Lonely A Man Without Love Novels & Stories

Hindi alam ni Amanda kung mautuwa ba siya o malulungkot sa sa sitwasyon niya. Matapos ang unang gabing may nangyari sa kanilang dalawa ni Zairon sa kaniyang kwarto ay hindi na ito nasundan pa. Malimit rin silang nakakapag-usap ng lalaki, at kung magkakasalubong man ang kanilang landas sa loob at labas ng bahay ay tila bang isang hangin lang na dinaanan ni Zairon si Amanda.

Even as the air between us got thin. "Please, believe it. You have no real romantic feelings for me. Balang araw, mapagtatanto mo rin ang sinabi ko," makahulugan kong sinabi. That was how these things worked between people who kept fooling themselves. Especially when they had been away from each other for too long. They got lonely. They got desperate. And they found someone nearby and convinced themselves it was love. Ganoon kami ni Treve, lalo na at patay na ang mapapangasawa niya dapat. Tapos ako, hindi ko pa lubusang kilala si Lance no'n.

Nasa sariling kwarto ako habang yakap ang larawan ng aking ina. Kanina lang ay inilibing ang labi nito. Hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na wala na ang mahal kong ina. I was alone, and lonely, my heart was full of agony and miseries. Namumugto na ang aking mga mata sa walang-patid kong pagluha. Paano na ngayon ako gayong wala na ang aking ina?

I don't how kung paano niya nakakaya 'yon. Iniisip ko pa lang kasi na mawawala sa akin si Mommy ay pakiramdam ko ay bibigay ako agad. Kunin niyo na lahat sa akin but not my family, never. I am alone in my room right now. Hindi dito matutulog sila kuya and finally my bed can rest. I'm sitting in my couch and making myself busy with my phone. I almost fell off my couch when my phone rang. Topher calling....

“Just trust me on this, hija. I won’t fail you. I will talk to your prof next day para maaga nating paghandaan to.” “Okay po” Katatapos ko lang maligo. Buti at nagka video call kaming tatlo nila mama kahit papano ay nabawassan ang pangungulila ko sa kanilang dalawa. I badly wanted to win, naiiyak parin ako nung makita ko ang kalagayan nilang dalawa. Pumayat na si mama at si papa naman halatang kulang sa tulog. Ang hirap na kahit ilang kamag-anak ay wala kaming mahingan ng tulong, only child rin kasi sila both sides. I know may distant relative rin naman ata sila pero di rin raw nila nakakausap ang mga yon.

Buong araw, nagagawa kong tumakas sa mga masasakit alaala, ngunit pagdating ng gabi, hindi ko matakasan ang sakit. I keep on thinking of Simoun, as if I am longing. Maybe because I spent too much nights with him. I got used to sleep beside him, feeling his warmth, smelling his scent. Now I’m all alone. Every night, I’m sleeping without his arms wrapping around my waist. I’m sleeping with his memories in my head. And it's killing me.

There's a time and a place and a reason and I know I got a love to believe in all I know got to win this time Without you, one night alone Is like a year without you baby do you have a heart of stone? Without you Can't stop the hurt inside when love and hate collide You could have a change of heart If you would only change your mind 'Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby Crazy, crazy Without you, one night alone Is like a year without you baby do you have a heart of stone? Without you, one night alone Is like a year without you baby if you have a heart at all

He was the man who proved to me that love can be in a form of poetry; may it be in verse or in prose. That love is on everything where your heart lays in tranquility. Manuel touched my face. Our eyes met. Ang apoy na naglalayab sa kaniyang mata ay napalitan ng pagka-alala at kaba. “Baby...” Bago pa siya makakapagsalita ay kinain na ng kadiliman ang aking paligid. I heard curses as he held me in his arms. Ang sumunod na pangyayari ay hindi ko na alam. Nawalan na ako ng malay at tanging pagtawag na lamang ng aking asawa ang aking narinig.

Walang ng inang makakasama o makakausap kahit kailan. Tulad din no'n ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Magmula sa araw na ito ay wala na akong makikitang Uncle Alejandro na nakaupo sa swivel chair niya sa loob ng opisina. Wala nang magbibigay ng payo sa'kin at pagsasabihan ako sa tuwing may ginagawang mali. All of those things disappeared like flames in the air. Now I understand. Being lonely is difficult and very painful.

Dinama ko ang bawat liriko ng awitin na nagdulot sa akin ng masidhing kalungkutan. When I was young I never needed anyone And making love was just for fun Those days are gone Livin' alone I think of all the friends I've known But when I dial the telephone Nobody's home All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore Hard to be sure Sometimes, I feel so insecure And love's so distant and obscure Remains the cure All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore All by myself Don't wanna live All by myself Anymore