Losing A Loved One Quotes の小説・ストーリー

TRIGGER WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS DISTURBING WORDS LIKE "SU*CIDE" THAT MIGHT TRIGGER OTHER READERS. IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT THIS TOPIC, PLEASE SKIP IT. ONE ANOTHER October 15, 2024. The day I'll never forget. It was the day I lost my husband, the love of my life. The man who fought me in everything. I lost him in the blink of an eye, and the worst thing is I couldn't do anything about his death. It must be painful for him.

Sana… puro sana… kaso ang katotohanan ay hindi na mangyayari ang mga iyon. Pumikit ako nang mariin at sinubukang winaglit ang sakit na nararamdaman. Hindi ito ang tamang oras para magbalik tanaw. “I just hope you don’t lose yourself while doing this.” Hindi ko na pinansin ang huling sinabi ni Sidro dahil mali siya. I already lost myself the moment my own mother died. Sabay din sa pagkawala ng katinuan ng kapatid ko ay siya ring pagkawala ng sarili ko. At kung wala sila ay ano pa nga bang mawawala sa akin? Wala na. I am no one without my family.

Kailangan ko siyang intindihin sa sitwasyon niya ngayun dahil alam ko kung gaano kasakit ang mawalan ng mahal sa buhay. "I am sorry for your loss." mahinang sambit ko. Alam kong walang mas magandang salita ang pwedeng sabihin para mabawasan ng kahit na kaunti ang pagdadalmahati na nararamdaman niya ngayun.

Hanggang sa emosyonal akong niyakap ni Lazarus, doon na bumuhos na para bang walang kontrol ang luha sa mga mata ko. "W-What happened?! Tell me you're just kidding, Lazarus!" garalgal na ang boses kong sabi. Streams of tears flowed faster than my heartbeat. "I'm sorry for your loss, baby. I won't say it's okay because it's never okay to lose a loved one ... but be strong. I'm just here." Malamlam ang mga mata niyang sabi.

Sometimes, I do hope that better, I'll be the one who dies. Not Xandra or Quinn. They were so lucky. They don't need to suffer anymore. This cruel earth. Who would want to live on this fucking earth where everything seems to be falling apart for me. Should I just end my life? Besides, it is not worth living. I lost my purpose. I got no one else. Mama passed away after Quinn. The plane she was on got crushed. What a tragedy. All of them were leaving me behind. One loud noise caught my attention. "What are you doing here?" I asked in irritation.

Nakita ko ang pagsalubong ng kilay niya. “People live and people die. What’s new about it?” He exclaimed. I locked my eyes on him. Ramdam ko ang pag-ipon ng luha ko sa aking mga mata habang nakatulala sa kanya. “Do you know how hard it is and how it feels to lose someone, you dearest? The thoughts of waking up in the morning and you will not see or hear them? Why Gavril? Why?! Why it is so easy for you to accept that you’re gonna die?” I shouted hysterically. I paused as I am catching my breath not removing my sight from him.

Isang private cemetery ang paglilibingan. Another prayer was done before putting the coffin underneath the soil. "Mom, where ever you are right now, guide us always. I haven't said sorry in person but I guess this is where I will have my last words with you. I'm sorry for what I've done in the past even though it was not a good memory of ours but I will always bring the memories we make together. I love you." Saka tinapon ang bulaklak sa kabaong na dahan-dahang ibinababa.

“Karapatan din niyang malaman bilang ama mo. Mas mainam na mas madami kang suporta at prayer warriors. Madaming nagmamahal sa’yo, Nic.” “Ganoon naman yata talaga kapag may taning na ang buhay. Bumabait lahat ng tao sa paligid. Or worst minsan kapag wala na tsaka maglalaan ng oras o papakitaan ng pagmamahal. Naiisip ko tuloy makikita pa ba ‘yun ng taong namatay na. Kagaya ng lakas ng iyak ng daddy ko noong namatay ang mommy ko. Palagi siyang lasing noong nasa ospital ito. Ni halos ayaw niyang dalawin. Sana sinabi niyang mahal niya ito noong nabubuhay pa.”

The lights around her coffin were too blinding and it hurt my eyes na kanina pa umiiyak pero hindi ko magawang iiwas ang mga mata ko. Wala nang magagawa? Tanggapin na lang? How? I laughed sarcastically in my mind. Why is it always like that huh? When we lose someone we care about, people tend to go back to their normal lives and expect that you'll do the same. It wasn't that easy.

"Same. I was too pre occupied sa company at sa baby to the point na parang mas mama pa nga niya si Caitlyn kaysa sakin. Natauhan ako sa sinabi niya. Oo nga pala. May anak pa pala ako." "Bumawi tayo sa anak natin." "Yeah. We should. Pero how can we start? Masakit pa eh." "I know losing someone you love is a different kind of pain, never mawawala yong pain, but life goes on. May anak pa tayong kailangan tayo, pilitin natin tumayo ulit." "Thank you niks." "For?" "For everything. For always being there, for not leaving even if I hurt you so much."