Feeling Broken Quotes Novels & Stories

KABANATA 11 Days passed like a blur, but my heart.. it is still breaking day by day, slowly. The happiness has long gone, forgotten as loneliness visit me again. I look at the sultry ocean as the strokes of the waves touch my feet soothingly. The ocean is still blue, just like my feelings, I'm in a deep shit blue. Funny as how my favorite color and feelings differ. I hug my shoulder firmly as the sun burn my entire body, a brand new day to get hurt. Again and again.

Sinubukan kong huminga nang malalim para pigilan ang pag-iyak, pero traydor ang sarili kong emosyon. Isang mabigat at basag na hikbi ang kumawala sa mga labi ko. Napayuko ako, mabilis na tinakpan ng dalawang kamay ang mukha ko habang tuluyang bumagsak ang mga luha. Ang bigat. Sobrang bigat. Nanginig ang buong katawan ko sa pag-iyak. I tried to be strong. I tried to be the wild, vengeful wife. But I am just a broken woman whose heart was shattered into a million pieces.

At habang lumilipas ang panahon, mas lalo akong nawawala sa sarili. I can’t do it anymore. Feels like my other half has been lost with me. Wala rin akong ganang kumain, kaya ilang beses na akong nasesermonan ni Baste. Even our quizzes wala akong maisagot na maayos. Pinatawag nga ako sa mga office ng prof namin to asked if there’s something going on with me. What to say? Because I am brokenhearted? Brokenhearted.

Ang sakit sakit niyang mahalin. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam kapag broken. Hindi lang puso ang naaapektuhan kundi pati na rin ang buong sistema. Nakakawalang gana sa lahat. Wala akong maramdamang kahit kaunting gaan ng kalooban man lang at sa patuloy na pagdaan ng mga sariwang alaala, maiksing sandali ko sa mansyon kasama sya ay hindi ko mapigilan ang pagluha.

Ako naman ay nagtiim labi ay nag-iwas ng tingin. Maya-maya ay umangat ang kamay niya sa aking pisngi at agad nakumpirma na umiiyak ako. Bumuntong-hininga siya bago hinaplos ‘yon upang tanggalin ang luha roon. Napayuko ako kasabay ng paghawak niya sa aking baba upang iangat ‘yon. Nagtama ang tingin namin. “You’re broken . . . because of him.” it’s not a question, it is a statement. “Why? Do you have . . . feelings for him? Did he reject you?”

But I'm broken. How can I help myself if I'm broken? How can I fix myself from being broken to being whole again? Iniyak ko ang lahat ng sakit. Ang lahat ng sama ng loob habang umaasa na sana matapos na ang lahat ng ito. Hindi ko na kaya, ayaw ko na! There's nothing left in me. I am not worthy to live long. I wanted to rest. I wanted to stop the pain that slowly eating me alive. Even if I tell them... I know that nobody believes me.

Tinanggap nila ang lahat ng nangyari, nagbigay ng kapatawaran at binigyan ang mva sarili ng pagkakataon na magmahal at makaramdam ulit ng pagmamahal. Ang sugat sa puso ay maghihilom. Nasa iyo lamang bilang taong sugatan kung sa paanong paraan mo ito gustong maghilom. How to heal a broken heart? Learn to accept things no matter how painful they are, forgive and move on. END.....

“FUCK IT! FUCK YOU! HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT?! YOU ALWAYS TALK LIKE YOU'RE SO GREAT. INAASAR MO AKO? OKAY! INIINSULTO MO AKO? SURE! WALA AKONG KWENTANG TAO AT WALA AKONG FUTURE KASI I ALWAYS HAVE FUN? IF YOU SAY SO! I'M THE MOST DESPICABLE PERSON IN THE WORLD KASI WALA AKONG PAKIELAM SA NARARAMDAMAN NG IBANG TAO SA PALIGID KO? FINE! SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT! AYAN ANG TINGIN MO SA AKIN, EH. WALA AKONG MAGAGAWA D'YAN, BUT NOW? HOW DARE YOU? “HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT THIS IS A SMALL PROBLEM? MY SISTER'S AND YOUR BROTHER'S DEATH, OUR NEPHEW'S LOST MEMORIES IS A SMALL THING? A SMALL PROBLEM?! WOW! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT BUT IT'S NOT SURPRISING. THE MIGHTY AND PERFECT MR. AVELLINO IS AN ASSHOLE. YOU HAVE THE N

Namumuo, dumudulas at dahan-dahang nauubos. "I know what it feels like, Avern. It hurts and hurting is not even enough to express what it actually feels. It seeps deeper, deeper in your soul. That every time you see them together it feels like a dagger struck in your heart. Breaking it bit by bit until it's in pieces. You don't even know if there's still love left for yourself because all you could do is give it to others. Even when it feels empty inside, you give. You give more than what you can. Until there's nothing left. Because you don't know what else you could do if you don't."

I was afraid that maybe this was just an infatuation, a fleeting spark that would burn brightly for a short time before fizzling out, leaving me with nothing but ashes and regret. The thought of such a letdown was almost unbearable, the possibility of heartbreak a constant shadow looming over our budding connection. I questioned every shared laugh, every tender touch, searching for evidence to either confirm or deny my worst fears. The uncertainty was agonizing, a torturous dance between hope and despair. "I had never imagined walking with anyone..beside me, and I never had thought that it's gonna be you Ramina. All these past few years, I believed that marriage in papers is fine.."