELLA,"

Kagabi— “Hindi ko alam ang sinasabi mo na naalala kita. Hindi ako ang asawa mo! Hindi ko nga alam bakit n*******d ako ngayon dito sa tabi mo. Did you… did you rape me?” “Rape?!” galit kong tanong. Ayokong magalit pero bakit ako ginaganito ni Thea? Muli siyang umatras, nasa mga mata ang takot sa akin. Napabuga na lang ako ng hangin, humakbang paatras, at saka naupo sa kama.

“Total, siya naman nasa katinuan habang wala akong malay.” Bigla nalang tumayo si Vanessa at mabilis na isinaboy sa akin ang kape na sa kaniyang tasa. Ilang sigundo akong hindi nakalagaw dahil sa ginawa niya. Basang basa ang dibdib ko ng kape, mabuti nalang at natiis ko yung init! “Is that how you apologize?”

Infairness ang ganda ng sulat kamay niya, kanino kaya ‘to galing? Agad kong binuksan ang note, nabitawan ko pa ito nang makita na galing sa senyorito ang note. Carmella, I hope you will accept this note as my token of apology of judging you and accusing you of lying, I know you’re not lying, it just my anger came out all of a sudden, I know I disappointed and made you angry, in expense of giving me a sweet cake, I still ate that cake though, because it’s a food that you gave me.

Hindi ko mapigilang mapaiyak nang mabasa ko iyon. Kasalanan ko! Kasalanan ko! She left me... It's my fault... ****

Nauna siyang lumabas kaya nanghihina akong napaupo at napaiyak. Tiya Ysabella is disappointed in me. Draven hates me. Fuck! What have you done, Mavis? Hindi mo lang sinira ang buhay mo, sinira mo rin ang buhay ng mga taong mahal mo. No matter what happens, I'll accept it—because, in the end, this was my fault. Every mistake, every consequence, it all leads back to me. The weight of it presses down on my chest, but I won't run. I won't make excuses. I'll bear the blame, no matter how much it hurts. Because if this is the price I have to pay... then so be it.

Hahaha. It’s been years pero mukhang hindi pa rin nila nakakalimutan ang nagyari noon. Mukhang hindi pa rin nawawala sa mga alaala nila ang mga ginawa ko noon. It’s been years pero mukhang hindi pa rin sila nakaka-move on sa mga nangyari na noon. I mean, it’s not my fault naman, right? It’s that stupid, stubborn bitch named Lucilla Uno’s fault, not mine.

Napakunot lang si Marcellus sa wala sa oras na pagtatanong ng kanyang asawa. “Because you are the only one who loved me even in my unexplainable days. Second of all, you can not be the culprit and the victim at the same time. So please, don’t ever blame yourself,okay? By the way,speaking of culprits, have you found them?”