Novel & Cerita Another Word For Regretful

"I was so blind and arrogant. I only saw what I wanted to see, without ever bothering to ask why you did what you did. Tinawag kita ng iba’t ibang pangalan, minaliit ko ang pagkatao mo, at hindi ko man lang inisip na baka may matinding dahilan ka. I hurt you so deeply, and I have no excuse for any of it." I looked straight into her eyes, hoping she could feel how genuine my regret was. "You never deserved any of that. You are not what I thought you were. You are brave, selfless, and far better than I have ever been. Patawarin mo ako kung kaya mo pa. I am sorry for every painful word, every cold look, every moment I made you feel small."

“But I didn't tell you to leave.” Napayuko siya. “Akala ko kasi… ayaw mo na akong makita pa.” Nakita niya ang malalim na pagbuntong-hininga nito. She saw the regret etched across his handsome face. “I’m sorry.” Bahagya itong napayuko bago muling tumingin sa kanya. “Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ba sasabihin sa'yo ang totoong nararamdaman ko. I'm so stupid, as always, when it comes to my feelings.”

Nanigas ako sa kinauupuan ko at napatitig na lang sa salitang ‘regret. No way… No fcking way! I failed? Ibig sabihin, napunta lang sa wala ang pagpupuyat at efforts ko? Ni hindi man lang nila ako binigyan ng chance na ipakita ang gawa ko. Unti-unting naglabo ang paningin ko hanggang sa tuluyan nang nagsipatakan ang mga luha ko sa keyboard ng laptop. Mabilis ko itong isinara at gumapang sa kama upang sumubsob sa unan.

Kahit na ramdam ko na medyo masakit ang katawan ko, wala kong mahanap na pagsisisi. I can't find regrets in me after doing that to him, as years ago when I did it with him, until now, there was no regret. Sinubukan kong hanapin ang kahit kaunting pagsisisi para may dahilan ako na putulin ang usapang iyon, pero wala. But even so, even if there is no regret, there is still fear in me that tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, my life will be messed up again at muling mahirapan na ayusin ulit.

Those places felt surreal. “I wonder what will happen after this,” wika niya na siyang bumasag sa kanilang katahimikan. “What do you mean?” “You know, kapag nakaalala na ako.” Tipid siyang ngumiti sa kawalan. “I’m always wondering about the memories I lost. Kasi pakiramdam ko ay may nakalimutan akong sobrang mahalaga sa ‘kin. Something is forgotten that I know once I’ll remember, I will regret it my whole life.”

He let out a heavy sigh in disappointment. “Huli na ang lahat. I shouldn't have done that,” pagsisisi niya. Nakakatawa, 'di ba? Kung ano pa ang mali, ito pa ang nakakatuksong gawin. Parang kanina lang, siguradong-sigurado siya sa ginawa. Pero paano niya masisisi ang sarili kung ang puso na niya ang nagdidikta? “I see. You're regretting it now. I really thought...” he stopped and dropped a heavy sigh again, “nevermind.”

Punong-puno ng kahihiyan at guilt ang mga mata nito pero hindi nun maibsan ang nararamdaman kong sakit. "I'm sorry, I made a mistake and I regretted it more than you know, that's why I did it once and never did it again." "Dapat ko bang ipagpasalamat na isang beses mo lang siyang ginalaw at hindi mo na inulit?" "No baby, sobra kong pinagsisihan na ginawa ko yung bagay na yun kung maibabalik ko lang ang panahon."

Ang masakit na katotohanan ay wala siyang nagawa noon. There was this regret and frustration of not doing what he could do earlier, and now, he was afraid that it might be too late. Takot siyang isipin na dahil sa tagal ng proseso, hindi niya na makikita pa si Olivia. Ayaw niyang tanggapin na baka nga huli na ang lahat. "I'm sorry," he uttered, it was almost a whisper. Only the air heard his regret. Sana'y noon pa. Sana ay nagkaroon siya ng lakas ng loob una pa lamang.

Takot akong makita siya kasi alam kong nandito pa rin 'yong sakit ng nakaraan na pilit kong kinakalinutan. "Look.....I am so so sorry.......I-I regret... letting you go....10 years ago...... I tried to find you. I really tried hard......j-just to find and see you again.... I hope you can forgive me. Lhala, I know w-what I did was wrong-"

Kita niya ang pag-aalala sa mga mata ni Ahleya, ang patong-patong na sakit at pagkabigo na bumabalot sa kanya "Ahleya, I understand if you're not ready to forgive me. I know I've hurt you deeply, and I regret every word I said. But I want you to know that this dress is not meant to buy your forgiveness or sweep our problems under the rug. It's simply an offering, a way for me to show you that I regret the words I said."