Hurting Emotions Quotes の小説・ストーリー

Napatingin kami sa salamin na nasa harapan niya na siyang ginawa niya rin isa-isa sa amin. "I will be lying if I say that we can.. escape safe," he added but my heart already felt numb. I've experienced more. Emotional and physical damage. Broken. Wasted. Cried harder. Everything fell dangerously again and it feels like I was coming back to the past where everything was excruciating.

Nanlaki ang mata ko sa lumabas sa bibig ni Lyden, agad akong napalinga sa paligid at mahinang hinampas ang kamay niyang nakapatong sa lamesa. "Lyden!" Mahinang suway ko't pinagtaasan niya ako ng kilay. "Para kasing high ka sis, kasi tingnan mo ah." Bahagya siyang umusog sa kinau-upuan ko at nag-muwestra pa ng kamay niya. "He's hurting you emotionally sis. Emotionally, but the hell on earth, parang wala lang sa 'yo." Napanguso ako. "Anong wala lang sa akin. Nasasaktan ako, Lyden, sa totoo lang. Masakit na dito," duro ko sa aking dibdib.

I tried to hold back my tears when I'm in the middle of our staircase but as much as I want hold it back,lalo lang akong napapaiyak. When I reach my room doon na nagsimulang tumulo ang mga luha ko.I'm always their disappointment.Kailanman ay hindi sila naging proud sa akin.Sa tuwing sinasabi nilang disappointed sila sa mga nagagawa ko, pag-iyak lang ang nagagawa ko.God knows how much I tried to be strong and to hold back my tears pero talagang masakit. I was deeply wounded by their words.I may not be hurt physically but emotionally...I was totally damaged.

Mananatili ang sisi niya sa sarili niya. I wonder why most people feel responsible for other people's happiness. Kaya kapag may nagawang nakakasakit sa kanila kahit hindi naman kasalana'y sarili pa rin ang sisisihin at sa huli'y makakaramdam ng konsensya. When you reject someone, it feels awful. When your happiness upset someone, it feels awful too. And when someone is hurt because of you, that was the worst feeling because you know everything will never be the same again. The emotional pain will stay and will never be erased. Makalimutan at mabura man ay nakabakat na. Palaging may tamang proseso at matagal. Ayos naman kami kaya siguro ayos lang din kung hindi ko muna sabihin? Because even w

“Gusto mo ba sabihin ko na, layuan mo na si Jami at huwag na huwag kakausapin— tingin mo makikinig ka? Tingin mo ba lalayo ka? Hindi ‘di ba?” Sumbat ko pa tsaka ko nasapo ang mulha. “I wish you didn’t just open up the topic I’m forgetting for a week.” Singhal ko. “I’m sorry—“ “Yeah, sorry. How many times do you have to apologize to realize that you’re fucking hurting me? That I am hurt? That I am crying because of you everyday?” Nagtatampo at masama ang loob kong sabi.

Hindi ko kaagad napansin na tumutulo na pala ang luha mula sa mga mata ko habang nagsasalita. “I hate you so much for hurting me, I hate you so much for hurting me until now. I hate you so much for breaking my heart into pieces-. I hate you so much for making me love you so much until now-. After all this time, you are still the man who can hurt me so badly.” Nang marinig niya iyon ay mas hinigpitan niya pa ang pagkakayakap niya sa akin saka ako muling binulungan.

"IT HURTS, YOU KNOW? Seeing my twin like that makes my whole world down in hell ... I can't even do anything, I'm so useless brother. I can't even give him a touch, I'm such a stupid person. I'm the older brother but I can't do anything. I'm hurt, I don't want him to be angry with me. I don't want him to hate me, I don't want him to think that I'm just nothing with him. I don't want him to think I'm someone else, I'm afraid that I might lose him, he's the only one left I have, who strengthen me," sambit ni Clever.

Nang walang makuhang sagot ay saka ako nagmamadaling pumasok ng banyo para ilayo sa kanya ang puso ko na patuloy niyang sinusugatan sa napakamatatalim niyang panghuhusga sa aking pagkatao. Damn! Wala siyang karapatang insultuhin ako ng sobra! Wala siyang alam! Damn you Logan for hurting me emotionally! Damn you! I hate you for this! I want to hate you. Napapasabunot ako sa sarili kong buhok sa sobrang sakit ng mga pinapadama niya sa akin ngayon. I want to keep being calm, dahil baka manikip ang dibdib ko. But God, I can't be okay.

Hindi ko na naman mapigilan maging emosyonal at naiyak. "Sorry, love. Don't hurt me na, please? Ikaw kasi, iniwan mo 'ko, hahabol tuloy tayo sa sèx." "Razen naman!"

Pero sa loob-loob mo ay para'ng paulit-ulit ka nang pinapatay. Hindi ako iyakin na tao pero ngayon ang mga luha ko ay parang waterfalls na hindi mapigil sa pag-agos. Gan'to nga siguro kapag broken-hearted ang isang tao, nagiging emosyonal kahit pigilin ang sarili niya.