Romans & histoires Didn't We Almost Have It All

“Together. That’s all that matters.” The rest of the morning was spent packing our things, getting ready for the flight. I couldn’t help but reflect on the journey we’d just shared. This trip wasn’t just about the destination, it was about rediscovering each other, about building new memories after everything that had happened. It felt like a fresh start. The plane ride back to Manila was quiet. We both found comfort in the fact that we’d made it through this time, reconnected, and had a moment to simply breathe. But the closer we got to home, the more I could feel the weight of responsibilities waiting for us.

Tulala pa din si Sol at ramdam ko pa din ang panginginig ko dahil sa kabang naramdaman hanggang sa makalayo na kami. We stopped when we reached a fast food restaurant. Medyo hinihingal pa kami dahil walang tigil at dire-diretso kaming naglakad palayo. Wala tuloy kaming nabili kahit na isang gamit gaya ng plano. We both released a sigh of relief. "Ano bang ginawa mo?" agad na singhal niya sa akin. I scoffed. What the hell? So, ako na ngayon ang may kasalanan?

Hindi ko siya kayang tingnan but I could tell he’s walking towards me because of his footsteps. He didn’t say a word but he kneeled and now, we’re looking at each other’s eyes. I could see a part of him through Jeremy. Kahit na iba na ang buhay ko, I am still happy that I still got a different version of the dream life we wanted. We spent all those years dreaming of our future together. We wanted to have a family. When we were planning our wedding, halos wa na akong mahiling pa na iba because I was already living my dream pero iniwan niya ako. Galit na galit ako sa kanya pero ni minsan, hindi ko hiniling na sana mawala siya.

I like the latter better but I know that it will gonna be a long, hard and tiring process coz moving on is not easy specially when you finally admitted to yourself that you loss the battle and now you need to face the world coz you were defeated. "Playing innocent. Woman you nearly drive me insane" I smirked on his remark then closed my eyes. We did it like four or five time last night at heto nga inabot na kami ng madaling araw pero pareho pa kaming hindi natutulog. While I was nearly unconscious, Zurich on the other hand was so energetic. Hindi ko sya kayang sabayan dahil round two pa lang parang susuko na ako. "Sleep now honey. Someday when you're ready I'll marry you"

“Sure? Baka mamaya ay may problema!” “Trust me! Magugustuhan mo ang lupa. Malaki at malawak tapos…guwapo pa ang may-ari!” Inirapan ko siya. She’s being nonsense, I swear. Good thing that our foods arrived. I missed this! Our bonds. Eating together that we last did in college. We spend another hour by eating because Jess didn't run out of stories. “Well… I won't let this night go by without us going to the bar!” Kelvin giggled.

Isa lang ang alam kong ganon ang dugo, si Casper. Pero dahil ayokong malaman niya na may anak kami ay hindi ako hihingi ng tulong sa kanya. Never. Bago kami umuwi ay dumaan muna kami sa grocery store para mamili ng mga gamit sa condo dahil papa ubos na ang stock namin. ----- ⪩⪨ ----- Casper Pov

saad ko at nagtawanan lang kami. Masayang natapos ang foundation week. Marami kaming memories na nabuo, magkahalong ligaya at lumbay pero that's part of life naman. Kahit gano'n pa man, kailangan pa ring maging positibo ang pananaw kahit ano man ang mangyari. ---

“Whatever it takes, huwag mong isusuko ang mahalagang bagay sa’yo para lang sa’kin, okay?” Agad siyang tumango sa akin, kaya ngumiti na lang din ako muli, and we cooked. After we cooked, ay nanood na lang din kami. We slept and went back to watching, at natigil lang kami sa panonood nang mawalan ng kuryente. We then tried the generator, pero mukhang may problema rin iyon dahil hindi iyon nagbukas na dapat otomatikong magbukas kapag nawawalan ng power.

Something different. And as the last light of the sun disappeared, I couldn’t help but feel that this was the beginning of something neither of us had planned.

Isang maliit na pathway na lang ang tatawirin nila at mararating na nila ang park ng ospital. “Isang buwan at higit pa lang nang makilala namin ang isa’t isa, pero parang bawat aspeto ng mga buhay namin ay naikuwento na namin sa isa’t isa. And we promised to not let anyone destroy the bond that we have.”