Fixing A Broken Heart Novels & Stories

Pero siguro gano'n talaga ang buhay, kung hindi kayo para sa isa't isa ay gagawa ang tadhana na maghiwalay kayo even in a painful way. Hindi ko masasabi na okay na ako, hindi na ako nasasaktan dahil parang niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko kapag ginawa ko 'yon. Ang hirap mag move on dahil ilang taon din kaming magkarelasyon at marami na kaming magagandang memories sa buhay na magkasama. I'm mad at him because he hurts me pero wala naman na akong magagawa sa bagay na 'yon dahil nangyari na. All I need to do now is to move on and be a better person.

Pareho nilang dinadama ang malakas na pagtibok ng puso nila. Kung puwede lang hilingin na bumalik siya sa panahon na iyon at hindi na pakawalan pa si Rusell ay ginawa na niya. Ngunit kahit anong gawin niya ay alam niyang sa totoong mundong ginagalawan nila ay walang rewind at imposibleng mangyaring iyon. Ang tanging magagawa na lang niya ay baunin at itanim iyon sa puso niya, mangarap at umasa kahit masakit. Ganoon naman kapag nagmamahal, 'di ba? Nasasaktan, umaasa at magmo-move on.

I mumbled. "What's the difference between broken and dead, anyways? I think they're just have the same pain, you know?" "You can still fix that broken heart if someone who broke it returns. Though, it's not the same as before but it can still be fixed. While the heart, that's already dead can't be alive again. You have only two choice; to live with it, or to die with it." I shrugged. "Some people born with tragedy on their bloods. Tell your story, I'm listening."

Bakit sa ganitong paraan binawi ang akala ko para saakin na. Nagtiwala at Nagmahal lang naman ako.. I love him with a broken heart, but later,it fixed,he fixed me but only in a short period of time because at last, it will remain broken forever ..I was just to stúpid thinking that we can be together, that we both deserve love after all the heartache and pain we brought to each other..Maybe the destiny make its way to rubbed on my face that this isn't going to work.That I need to give up.

saad niya at muling napatingin sa akin, “sinayang ko ang 2 years na pinagsamahan namin.” Nakagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi ko. Gusto kong magtanong. Gusto kong malaman kung ano rin ang nararamdaman niya. Pero natatakot ako, natatakot ako sa magiging sagot niya at baka magmukha lang akong umaasa. Hanggang sa napapatanong na lang ako sa sarili ko… Is it possible to fix someone’s broken heart? “Jai.” Hindi ko na napigilan pa ang sarili ko at hinarap siya. “Do you still love him?”

Pukaw ni Lexy at hinawakan ang kamay niya. "Bakit?" Umiling ito. "You're spacing out. Iniisip mo ba si Ate Psalm? Alam mo, di ko pa na-experience ang ma-heartbroken. Ayaw ko rin namang maranasan iyon pero sa palagay ko, kapag pilit mo kasing kinokontra, your heart will rebel at the worse possible way. Kaya dapat hayaan mo lang muna ang sakit hanggang sa kusang matunaw. The heart is capable of outgrowing the pain. As long as patuloy itong tumitibok, mapapagaling nito ang sarili kahit walang tulong mula sa ibang tao."

Ngumiwi siya at maya-maya lang sy muling tumawa at napatitig sa kaniyang hawak-hawak na wine glass. "In simple words, I wanna still be happy despite my broken heart. Syempre hindi naman mawawala ang sakit. Nandoon pa rin nakatago lang. But I don't believe in the 3 months rule after break up," natatawang aniya. I slowly nodded a bit enlightened by her words.

FINALLY but damn it sa kabila ng pinaramdam niya sa akin 4 years ago pakiramdam ko hindi ko na kayang tanggapin at yakapin pang muli itong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Hindi ko na alam kung paano ko pa ito ibabalik sa dati. She broke my heart and her sweet words can not fix it easily. It broke like a thin glass. Hindi mabuo buo kahit gaano pang katamis na salita ang ibato niya sa akin. Wala na...Hindi na kayang ayusin pa ng kahit na anong salita niya.

His voice broke. his words.. "Not everything can fixed with your one sorry, Clyde. Not even my broken heart." I said while pointing my heart, ang sakit sakit na kasi. "I love you please.." I pursed my lips when He said He loves me. I know it was just a lie, pero naaapektuhan parin ako.

“Sige, gagawin ko.” Kael followed my command. I made him act like he despised me. I heard it. When Kath got back safe, I just thought I could keep that. I could prolong hurting Kath, even if I knew it just doubled the pain I was feeling. I badly wanted to hug her, join her under the rain, kiss her, love her, and be with her. But I didn’t deserve her. She deserved someone who would fix her and not the one who would just break her. I was already broken for a long time, trying to fix my broken pieces even if I knew it was impossible. I was not whole. I was wrecked, tormented, and miserable. I couldn’t make her happy.