Don't Cry For Me Novels & Stories

Naramdaman ko ang sariling umangat sa pagkakahiga hanggang sa muling bumalik sa pagkakaupo. "Woman, you need to stop crying and open your fucking eyes." Rinig kong wika niya. Dahil sa takot na muling mangyari sa’kin ang ginawang kababuyan ng demonyong ito. Iminulat ko ang aking mata, gulat na gulat ako sa sunod niyang ginawa. Ang

Kaya ko ito at kagaya ng plano ko ay sa loob ng ilang buwan na mag-asawa kami ay ipaparamdam ko sa sarili ko at sa kanya na para kaming totoong mag-asawa at matapos nun pwede na akong maging single hanggang sa huling hininga ko. "Don't cry." Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya at doon ko din napansin ang mainit na luha na lumalabas sa mga mata ko. "I'm not." ***** LMCD22

I still feel so weak. "It's not wrong to cry sometimes," Zale murmured but I shook my head. I won't cry. "I won't cry," I repeat what's inside my head. "Paano mo nalulunok lahat? Cry if you want. I won't judge. Isipin mo na hindi mo ako kilala. Ilabas mo lahat," sabi niya pero muli lang akong umiling. I don't want to cry. I don't want.

"I'll never walk again until you come back to me I'm down on bended knee." tumayo ako mula sa kama at naglakad papunta sa lamesa dahil baka magising pa siya. Habang nakaupo ako ay nakatitig pa rin ako sakaniya habang patuloy na kumakanta at umiiyak, F-ck. I don't f-cking care if they call me gay or what because I'm always crying like a baby. When I cry it's never a trickle and it never starts in my eyes. It begins as a feeling in my chest and a sadness in my brain. The leaking water is only a blessed release, it's one way my body chooses to cope and I guess it's a way to communicate too, whether I want to or not.

I let a heavy sigh at hinirap si daddy. "From now on dad let not just mind about each other business. Let just forget it, don't mind about me just like what you usually use dad. Your good at it, act like I doesn't exist like you use too. Let me breath dad even just this time" without bidding a goodbye I turn my back and let my tears fall. I hope this will be the last time that I will cry.

Sugat na hindi pansin at dama ng iba. "I don't have the right to cry! I shouldn't show them that I'm hurting! I should have no emotions at all because my feelings weren't valid!" Fuck! I want to ask why? I wanted to cry and shout because of the pain that I'm feeling right now. Paano ko nga ba kinakaya ang ganitong sitwasyon? Bakit ba ako nasadlak sa ganitong klase ng buhay? Buhay nga bang matatawag ang kung ano mang mayroon ako ngayon?

Kahit mukha na akong tanga rito ay hindi ko pa rin mapigilan. Damn. I'm such a crybaby!

Dalawang taon ba naman na walang araw na hindi ako umiyak kakahanap lang sa ‘yo Noah. “I hope your eyes will never cry again. You deserve happiness, kahit na hindi ko alam ang pinagdaanan mo. Pero kasi meron pa ring lungkot sa mata mo, yet kita ko rin na lumalaban ka rin sa pagpigil mong umiyak.” He really knows me, I think muscle memory na rin yung bagay na iyon. Kahit na hindi niya ako natatandaan, ganon na ganon niya ako kakilala.

Mabilis kong pinunasan ang luhang pumatak sa aking mga mata I don't want to be here anymore. This is freakingly suffocating the hell out of me. Please, someone get me out of here. My heart still pounding so hard. I hate this kind of feeling! I don't want this. I'm fine now, I started to move on... to live my life without him. Ci, get me out of here. But why the freaking freak am I crying?

Kung magtatagal ako'y baka tuluyan na akong mawasak. I can't let them see me cry!