Crying In Silence Mga Nobela at Kwento

Napabuga siyang muli ng hangin at napatulala. Ilang segundo siyang hindi nakapagsalita habang pinoproseso niya sakaniyang isipan ang narinig at ang lahat ng nangyari. He was silent for a moment and Alyana just kept crying silently. Parang nagdidilim at nanlalabo ang paningin niya. Pakiramdam niya at pinaglaruan siya at ginamit, but damn it. He shouldn’t be hurt this much, pero hindi niya mawari ang sakit.

I want to cry but I can’t seem to do it right now, so what should I do? Umangat ang kamay ko at lumapat iyon sa pisngi ko pababa sa panga. Nang hindi makuntento ay pumisil ako sa tungki ng ilong ko at yumuko. Inangat ko ang tuhod ko at pinatong doon ang noo ko habang nakapikit.

I can hear their growl and the sound of the crickets echoing. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin, para bang naging paralisado ang buong katawan ko na walang ginawa kundi ang manginig at maglabas ng luha sa mga mata. Gusto kong sumigaw para humingi ng tulong, pero walang boses na lumalabas mula sa bibig ko. I close my eyes as I wait for the brutal death to come at me.

Parang alam ng mata ko kung kailan sila maging manhid, nakasuot mismo ng maskara. All because of those people who I care about. I cried for them, but I cried this time because of two different reasons. Tears of joy. And tears of being taken off the mask I've been wearing all along. All emotions poured out as if they were waiting at the right time to be left out. I never thought this is what it feels to cry all out. For everything that happened a single tear wouldn't let me see as weak, am I? “You are not weak, crying is not a reason for you to be called weak, sometimes the stronger one cries too.” cinmellowdy☪

Damn. He never thought he would cry in front of a woman he didn't know. But he couldn't hold back his tears because he felt the pain as if a dagger was stuck in his heart. He loves his girlfriend very much and he doesn't think that she would just throw away the few years they had been together. C silently cried and tried not to let the woman hear it, but he knew it was impossible because they were only a few inches apart. Nakita naman niyang nanatiling nakikiramdam ang babae at hindi man lang kumikilos kaya hinayaan na niya ito.

Bullshit. Nagmadali akong umalis at umuwi, trying to stop my pain, my tears from coming out. Kailanman, hindi ako umiyak. Kayang-kaya kong pigilan ang mga luha ko. No one will see me cry, no one will see me weak. I know it's good for the soul, but crying for me means you're letting someone make you feel vulnerable. I won't give anyone satisfaction by hurting me. They don't deserve that kind of joy. They don't deserve to see me cry.

The sound it made was so small, but in the absolute silence of the room, it felt like a gunshot. Naglakad ako papunta sa salamin. I looked at myself. My face was pale, my eyes hollowed out by grief. I looked like a stranger. Dahan-dahan kong hinaplos ang tiyan ko. It was flat. Empty. The phantom cramps were still there, reminding me of the life that was supposed to be growing inside me right now. And then, it hit me. The silence wasn't peaceful. It was deafening. It was the sound of a happy family that would never happen. Napaupo ako sa gilid ng kama, ang mga kamay ko ay nakakuyom na sa puting bedsheet.

My throat tightened. I looked away, blinking fast. Pero biglang may tumulo na naman. Damn it. No. Not now. Pero hindi ko na napigilan. The tears just— Burst. I covered my mouth, shoulders shaking—humahagulgol, hindi lang umiiyak. The kind of cry that rips something open inside. Drake froze—like no one had ever cried like this in front of him—then suddenly he moved, fast, kneeling in front of me.

Umiling-iling ito na parang ayaw na niya sa kapatid, na tila nandidiri na siya sa nakikita kay Sapphire. Nagbagsakan ang mga luha sa mata nito nang dali-daling lumabas si Sean at padabog na isinarado ang pintuan, tears immediately pooled her eyes when she was left alone for the nth time. Silence filled her room and she hates silence right now. She will hate silence forever. What she loves right now is the loud music of bars and the different voice screaming so much of fun. That's what she badly needs...

Hindi ko sya hinarap dahil hindi ko kakayaning makita sya, mas lalo ko lang sisisihin ang sarili ko. "Fuck, why are you crying?!"