Falling Apart Mga Nobela at Kwento

Vernice Pagmulat ko ng mata, ramdam ko agad ang bigat. Hindi dahil sa kakulangan ng tulog, kundi dahil may bagay na dahan-dahang kumakain sa loob ko — isang himagsikan ng pag-aalinlangan at takot. Tumango ako sa sarili ko, kinuha ang sapin ng unan, at dahan-dahang bumangon. Bago pa man ako magbihis, narinig ko ang paghinga ni Chaos mula sa kabilang bahagi ng kama. Nakatagilid siya, tahimik, at para bang sinusukat ang bawat hinga niya kung gaano ako kahinahon. Hindi ko siya tinignan. Takot ako na kung titingnan ko ang mukha niya, maaakala niyang papatulan ko ang damdamin ko at magmumukha akong mahina.

He remembers how Vanraj’s small fingers curled around his own when he held him for the first time. Umihip ang hangin at isinarado nito ang mga pintuan sa lounge. The doors slammed loudly kaya naman napalingon si Vanraj doon. For the umpteenth time, something inside him rumbles. And for the umpteenth time, all he can do is watch silently as everything falls apart… again.

Nanatili lang sila sa tabi ko, holding me together while I completely fell apart. For the first time in a long while... I didn’t have to pretend I was okay. I cried until my eyes burned, until my throat ached, until my head throbbed. Eventually, my body simply gave out. The exhaustion caught up with me. My vision slowly blurred, the voices around me faded into silence, then... everything went black.

Umupo muli ako sa kama and let my tears fall down continuously. 'Gosh what have I done?'

Hindi ba at iyon ang naging dahilan kaya miserable ako ngayon? I didn't mean about Alexander breaking up with me. It's about Andre or King Andre of France; my ex-husband. I've seen many warning signs while I am in a relationship with him, but I turned a blind eye on it because I love him. And now, look where it got me; I became a divorced woman. I was born an achiever, but for the first time in my life, I experienced the word "failure" because of Andre. "What a shameful woman. Hindi ko alam na kahit may asawa ay pinapatulan mo na ngayon."

"Falls? May falls rito?" Nakangiting tumango ito. "Yes po." Sabi nito while pinching her cheek. Tinanggal niya ang kamay nito sa pisngi niya. "Iba pa yung falls dun sa may batis?" Tanong niya. "Hindi naman falls iyon eh. Parang falls lang dahil sa mga batong nagkapatong-patong." Nagpapapalakpak siya sa sobrang excitement. "Oh my God! Excited na ako!"

Unti-unti na niyang kwenikwestyun ang kanyang sarili. Bakit parang may something sa dibdib niya na hindi niya mapangalanan kung ano. Ang tanging alam lang niya, it has something to do with falling. At malapit na siya sa edge. Tinapik tapik niya ang mukha. Erase. Erase. Erase. No. No. No.

Napasigaw nalang ako nang makita kong lumuwa na siya ng dugo at tuluyang nag pikit ng mga mata. And that same moment my whole life fell apart! I saw everything we had broke into million pieces! I saw our dream life slowly fading away before my eyes! That very same moment my whole world turned upside down! Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko nagawang gumalaw dahil ay sunod ko nalang namalayan ay nasa loob na ako ng masukal na gubat at tumatakbo palayo sa tiyak na kapahamakan!

I failed my parents. I failed myself. And, I just let them down Now,I'm in pain. My heart turn into shattered peices. I don't know what am I gonna do. I had the Elysium's treasure yet she had my weakness. Because,I fell inlove and trusted that man.