Novel & Cerita Don't Be Too Hard On Yourself

tanong ko. Sobrang komplikado talaga ng buhay ko, tipong lahat na lang na darating sa akin puro bagyo, hindi ba p'wedeng puro saya na lang? Bakit kailangang maging ganito? (Don't do anything. You know that you didn't do wrong. So chin up and don't get shake off.)

Thirty two na ako ngayon pero parang teenager lang ang aking asal. Haay! Malalim kung pagbuntong hininga bago kurutin ang aking sarili para magising. Natutulog pa yata kasi ang aking diwa. Wala pa sa tamang panahon! Samantha maging makabuluhan naman ngayon ang isipin mo. Yung may patutunguhan na maganda hindi yung laging tagilid at puro disgrasya ang punta. Be reasonable as possible! Si Rex anjan lang pero bawat desisyon mong mali ay hindi mo na pwedeng balikan at itama pa dahil walang turning back time! Kausap ko sa aking sarili. *********

Gusto niyang hawakan ito pero hindi niya magawa. Pumihit patalikod si Zymon. Hindi man lang ito lumingon sa kaniya. "Don't let anyone insult you, Monica. You don't deserve those shits from them. Fight for yourself," paalala nito na marahil para sa mga taong nangmamaliit sa kaniya, si Shy at ang ina nito.

Matapos nito nag tungo na ako sa mansion. If you plan on blaming others when things don’t go well, you might as well quit!

Handa na sana akong awayin siya ulit ng bigla itong nagsalita. "I'll go wife, please don't be too hard on yourself. I'm so sorry."

Piniga ko ang aking tiyan saka sinikap na hindi ipakitabkay Mariam ang reaksyon ko. "I'm okay—" "No, you're not okay! But, yes—it's okay to be not okay. Sometimes you to pretend you're oksy even you're not. But, please, I'm begging you; don't hate your self. Axecel, ayos lang naman kasi umiyak at maglabas ng sama ng loob." Umayos ako ng upo. Maya ay hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko—humagulhol na ako sa mga bisig ni Mariam.

tanging nasabi ko. “Bakit parang hindi ka masaya na tumawag ako?” biro niya. “No, no. Medyo pagod lang. Galing trabaho,” iwas ko. “Don’t be too hard on yourself. You don’t have to work. You can just focus on Aiah if you want to,” alok niya. “It’s okay. I can manage. Hindi ako sanay na walang ginagawa,” pilit kong ngiti. “Basta, take care of yourself. Health first.”

You're building your self to achieve the attitude where no one and nothing is going to bother you anymore because you will become the woman who does not give fucks to anyone's shits. Do not forget your past and why you are working very hard to be powerful. You shouldn't let cheap behaviors like these dictate your actions. Don't forgot who you want to be and who you're building your self, Violet. Take a deep breathe and remember, you are aiming to be powerful. A man should not decide for your actions. You should decide for your self.

"I know. I can't tell you to forget everything and move on right away. But learn to be gentle with yourself. You have been through a lot. I can see that. A little kindness wont hurt, right?" "Hindi ko alam. It's been long since I let myself listen to what I want and who I am. Practicing self compassion takes a lot of effort." "Yes and that's exactly why I think you need this." Tumayo ito mula sa kinauupuan at bumalik ng may dala na red wine. Malamig ito, tumutulo ang tubig sa babasaging bote. Halatang mamahalin. "Ay naku, Sir. Huwag na po."

pagpupumilit nito. Pinaharap niya ang babae sa kaniya. "Do not pressure yourself too much, honey. Alam ko na kaya mo. Hindi ba ang sabi ko sa iyo ay kung hindi ka papasa ulit, may susunod pa? Stop being tough on yourself."