My Purpose In Life Novels & Stories

Don't forget how much she hurt you. Bumalik ako sa bahay at idinikit ko ang mga palad ko sa mukha ko at huminga ng malalim. Mahirap magpatuloy lalo na kung wala ka nang gana sa buhay. Napailing ako. No! I still have a purpose in life: teaching. Sa sandaling dumikit ang aking puwetan sa sofa ay may kumakalampag sa pintuan. Nakalimutan ko na namang isarado ang gate. I should buy an automatic gate one of these days.

panimula niya at tumingin sa ‘kin. Ang kaninang mabilis na pagtibok ng puso ko ay mas lumala pa. It became more wild and unstoppable. I gulped. “W-What do you mean?” “You know, ever since you came into my life, it feels like I’ve found a purpose to live. You’re the reason why I wake up in the morning to continue my life. You’re the reason why I strive to be a better version of myself, to be a good and responsible man and… husband,” he said seriously yet sincerely.

Tapos paki-videohan din ng mapanood ko, matutuwa ako. Pero nagpapasalamat pa rin ako dahil buhay pa rin ako. Sana hindi magbago ang isip niya. Hindi ko pa kayang mamatay, marami pa akong gustong gawin at goals sa buhay. Pero ang goal ko ngayon ay ang makatakas sa puder ng demonyo, wala pa naman akong alam sa pagtatakas.

I don't want to dwell on such dreary place. All the pain I’ve experienced, it’s all for me to learn. Slowly, I try to change my perception in life and have this clear view of my worth and purpose in life. I don’t want to repeat the same mistakes I’ve done. What happened from my past was wrong, and I don’t want to handle my wrongdoings with another mistake and wrongdoings. I would often motivate myself with the things that I'd be doing in the future as a doctor and that thing excites me to the core.

And If I don't love myself who else will? It's like I can't give what I don't have. I can't give love because I don't have love. Before, I don't love myself. I am alive but I really don't know what's the purpose of my existence. I don't even know the reason why I am alive. Maybe just because I need to live and it's not yet my time to die. I feel like I am a curse. All the people who get close to me will be gone or will be in trouble.

You are here, because it is your destiny. You are existing because of a purpose. You are here, because it is your destiny... Paulit ulit yun na tumatakbo sa aking utak na parang sirang plaka. Gusto kong ngumiti ng mapait. Am I really existing for a purpose? Kasi sa tingin ko sa sarili ko ay wala akong purpose dito sa mundo. My life back to earth is not that even good. Kung sabihin nga nila, patapon ako. Matalino ako, pero wala akong magulang. Ni wala akong desenteng bahay dahil nagrerenta lang ako sa isang apartment na isang lindol na lang ay parang mawawasak na. I don't have things to be proud of.. Beauty? It is only just a skin dip and beauty never last. Is it really my destiny to be here?

“Bakit parang malungkot ka?” “Minsan naiinis ako sa sarili ko.” “Bakit naman?” Hinaplos niya ang buhok ko. “Gusto ko sana ako na lang ang magtrabaho para sa ating dalawa.” Napangiti ako. “And me?” “Ano naman ang purpose ko?” “Simple.” “Tingnan mo ako araw-araw.” Napatawa ako. “At?” “Alagaan mo ako.” “At aalagaan kita.”

Kahit wala siyang ginagawa? Napapikit ako nang mariin, pilit pinipigilan ang sarili ko na huwag nang lumalim pa ang iniisip ko. This isn’t me. This is not the life I chose. I came here for a reason. I have a purpose. At hindi kasama doon ang ganitong klaseng gulo.

We have our own foundation for the less fortunate children where every year we do celebrate special ocsasions with them. Kaya hindi na ako magtataka kung bakit naging mabait ang mga tao sa mga magulang ko. God sees the goodness in the heart of my parents. Life has been hard for me for the past years. Lots of challenges and trials. But despite all that I still choose to live. There are times that I almost give up but I know I shouldn't because I have not yet served my purpose. And this is my purpose to give back to the people. To share my blessings to everyone. To spread kindness and love to everyone.

That dumbshit won't do any good. Pati ako dinadamay sa kalokohan. I have my purpose, I have my goals, I know what I want, I have my dreams—so I don't need to hook up with girls. I am busy with my life; I don't need to waste my time. The reason why I shouldn't have messed up is that I'm an only child. Days went on until my graduation came. It was supposed to be the happiest day of my life.