I Doubt Therefore I Am の小説・ストーリー

Pakiramdam ko kasi ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. I am doubting something because I know that when I made something fast, it might fall immediately because of lack of strong foundation. “Love something's bothering you.” It's not a question, it's a statement. I took a deep breath at humarap sa kanya. “I'm just thinking about something,” maikling saad ko. “What is it hmm? May I know?” he caressed my arm and my hair. I smiled at him as I leaned on his muscular body.

Pero nakita ko ang pag-angat ng kanyang labi: “dahil alam mo ang sagot.” My posture crumpled. Hindi ko inaasahan ang susunod niyang sasabihin. He was right…I knew it from the very beginning. So why did I doubt? Bakit niya pinaparamdam na kahit katiting ay may pag-asa na maging totoo lahat ng ito?

Hindi nag-abalang magpalit ng damit. Pumikit ako ng mariin at humawak sa dibdib. Bakit ganun? Panira ng mood talaga kapag inaatake ako ng doubt. Inatake ako ulit ng doubt at nauwi ako sa pagtatanong sa sarili kung may silbi ba ‘tong ginagawa kong pagsusulat. Para sa akin ba talaga ‘to? Nasa tamang daan ba ako? Matutupad ko ba ‘yung pangarap ko na maging published writer?

“Not you. I only doubt the world. But not you.” Ngumiti siya at hinalikan ako sa noo. “Good. Because I’ll never let the world win against us.”

"I'm so d'mn foolishly inlove with you..and I hope you won't doubt that" Doubt?.. Doubt word is killing me now..and I can't help myself not to believe in my doubts.. Hindi ako nagsalita.. hinayaan ko lang na nasa ganoong posesyon kami.. Nararamdaman ko na rin Yung bigat nya kahit nakatukod Yung tuhod nya mula sa magkabilang gilid ko..I want to push him..but I have no strength to that..Alam ko namang Wala rin Yung kahihinatnan..

puno ng determinasyon niyang saad kaya napapikit naman ako para pigilan ang luhang gustong kumawala sa mga mata ko. "I'm sorry if I sounded like I doubted you. Natakot lang ako," pag-amin ko kaya napasinghap na lang ako nang paulanan niya ako ng halik mula sa panga ko hanggang sa gilid ng labi ko. Nagsimula na rin manlamig ang katawan ko.

“Why would I follow you? may pinuntahan talaga akodito.” sa mga sinabi ng katabi ay hindi niya ito kayang pag katiwalaan kahit pa may contrata na siya dito ay hindi niya parin ito pinapaniwalaan. “ Doubting? Huh.” Honestly she really doubting Dylan pero yung isipan niya sinasabing kakampi ito. “If you don’t want me to doubt you then tell me why are you here? And for all the places why here?”

I am really trust this man? I admit because of what happened to us, I sometimes doubt him. I stared at him for a second and I felt guilty for doubting this man. I sighed in shame. “I’m sorry…” I mumbled. “Yes, I trust you,” I added with nodded. “Fiel…” “Oo nagtitiwala ako, pero minsan hindi ko mapigilang mag-isip…” ang hirap din pala lalo na kung saan kami nag-umpisa.

"I can't even believe your feelings. How it ended up to be like this? Bakit sobrang bilis? Paano kung nalilito ka lang rin dahil sa nangyayari? How can you be so sure that you truly love me? What if, you're just tempted? There's so many questions in my mind, One. I know I shouldn't think this way. I know I should look out to the positive side but I'm just being protective to myself." "I'm protecting myself. That's all the thing I know of why I'm being like this. I'm doubting everything. What if, I'll risk it? What will happen to me if ever I'll go to the path I'm not sure at? Hindi ba at ako yung magiging kawawa? I will literally feel an unexpected pain, that I'm scared with. It's hard for m

I am really trust this man? I admit because of what happened to us, I sometimes doubt him. I stared at him for a second and I felt guilty for doubting this man. I sighed in shame. "I'm sorry..." I mumbled. "Yes, I trust you," I added with nodded. "Fiel..." "Oo nagtitiwala ako, pero minsan hindi ko mapigilang mag-isip..." ang hirap din pala lalo na kung saan kami nag-umpisa.