Don't Be Too Hard On Yourself นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Tapos bukas na a gad! Napansin niya ang bakas ng pag-aalinlangan ko. Bahagyang lumambot ang mga mata niya, kahit pa nakaigting ang kaniyang panga. “Don’t overthink it. Just… be yourself." Be myself... Kung ganoon lang sana kasimple 'yon.

Medyo traffic kasi ngayon kaya matatagalan sila sa pag-uwi. "You won't succeed in life if you have a poor mindset. Dapat ibahin mo 'yan kasi kung ano ang nasa isip mo ay more likely na 'yon ang kalabasan. H'wag mong intindihin ang sasabihin ng ibang tao. Tandaan mong we can't pleased them all. May mga iilan pa rin na mag aaksaya sa oras nila para siraan ka. Kapag sinabi nilang hindi mo 'yon kaya kasi mahirap ka lang, don't be discourage kasi it's their limitations not yours."

Niyakap ko siya nang mahigpit. “Don’t say that, Arc. Hindi ‘yan totoo. Hindi mo kasalanan ang mga nangyari kaya hindi mo dapat dinadala ang problemang ‘to. Arc, please, give yourself a break. Huwag mong pahirapan ang sarili mo.”

Naiiyak na naman ako lalo na ng makita ko sa mga mata nito ang sincere. "Hindi mo kaylangang itali ang iyong sarili sa isang katotohanan na hindi naman pwede. Kahit na anong gawin mo kung talagang hindi kayo para sa isat isa hindi talaga magiging kayo. Learn to love yourself first. Hindi naman kasi kaylangang magmahal agad para lang mawala ang sakit na ginawa sayo ng ex mo. Unahin mo muna ang sarili mo before anything else," paliwanag pa niya. Nakikinig ako rito at hindi ko na naman namalayang namalisbis na naman ang aking luha.

"Well, I'm trying to, but I'm not like you." Gidon pouted. I suddenly thought of what I said. I didn't mean anything negative, I just wanted him to understand that his advice wasn't easy for me to follow because I didn't have the same mindset as him. How could I possibly not overdo studying when my parents kept forcing me to be the smartest of our batch? They would never accept anything below 95. "You don't have to be like me, and I'm not telling you to be like me. The pressure from your parents is heavy enough and I understand why you're working extra hard to be their ideal child. I just want to remind you to be kind to yourself."

Malakas itong bumuntong hininga. "Don't force yourself to remember things. Avoid stressing yourself on the things you cannot remember. Stop going to the place that might trigger your memory. Better make yourself busy. Find new friends. Met new people. Open your heart to new friends and acquaintances. Don't limit yourself. Be free and be happy. You need to be happy to heal yourself, Ysabelle."

I immediately wipe it in the back of my finger. Don't lose hope Klara. Nakayanan mo nga ang lahat-lahat kahit sobrang mahirap 'di ba? Don't give up and always think more positive and be brave. Don't even show the world your weaknesses and the greatest downfall in your life. Pasasaan din at malalampasan mo rin ang lahat ng mga pagsubok sa buong buhay mo at sa darating pa na pagsubok. Be brave always and be a strong girl. Always put that on your mind. No more being frightened. Laban at sulong lang sa panibagong buhay na ipinagkaloob sa'yo ng diyos. Be blessed always.

sabi nito, napangiti ako. "Don't hold yourself, akong bahala sa lahat, sabi mo nga sa akin, I'm your brother, so let me take good of everything, sobrang selfless mo, maging selfish ka naman kahit papaano" sabi nito habang nakangiti. Napaluha ako dito, niyakap ako nito, "Thank you ate, you don't need to be hard on yourself, also find your happiness" sabi nito sa akin.

In order for that to happen, you need to work hard and be thankful for what you have now. What our parents always taught us, is not to belittle others. Mayaman man o mahirap, walang karapatang manghamak ng kapwa. You need to stop saying something about others' business and start minding your own. You need to stop minding someone's mistakes and start correcting yours. All of us have flaws, nothing's perfect.

Hinawakan niya ang magkabilang braso ko at itinaas ang baba ko. "Ikaw, lagi kang ganiyan. If they don't want you, edi hindi. Don't blame yourself dahil hindi ka nila gusto. Be yourself Kesh, I know tita. Gusto niya ng babaeng mabait, and you are. Gusto niya ng maganda, maganda ka Kesh. Don't overthink, okay? If hindi ka nila magustuhan, hindi mo kasalanan yun kasi nagpakatotoo ka lang naman. "