Novel & Cerita Message For A Friend Who Passed Away

“Will you be able to? I know you’re giving it your all, but maybe it’s time to just accept reality. I’m sorry for putting this on you, but deep down, I think I’ll be the one to say goodbye first." I could see the anguish wash over him, and my heart sank. I’m sorry, Keith. But thank you for being such a constant presence in my life. Even when I was at my lowest, you never gave up on me. You fought to be my friend, and that means everything. You encourage me to continue living even though I know when will God take my life. Yet, there are still lingering feelings that I wanted to see and talk with my only brother, Xian or Al.

Asking him to help a good friend with a divorce lawsuit. Kaya naman nagsend siya sa matanda ng mensahe na ang tanging laman lang ay “Ok” kaka-send pa lang, tumunog agad ang kanyang cellphone at may natanggap siyang email at friend request nito sa kanyang social media account.

May isang buwan ako para unti unting iparamdam sa kanila ang paglayo ko. Kung hindi ko ito gagawin mas lalo silang masasaktan. Masakit mang isipin pero...ayaw kong umiyak sila sa libing ko. I don't want them to cry in my funeral. Mapait akong napangiti sa iniisip. I have no chance to live. This is my faith. To die alone. Binuhay ko ang aking cellphone and many texts and missed calls bombarded my phone. Binasa ko yung mga recent texts nila.

Ramdam kong binalot ako ng malamig na ihip ng hangin. John. “Pinapatawad na rin kita sa mga nangyari sa huli nating pagkikita, aking kaibigan. May you rest in peace wherever you are. Because I know you are in God’s side and I also know that in His side nothing and no one can ever brought pain to you. You are my friend, J. You remain as my very first friend aside from them. At gusto kong malaman mo mismo sa akin na may lalaki na ako’ng napupusuan. Ours is only a deal pero hindi ako titigil hangga’t hindi niya ako nagagawang mahalin pabalik.”

Sila ang kanyang circle of friends. Hindi niya namalayang na pinindot niya ang Facebook page ni Nick. Nagpadala siya ng message sa kanya. Magandang ideya na magkaroon ng kausap sa oras na ito at naramdaman niya na mapapakalma siya nito. Si Nick ay hindi pa nakikipag-usap sa kanya ng natagal na panahon at hindi niya inaasahan na gagawa siya ng move na magpadala ng message sa kanya. Nagulat siya nang makita niyang deleted na siya bilang kaibigan nito nang makita ang isang maliwanag na pulang exclamation mark sa tabi ng kanyang message.

Like nothing else existed when she was near. Then I saw the caption. "Wherever you are, I hope you’re happy. I hope you’re at peace. You were always too good for this world, too kind, too full of love. And I will spend the rest of my life carrying you with me, in every breath, in every step. My heart is still yours, and it always will be." My hands trembled as I gripped my phone tighter. My vision blurred as I stared at the name I had tried so hard to erase.

Salamat sa lahat ng pag mamahal na binigay mo, hopefully when we cross paths again, may things work again, padayon my future flight attendant] He finally messaged but this time it was a goodbye message. ....._......

Imporma nito sa kan'ya. Sumisinghot din siya bago nagsalita. "Salamat, Friend. Message ko na lang sila sa mga susunod na araw," malungkot na sabi niya dito. Hindi din naman nagtagal ang pag-uusap nila dahil pinagpahinga na siya nito. Nakapikit na siya pero ang diwa niya gising na gising. Sana tama ang desisyon niyang 'wag ng ituloy paalam kay Keith. Masakit at mabigat man sa dibdib, pero kailangan niyang bitawan ito.

"Hi there, my little sister! I left this message para if ever na wala na ako, malaman mo pa rin kung gaano kita kamahal. Alam kong marami kang hinanakit kay Mama at pati sa akin pero sana huwag mong kalimutan na mahal na mahal kita. I'm sorry that you had to go through all of that hardships noong nawala ka. Nagsisisi ako kasi hindi kita hinanap noon. "I know it's not easy for you to forget the past and to forgive us but...I want you to know that I'm proud of you for being brave. At sana, mas maging matapang ka pa ngayong wala na ako. Ate Deanna loves you so much...but she had to go. She had to end the battle she was fighting alone. I know you love me...kahit hindi mo pa ipakita...pero naisip

napanguso ni Javier at sumama ang tingin sa kaibigan. “Kahit kailan talaga napaka seryoso mo sa buhay, chill bro maaga kang tatanda niyan eh!” sabay tawa nito. Nakikinig lang ako sa kanilang dalawa habang binabasa ang message ng kung sino. From: Unknown Number ‘I missed you! I’m back babe!’ Napaisip ako at kapagkuwan ay napasinghap sa sunod na mensahe nito. From: Unknown Number