Breathing In Tranquility Meaning

"W-what the fudge am I gonna do?” Citrine found herself in a panic as she saw the blood flowing in Rivers"s stomach. “Don"t you dare die on me! I'm telling you River!"She hasted in a very panic tone because she can’t afford to see a person dying in front of her. P-pwede tumahimik k-ka?” Nahihirapang salita ni River sa kanya habang sapo-sapo nito ang kanyang tiyan na may tama ng bala. Kinuha nito ang kanyang kamay upang ipangtakip sa sugat nito na mas lalo niyang ikinataranta. “F-fuck! Come on, Ill take you to the hospital! "She shouted when she felt his body was hot. Sinapo pa niya ang noo nito but River refused to be touched. She was stunned to speak again when she noticed how River gave him a look while breathing heavily. “Kapag pumunta tayo ng hospital, Tatakasan mo ko, Hindi pwede. D-dito ka lang," Sagot nito habang tinitiis ang sakit. River was one of the members who tried to kidnapped him. In his state, she could easily leave him and escape but how could she leave the person who also tried to keep her safe? She was about to move her hands when she felt River had passed out. She slowly moved near to his heart to check if there is any heartbeat. Muli siyang nag-panic ng hindi niya maramdaman ang tibok ng puso nito kung kaya't napahawak siya sa magkabilang pisngi nito at tinignan ang nakapikit na binata. She automatically pressed her lips against him to give him a CPR but he wasn't moving! She was lost when she suddenly felt his lips was moving and there! She just kissed her hot kidnapper! How on earth and heaven that this gorgeous, fine young man, good-looking and stud-muffin guy became her kidnapper?

Ga-eul was born in the lowest class status in Joseon. He belonged to the cheonmin or vulgar commoners—like butchers, shoemaker, shamans, magicians, etc. He never had a real name since he was born. Ga-eul was the one that is use to call him because of it's literal meaning that a baby boy born during fall. His family earns a living by performing at town alleys and even in gisaeng's places—typically located near the center of a town. After the early death of their parents, Ga-eul was forced to work harder for him and his sister to survive. Being a performer is not enough that's why he was urged to enter the gisaeng—trained to be courtesans, a prostitute, especially one with upper-class clients—world even though he is a male. He knows that he has a soft heart like a woman but doesn't want to be one. The life of Ga-eul is indeed miserable and unfortunate. He is literally going crazy on how he can managed to send his sister into a hospital—who has a osteosarcoma—tumor in the bone. A huge amount of money is needed for his sister's recovery. One night, while having a mental breakdown, he went to the gisaeng house to plead for his advance payment but the head gisaeng threw him outside. He cried out but then, a nobleman in his 20s approach and asked him to come inside again. He never knew that the nobleman was also struggling in a problem. He thought that the nobleman was just like the other middle class people. He plead but the nobleman offer him a huge amount of money. All he need to do is to marry him. The money offered was extremely helpful to resolve his problem, but should he really let the nobleman buy him?

Room 1167. I was just about to knock, nakataas na yung kamay ko, my fingers hanging just inches away from the door matapos walang sumagot sa doorbell. For a second, napahinto ako. And I was about to step back, ready to leave and just report it, when suddenly— Biglang bumukas ang pinto at hindi pa man ako nakaka react nang tuliyan ay may kamay na biglang humablot sa pulso ko papasok sa loob ng kwarto. “Ah—!” Sa hindi inaasahang pangyayari, I was pulled inside. “Argh.” Mahinang halinghin ng lalaki, his arms wrapped around my body like he had no strength left to keep himself up. His head suddenly dropped onto my shoulder, the weight of it catching me completely off guard. May kakaibang amoy ang kaniyang kwarto, mabango ngunit sa katagalan ay nakakahilo, hanggang sa bigla nalang akong nakaramdam ng pagkainit sa aking katawan. “W-what are you doing…” I managed to say kahit medyo nanginginig ako ng kaunti at kinakabahan. I could feel his breathing against my skin, uneven and warm, slightly shaky. “A-ang init.” Mahina niyang bulong habang dahan dahang inaalis ang kaniyang suot na coat. “What the fuck is happening?” Bulong ko sa aking sarili at mas lalong nakaramdam ng kaba. “Put me down!” Sigaw ko matapos niya akong buhatin at biglang ibaba sa kama. For a second, everything happened too fast. Nasa ibabaw ko na siya at mukhang hindi na kayang pigilan pa ang kaniyang sarili. “Ohhh…” Mahinang ungol ko nang unti unti na niya akong halik-halikan sa aking leeg habang ang kaniyang kanang kamay ay marahang binubuksan ang butones ng uniporme ko. My hands were tightly wrapped around his neck habang pilit siyang idinidiin sa aking leeg. “Shit!” Ungol ko nang biglan niyang sipsipin ang aking dibdib habang bumababa ang kanang kamay niya sa aking pagkababae.

*** I was complete but useless, when I met him. He was my saviour that time. He enlightened me and gave meaning to my useless life. He became my happiness but at the same time my sadness, that turns out to be my nightmare. I thought that he will be my first and last, but I'm wrong 'coz it's just lust. I gave everything to him, my life, my body and also my heart but he broke it. I was so dumb and became useless again but the worst part is he made me feel so loved but left me afterwards. Nung unang kita niya sa akin para akong isang bimpo na madumi na kanyang ni linisan at inalagaan... But after that, things turns upside down... Nagising na lamang ako ng mag isa at doon ko lang din na realized na panandalian lamang ang lahat. Sana pala hindi na niya ako pinulot pa kung mas malala pala ang huling babagsakan ko. Ang O.A ba ng explanation ko? O.A na kung O.A. But, you can't blame me. Nasaktan ako, nag dusa at nag tiis sa sakit ng iniwan niya ko. Wala siyang tinira pati ata ang kaluluwa ko dala niya. He left me hanging while falling apart. Lahat ng saya noong na kasama ko siya ay na palitan ng isang milyon na sakit nung iwan niya ako. Para akong lobo na bigla na lang binitawan pag katapos pag sawaan. Yes. That's me, the EX- Wife of that monster Zeke Ethan Harmes. I want to know the reasons why he throw me? Why he left me dumbfounded? I need an explanation. I need his acceptable reason. I need him and I love him. Pero mas gusto alamin kung minahal niya ba ako o ginamit niya lang ako para sa yaman?