As Far As I Can Remember นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Was there a reason they kept referencing it? The truth is, I have no clear memory of what I did or what I experienced back then. My short-term memory loss makes it hard to recall anything recent, let alone events from five years ago. I only know that I was only fifteen when those years slipped past me. That age alone feels like a foggy window because there's a lot of things that was happening, but I can’t see through it clearly. As I looked at Liam now, I could see that he was serious.

Flashback. I was so drunk that I can't remember what happened ang natatandaan ko lang ay pinindot ko ang doorbell ng isang unit at may bumungad sa akin na babae na sa tingin ko ay nakainom din kagaya ko dahil sa malakas na amoy ng brandy dito. "M...Makikituloy sana ako sa'inyo." I know it's dumb but I can't drive "Roberto?" bulalas nito at nanlaki ang mga mata

Halos limang minuto ba naman nya akong hinalikan ako! “ Once i tasted, i always remember it! Don’t denied it ”

Isang malalim na buntong-hininga na lamang ang aking pinakawalan at hindi ko mapigilang pagmumurahin na lamang ang aking sarili sa aking isipan. I am a fvcking man for goddamn sake, I shouldn't be acting like this. Fvck! Why can't I act like it's just nothing, why can't I be tough enough to accept what happened to me and just buried the fvcking disgusting memory in the deepest part of my brain? Why the fvck I am still letting it haunt me?

Siguro makakatulong din ang bahay na ito para mabalik ang memories ko noon. Sana bumalik agad. ****** LMCD22

I fucking forgot it, dahil na rin siguro sa sarap ng ginagawa ko kanina. Oh mercy! Flinn, how stupid I am!

May kakaiba rin doon. Parang may narinig na akong ganitong boses noon. Pero saan? Hindi ko alam. "Maybe you're right," sabi ko sa huli. "I'm sorry, You just look familiar, and I know that sounds strange coming from someone you barely met. Hindi ko naman gustong maging uncomfortable ka. I've been having memory gaps for years, kaya minsan may mga mukha o boses na parang kilala ko pero hindi ko mahanapan ng exact memory."

Pautal-utal na saad nito. . Sandaling pinikit at agad ko ring iminulat ang mga mata ko. At ngitian sya tsaka ako umiling. "I can remember him Pa, I can remember everything that he do, but....only my mind can remember him." Saad ko dahil iyon naman talaga ang katotohanan. "But my heart can't." Dugtong ko.

Wala akong maalala… Ramdam ko ang panginginig ng mga kamay ko habang pilit na inaalala ang mga nangyari noong gabing iyon ngunit hindi ko talaga mabalikan. The only thing I could remember from that scenario was his eyes. Ang mga mata ni Lucien na sana ay iyon na lamang ang nakalimutan ko—hindi itong bagay na ginawa ko kay Flyn. “That’s fuck up if I can’t remember that details,” bulong ko sa sarili ko at naalala ang mga nangyari noon na hindi ko na rin maalala bigla.

I shouted but my voice just echoed to the dark building. "Ano ba ang nangyari? Nasa'n ako?" pagtatanong ko sa aking sarili. All I can remember is that I was with Mrs. Youngster to fetch her daughter Farrah. I also remember waving at here... then nothing. It's empty. "Someone please answer me!" I cried for help.