It's Your Loss Novels & Stories

Lumapit siya sa kama ko kung saan ako nakaupo habang nakahawak sa librong binabasa ko. He sat beside me as he took a deep breath and hold my hand. "Keish, I know it's hard for you to accept what happened. Alam kong mahirap, pero wag naman sanang ganito. Don't shut everyone out of your life. Wag din naman sanang ito ang maging dahilan para pati ikaw ay sumuko," he said while weighing my emotions. "Please Keishana, don't punish yourself because you lose him. It isn't your fault. Hindi mo kasalanan ang pagkawala niya," he added dahilan upang maramdaman kong muli ang pamilyar na kirot sa puso ko dahil sa pagkawala niya.

The letter wasn’t meant for anyone but herself. To my own self, One day, as you look back at the days you cherished him, you will realize that you lost nothing. He lost you and it’s not something worth regretting. Someday, you will be free from pain. Time will come and when you see each other again, your body will turn numb. One day, he’ll regret losing you. Because he’s not just losing one but two.

maging masaya kami ni Isles? “My life is a complete darkness. Played games before. Won some. And lost some, too. And I’m never good at losing... especially when it comes to you.” Nagbaba siya ng tingin. His mission... his family... he lost it all. “I’ve lost so many things in my life, Nathalia... but when I lost you, it was another type of fall. No, it wasn’t just a fall. It was a throw at the rock bottom.” Kinagat ko ang aking labi. Darkness... it has always been associated with what we have.

sigaw ko habang tinututok 'yon sa kanya. "Kendall, huminahon ka lang, okay. Hindi ito ang sulusyon ng problema mo." Napangisi ako sa sinabi niya though, medyo naiiyak ako habang tinititigan siya sa mga mata niya. "Anong hindi ito ang sulusyon, Cedrick?! This is the right way para matapos na 'to! If hindi mo'ko magawang mahalin, then, mas mabuti pang mawala na ako rito. Mas mabuti pang mamatay na lang ako."

"Okay ka lang ba? I know mahal mo si Jackie kaya sigurado akong masakit sa iyo ang breakup ninyong dalawa. Buds naman eh---Alam mo namang maiintidihan ko 'di ba? Kasi importante sa akin ang maging masaya ka." "Ayoko na kasing maulit pa 'yong pagkakamali ko noon. I don't want to lose you again buds. Kaya nu'ng pinapapili niya ako, sinabi ko sa kanya ang totoo. Di bale ng mawala siya h'wag lang ikaw. I could still find another girlfriend but I could never find another bestfriend like you", seryosong sabi ni Chris sa akin. "The pain of losing her could be bearable, but the pain of losing you? God! Hindi ko kakayanin!" dagdag pang sabi nito habang matamang nakatitig sa akin.

Napatitig lamang si Cressida, nanginginig ang labi, hindi makahanap ng tamang sagot. “You left,” pagpapatuloy nito, mas mabagal, bawat salita’y tinutunaw ang katahimikan. “And yes, everything went black. Yes, I lost myself. But that’s because I lost you. You didn’t ruin me, Cressida. You are the only thing keeping me alive.”

Hindi bale nang siya ang masaktan. "That's it? Hindi ka pa rin ba marunong mag-sorry hanggang ngayon. Ubod pa rin ng taas ang tingin mo sa sarili mo? Hahayaan mo’kong saktan kita para ano, para quits na tayo? Para ma-satisfied 'yang konsensiya mo na dahil sinaktan kita ay pantay na ang kasalanan natin sa isa'-isa? o baka naman wala ka talagang konsensiya?"

Is all you ever say I know I'm not the best for you, But promise that you'll stay cause if i watch you go... "Hindi kita mahal...so...Get lost!" Tagos ang sakit ng sinabi niya sa aking puso. Sobrang sakit ng sinabi niya. You'll see me wasting,you'll see me wasting away Cause today,you walked out of my life Cause today,your words felt like a knife I'm not living this life...

medyo dismayadong sambit niya. Ngumiti ako bago marahang umiling at tinapik ang kanyang balikat. “You should not apologize for your loss because everyone here knows that you all did your best till the end. Mayroon pa namang next time, ‘di ba? Kaso senior high na ang ire-represent mo,” biro ko na nagpahalakhak sa kanya.

Yung lalaki sa nb. "Ahmm... Hindi, s-sorry. Hindi ko kasi napansin, babayaran ko nalang yung damages." Nanginginig parin ako kaya hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos. "You're familiar." Saad nito kaya nanlaki ang mga mata ko. "No need to pay for damages. Just be careful next time." Tumango nalang ako kaya pumasok na siya sa kotse niya, at pinaandar ito.