Lament นิยาย & เรื่องราว

bulyaw ko pero hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi matulala sa malalapad niyang mga ngiti. Paanong ang lalaking 'to na nasa harapan ko at mala-anghel kung ngumiti, ay ang Liam Spencer na nakakatakot kung magalit. I wonder why what the people say about him is the opposite of what I see in his soul?

Marahil ay dahil iyon sa mga nagbabadyang luha sa loob ng mata ko. This is my decision... right? Why am I hurt? Why do I feel so much remorse? Kinuyom ko ang kamao ko. Sobrang higpit. Sinasabayan ko kung paanong humihigpit din ang pagsikip ng dibdib ko. Damn it! I should be happy. Finally, after I found out Jasper is having an affair, I will finally be free from him! Hindi ko deserve 'yong katulad niya!

dagdag pa ni Keran. " Ang sabihin mo para tayong mga tuod. Akala ko magkaka stiff-necked na ako dahil sa sobrang tuwid ng katawan ko. Hindi ko na magawang igalaw man lang ang ulo o leeg ko " sabat ni Limer habang ginagalaw galaw ang ulo niya at hinihimas ang leeg.

Hinawakan niya ang dalawa kong pisngi. "I'm sorry if I made you lonely. I'm sorry if I didn't do my job to take care of you and our baby right. I'm sorry if I made you think things that made you sadder. I'm sorry if I hurted you. I'm sorry if you felt unwanted, hated and unloved. I'm sorry if I didn't gave you the care you needed. I'm sorry for being a Dragunovv. I'm sorry for being me. But DEATH, now that Luna's gone, I won't ask you to act like her or be like her to have a place here in my life. In my heart. Because I will try. For her...since she wanted us together, I will try to love you back. If that's what she was wanted."

Nagsumikap ako nang husto sa loob ng sampung taon upang painitin ang puso ni Xander, ngunit sa araw na bumalik si Grace, lahat ng pagsisikap ko ay naglaho na parang usok. Nasasaktan din kaya ang mga kaluluwa? Naisip ko na lang na hindi ako makahinga. Muling bumalot sa akin ang kawalan ng pag-asa, nakakahilong pakiramdam habang nakakulong ako sa maleta. Habang hawak-hawak ni Xander si Grace, mas nagdilim ang ekspresyon niya.

The flower of sorrow or a hope I’m looking forward. @DeathWish

And as usual, I was distracted, I lost my focus kaya ang speech ko ay naging sabaw. Pagkababa ko ay pinaulanan ito ni Damien ng mga batikos at kritisismo. Kesyo maliit daw ang attention span ko, walang kwenta ang speech, at iba pa. In my mind, I was making faces while he’s enumerating my mistakes and what I should have said.

Noong marinig nito na nakunan siya at wala na ang apong pinakahihintay nito, agad itong humagulhol at niyakap siya. “Oh my, Emmy, we lost the baby… I'm so sorry. Your mom is sorry for you.” Tulala lang si Lavender, gusto niyang magalit sa nangyari pero parang pagod na pagod na siya sa lahat. She already lost the life of her child so what's the use of grieving?

“I-I’m sorry to hear that, Tita.” Ibinalik ni Mariana ang tingin kay Diana. Sa isip ay ang paghanga para sa dalagang ngayon lang nito nakilala. “May iba’t-ibang uri ng paglisan, hija. Subalit lahat ng naiiwan, dumadaan sa pagdadalahamti. We also grieve differently. A month, a year, or sometimes… forever. The deeper the love, the longer the grieving. Labinlimang taon na mula ng mawala ang aking mga anak. But I am still here, praying for things to change.”

tanging nasabi ko nalang dahil sobrang hinang hina ako at wala ng lakas para makapagsalita pa. "When I lost you and my child, I felt as if the world ended. Time stopped for me and nothing else mattered. The grief of losing my babies made me feel so lost. Iwondered if dying was a better alternative to enduring the rest of my days without you and my child to keep me alive.The process of losing someone does not happen all at once. It comes in bits and pieces, creeping up on you slowly but surely. It’s only when the gaping hole of loss overwhelms you that you fully comprehend the devastating permanence of losing someone to the hands of death.." hindi ako nagsalita at dapat pakinggan ko ang lahat