Romans & histoires Lost In Love

Lumaki akong sumusunod sa mga gusto ni Dad, hindi ko ito kinokontra dahil alam kong ginagawa niya 'yon para sa magandang kinabukasan ko. Pero dumating sa punto na nakakapagod din pala. Dumating din sa point na inamin niya lahat kung bakit wala akong ina. The time when my first love left me. It is Klara Santos. The woman I've met in that exclusive club. She's not really my first girlfriend, but she's my first heartbreak.

Na kahit anong pilit mong maging masaya, kung wala ang taong mahalaga sa'yo, wala rin. Everything seems so fine yet it feels empty. Have you ever felt that? Right now kasi, wala pa ring progress si Kuya eh, he's still in coma, for 6 years he's lying on that bed, everything is not the same anymore. Parang nagkaroon ng butas ang puso ko sa pagkawala ng taong mahal ko sa buhay. *phone vibrates* "Excuse me." sambit ko nang tumunog ang phone ko. Kinuha ko ito sa table at binasa ang message.

Pinigilan niya ang kaba niya at kinuha ang reader para ikunekta sa phone. Sa oras na makonekta ito, nagpakita sa screen ang impormasyon. Lumunok si Caroline habang pinapanood ang progress bar, nakikinig ng mabuti sa lahat ng tunog. Noong umabot ito sa 50%, bigla nagkaroon ng komosyon sa kabilang kuwarto. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso niya. Pagkatapos, narinig niya ang boses ni Lily. “ang tuwalya ay nasa dryer pa Ms. Love! Walang masyadong araw ngayon. Kukunin ko ito para sa iyon ngayon din.”

"I'm waiting for this from you and now it comes out. You did a very good decision in life. It's okay to fell in love into someone. Walang mali sa pagmamahal. Walang mali sa pag-amin at kung hindi man ito masusuklian. Mas mabuting hintayin itong maghilom." My tears fell. I don't know why I feel like this. Sadyang nahulog na ba talaga ako? Parang ayaw ko itong taposin pero alam kong sa kay Nicole pa rin siya babagsak. I don't have any weapon. It just our marriage contract. Kasal siya sa akin sa papel pero ang puso niya ay kasal sa iba. Selena pulled my hand until I realized that we are in the middle of the crowds. Dancing and feeling tipsy now.

We had poured our hearts into creating a space filled with love and comfort, dreaming of the joy and laughter that would soon fill our home. But that happiness was short-lived, shattered in an instant by a cruel twist of fate. A car accident stole away our unborn child, leaving us to grapple with the unimaginable pain of loss. And in the aftermath, I lost her too, my beloved fiancé, my partner in both joy and sorrow. The room, filled with untouched treasures and unfulfilled dreams, served as a poignant reminder of the fragility of life and the unpredictability of fate. It was a painful echo of my past, a testament to the grief and heartache that Reid and Lily now faced.

“You said once na love means staying even when it hurts. Ako ‘yun, Cyn. Ako ‘yung lalaking mananatili kahit lahat ng tama sa mundo sabihing mali tayo.” Tahimik. Walang sumagot, pero ‘yung luha niya, bumigay na. “Then why does it feel like I’m losing myself in you?” mahina niyang sabi. “You’re not losing yourself, baby. You’re finding the part that’s been missing all along.” Ngumiti siya, pero mapait. “You always know what to say.” “Because I meant it.” Niyakap ko siya—mahigpit, desperado.

The room stayed silent. His breathing trembled. “You can’t leave me alone after making me believe we could finally be happy.” Still nothing. Alex laughed weakly through tears, though the sound carried no real amusement. “This is unfair,” he whispered painfully, “I already lost years without you… don’t make me lose you again.” Across the room, Lora sat curled up on the couch while eating chips aggressively like she was personally offended by their existence, though her red eyes made it obvious she had been crying again earlier.

And I would love to get lost while looking into his eyes… forever. ***

Tears of pain running down my cheeks. "I know you will not come back and i have lost a gem like you. But still, it will take me a lifetime to accept that you are not mine and i have spend my whole life without you. Trust me for the last time baby. All i want is to be with you. I love your flaws, laugh, smile, tears, mistakes, errors, and nagginh. Despite everything.." I kissed her forehead ang hugged her tightly. "Losing someone you love, literally shatters you from inside and leaves your world empty. Letting someone you love go is like exhaling your soul, and hope becomes the poison you are left to breathe in..." I whispered.

Saka wala naman talagang ibang dapat makapareha itong si Zhia, kundi ako lang. Zhia, I lost myself. The moment I wear love on my sleeves I have forgotten my real identity. The moment I let it fill my system, it's the only one I'm worrying about. The moment I let you enter my heart I gave you all the right to scarred my poor heart, break it as long as you desire. The moment I vowed loving you, it was the same moment I lost myself. I became an option and you, my sole priority. That's how I really sacrifice to you, MYSELF.