Novel & Cerita Can't Take That Away

“Meeting in twenty. Work to do.” Conversation ends. Just like that. Pero utak ko hindi. And I realize something I never wanted to admit: I can’t escape him. Not because he’s powerful. Not because he’s everywhere. But because… deep down, a part of me doesn’t want to.

Para at least, di ko nararamdaman ang pakiramdam na ito. "You will never understand your mistake Cayden. I already get it, If I am enough, please do the courtesy of not toying me around. I no longer know what to believe. But my decision is fixed. I'll take my leave." Saad ko at iniwan ko na si Cayden sa kusina na parang nabatong nilalang na doon at hindi nakapagsalita.

And I feel the color draining from my face~ I really love this song. And my friend said, I know you love him, but it's over, mate~ Napasipol pa ang ibang kasamahan ni Nate na nadadala na rin sa lyrics ng kanta. It doesn't matter, put the phone away It's never easy to walk away, let him go It'll be alright~ Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko habang ipinagpatuloy ang pagkanta. Yumuko ako upang hindi nila makita ang luhang malapit ng pumatak sa mga mata ko.

He's taking all away from me! "Fuck you! ¡Pase lo que pase, nunca te amaré! ¡Estás loco!" (Fuck you! Whatever happened I will never love you! You're crazy!) pasigaw na sabi ko na hindi naman naiintindihan. "Por eso, si no puedo tenerlo todo, nadie puede tenerte a ti también," (That's why if I can't have everything, then no one can have you too,) sabi niya sa'kin.

Malungkot na dagdag niya. "Well, at least this is the place where we can choose and do what we want. We can still improve and let's make them disappoint theirselves that they removed us from the team. Let's make our own team. Let's prove to them how worth it and skillful we are." Cheerful na saad ko.

Hindi ako tumigil. Hindi ako puwedeng magkamali ulit. Natatakot kasi ako na kapag hindi ko maayos ‘to, baka idadagdag niya ‘to sa utang namin. “We’re not leaving until this is resolved,” malamig niyang sabi. Tumango ako. “Understood, sir.”

“If we don’t give him space here, someone else will. Losing him would be… unwise.” Naglinis ng lalamunan si Chairman Chen. Sa wakas, nagsalita si Dylan. “Hindi ko kailangan ng charity… o permiso,” sabi niya nang kalmado. Napatingin ang lahat sa kanya. “Itinayo ko ang lahat ng meron ako sa sarili kong sikap..hindi dala ang apelyidong Chen,” dagdag niya. “Kung gusto ninyong makisali, fine. Kung hindi, hindi ko kawalan. Marami pa akong pagpipilian.”

Do you want me to stay away with you, baby? Tinakip ko ang unan sa mukha. No, I can’t. I won’t stay away. Rest, maybe?

N-No way! ***

Love was there, tahimik lang pero may ngiti. Do you know how much that killed me? To see her smile at them when she can’t even look at me? To hear her laugh with them when she can’t even speak to me? Damn, it tore me apart. And yet, I can’t let go. I can’t accept na ito na ang ending namin. Hindi ko kayang tanggapin na dahil lang sa isang pagkakamali, isang halik na hindi ko naman ginusto, mawawala na siya sa akin.