Novel & Cerita Feeling The Blues

Crying is a healthy way to reduce stress and negative effects in our body but seems like it didn't make me feel nor look good. My chest feels heavy from crying last night. I also looked like a corpse that gets up from its coffin because of the dark circles around my eyes, as well as my pale skin. Mas lalo yata akong na-stress sa itsura ko habang nakaharap sa salamin. I pouted while fixing my hair. Mas lalo siguro akong hindi magugustuhan ni Rius nito. I'm so ugly and stressed from everything.

Alam kasi niya na she will never do anything good kapag ganito ang kaniyang kalagayan dahilan kung bakit she's so eager to be calm ang relax. Habang mabilis niyang pinatkbo ang kaniyang sasakyan at hindi alintana ang paligid ay hindi niya napansin na may biglang nag overtake na sasakyan dahilan kung bakit mabunggo niya ito. Sa sobrang lakas ng pagkabunggo ay agad na nawalan ng malay si Aki.

Leaving. Just hearing that term makes me want to cry. Just thinking that I will leave them tomorrow tears stream down my cheeks. They are neither happy nor sad tears. They are tears from every emotion I've ever felt or created in this place. They're tears of regret for not being able to remain. I'm wishing I didn't have to go. I wish I had more alternatives.

Even a thousand clothes won't complete me. I am longing for something i can't have. Even if it's priceless, why can't I have it? Why can't i just feel it. You don't need to spend even a cent. But why can't i just have it? (Hi! This story is made up of author's imagination. Any similarities to real life situations is just a coincidence. Names, places, events etcetera are purely made up of author's imagination. There are some typographical errors and grammatical errors. Kaya pasensya na po hehe

KABANATA 11 Days passed like a blur, but my heart.. it is still breaking day by day, slowly. The happiness has long gone, forgotten as loneliness visit me again. I look at the sultry ocean as the strokes of the waves touch my feet soothingly. The ocean is still blue, just like my feelings, I'm in a deep shit blue. Funny as how my favorite color and feelings differ. I hug my shoulder firmly as the sun burn my entire body, a brand new day to get hurt. Again and again.

My hands are on my sides. I feel the sadness that started to wrap around my whole body, soul, and mind. I am blankly looking at the dark sky. Waiting for it to open and fetch me. Hoping life is as easy as that. Once you want to give up, just close your eyes and leave this f*cking atrocious world.

Ikaw lang ang iibigin ko habang buhay. Masyado akong kinabahan sa nabasa ko. Bakit siya ganito? Parang liham pamamaalam ito. Hindi ako sigurado pero bakit kinakabahan ako habang binabasa ko. No, please, Blue, don't leave me/us. I can't. Hindi ko kaya kapag may nangyaring masama sa'yo. Sabay kaming nagtago dahil sa ninanais naming mamuhay nang maayos at walang gulo. Hindi ko alam pero feeling ko may masamang mangyayari dahil sa nararamdaman ko.

May sumaglit sa kanyang isipan na May pakiramdam syang Hindi nya Maipaliwanag sa kanyang sarili tila sya natuwa sa Pag uusap nila kanina ngunit naalala nya ang Nakita nya sa pagitan ng kanyang Boss at ni Miss Taichi kaya nag desisyon syang alisin ang Pakiramdam na iyon tingen nya mali ang nararamdaman nyang Saya Boss Office Nakaramdam ng Gutom si Blue kaya Naisipan nyang kumaen at natawa sya sa pangalawang pag balik ni Hilary sa office nya para lang mag hatid ng tubig nya naalala nya ang kanyang mama

Kung itutuon lang kasi nila ang atensyon sa pagkawala ni Abi, siguradong sobra lang silang makakaramdam ng labis na takot. Isang linggo ng hindi nagpaparamdam sa kanila si Blue kaya wala silang ideya kung ano na ang nangyayari ngayon kay Abi. Tiyak niyang hindi mabuti ang kalagayan nito kaya hindi siya makakampante. Ang sigurado siya ay maraming paghihirap ang pinagdaraanan nito. Baka nga ang naranasan niya kay Blue ay walang-wala sa nararanasan ni Abi ngayon.

" Wag niyo po sabihin yan La, wag niyo po akong iiwan. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kapag nawala po kayo. Kaya please lang po La alagaan mo ang sarili mo." "Alagaan mo din ang sarili mo. Gusto ko pang makita ang apo ko sa tuhod na kulay blue ang mata." "Blue talaga La?" Doon na ako natawa. "Oo feeling ko mas maganda talaga 'pag blue. Nahawa na din ata ako sa inyo ng nanay mo. Alam mo yung blue na kagaya nung sa perst lab mo." "Lola!" "Ay bakit? Hindi ba? Iniyakan mo nga yun eh."