The Way It Used To Be Mga Nobela at Kwento

Hindi bakit parang binago 'yong lyrics sa una? "You used to say I love you, you used to say I miss you. And now it's all gone. Are we fading away~" nanigas ako sa kinatatayuan ko nang biglang lumabas sa likod ng stage ang lalaking kumakanta ngayon. Halos hindi na ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko nang dahan-dahan itong naglalakad papalapit sa akin.

Minsan, kapag may event lang kami nagkikita but not as often as before. How I miss those days. It's always nice to reminisce those moments were laughter subsides despair. When youth was beautiful vibrant. When they always bully me whenever they want to and when we are each other's strengths and weaknesses. How nice it is to go back to that time where I was busy building my own life but still those people I treasured stayed. Masyado kasi ako noong naka-focus sa pag-aasam kay Brent na nakalimutan ko na ang tao sa paligid ko.

Inabot ko ang bandihadong kanin at naglagay sa aking plato pagkatapos ay naglagay rin ako sa plato nito dahil napansin kong wala na siyang kanin. "May sarili akong kamay, kaya kong maglagay na hindi na kailangan ang tulong mo." Irap na wika niya sa akin. Kailangan ko kapalan ng aking mukha para sa gabing ito. Gusto ko lang naman makasigurong ligtas sila dahil kung tutuosin kaya ko naman umuwi ano man oras. "I just miss the things I used to be used to. At minsan lang naman ito."

At sa kanyang pag-iisa, naalala niya ang nakaraan na pinilit niyang tiisin, takasan at kalimutan…. Para kay Althea!

Hindi lang hustisya ang gusto ko, hindi lang ebidensya para malinis ang pangalan ko, kundi gusto kong maibalik 'yong pagmamahal nina Mommy na naglaho. I miss my old family. I miss those times when Mommy hugged me so tightly. I miss Ate Lorraine's teasing me. I miss the serious but happy conversations between Daddy and me. I miss going back to the times when they loved and appreciated me. I miss the happy family I used to have. All this time, I was alone. "

Wala naman siyang dapat i-explain sa akin. “I used to be like this, pero hindi ko naman na ito nagagamit ngayon. Look, kaya nga hindi na siya gamit. Kaya please, huwag mo naman akong pag-isipan ng masama. Nagbabago na ako, I’m not the kind of person like you used to know before.” mahinahon niyang sabi sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang sinasabi niya sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang point ng kaniyang pag-e-explain. I just wanted to end this, dahil ang lala na ng nangyayari.

Time won't fly it's like I'm paralyzed by it, I'd like to be my old self again but I'm still trying to find it, After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own, Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone.... The music was all in my ear pods while driving home. I'm a swiftie since RED era. She's such a nice song artist, and I really like her words of wisdom crafted into a song. Nabubuhayan ako palagi kapag naririnig ko ang boses niya. Cause there we are again when I loved you so, back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known, it was rare, I was there,

Nababaliw nanaman ako. While doing it, I remember about the old days. Yung mga araw na kakaibang-kakaiba talaga ang itsura ko sa kung anong itsura meron ako ngayon. Natatawa talaga ako sa itsura ko dati. Minsan napapamura pa ako na parang isang teenager kapag naaalala ko ang lahat nang yun. Mukha kasi akong manang mag-ayos noon. Daig ko pa nga ang suman sa itsura ko noon na mukhang ibinalot na ang katawan tulad ng sa kakanin.

Ni hindi man lang ito nagluksa o umiyak para man lang kahit papaano ay makita niyang nasasaktan ito. At ngayon ay nag handa pa ito para sa wedding anniversary nila. How's sweet, right? Or it's another kag*guhan para sa plano niya. Hindi na siya magpapauto, hindi na siya susunod. Kung may version man ng good people, ay baka siya yung bad version. "The old has gone, the new has come, in bad way."

I was so scared to face my fears Cause nobody told me, that you'd be here And I swore you move overseas That's what you said, when you left me You still look like a movie You still sound like a song My God, this reminds me When we were young... Let me photograph you in this light In case it is the last time That we might be exactly like we were before we realized We were sad of getting old It made us restless It was just like a movie It was just like a song..