Poem For My Mother 소설 & 이야기

I said I tried to be calm but my tears is a traitor. "A-ate h-hindi .. ko kaya, Gusto k-ko bumalik si mama ! " She said while crying at my shoulder , Wala na kaming paki alam kung nakaharang kami sa daan . Yung sakit na halos mawawarak na buong mundo parang binagsakan kami , I don't know what happen to us cause my mom is died . Napakabilis ng pangyayare , I heard kurt but it's to noisy yung mga tao bumibilis , ang mga ilaw ay sobrang liwanag.

Hindi iyon matutulog nang hindi ako napapakain at napapainom ng gamot. Bumalong ang luha ko. I miss my mom. I wish she was here. If only I could bring back that day. I'd rather catch the bullet for her. Losing a mother at an early age is not easy. It's not that easy. Mahirap. Masakit. Bumaluktot ako at hinigpitan pa ang kapit ko sa comforter. My body was trembling.

She loves my father more than any jewel in this world. Napahawak ako sa puso ko dahil sa sakit. Namimis ko ang mama ko. Tiningnan ko ulit ang buwan. Moon was my mom's favorite place to rest. It may be far but, for my mom, moon was her light in her dim life, her redeemer and serve as the shoulder of her all her anxiety and worries.

Kayo ang bumuo sa akin, sa inyo ko naramdaman ang pagkakaroon ng buong pamilya, ang pamilyang matatawag kong akin. Ngunit patawarin ninyo ang mommy, babies ko... Mommy is so weak... Mommy is so hurt that she can't take it anymore. I'm sorry that mommy will give up; mommy has no will to fight anymore. I'm sorry... I am so sorry, my loves, my treasure. When God allows me to be born again, I will beg Him to be your mother again. Until we meet again, my babies...

Napangiti na lang ako nang mapait habang sila ay malungkot na lumalapit sa akin ngayon. "Alam kong hindi ka maayos 'nak pero, lagi mong tandaan na nandito lang kami, ah? Mga magulang mo kami kaya huwag kang mahiyang sumandal sa amin kapag kailangan mo na ng tulong," my mother's voice was so soft and when she uttered those, as if I completely fell on my knees. Her eyes were so sad and it was so visible within those orbs how hurt she was while staring at me worriedly.

"Matulog kana baby ko at sana sa pag gising ay maalala mo na ako." "Matulog kana baby ko at sana sa pag gising mo ay maalala mo na ako." "Matulog kana baby ko at sana sa pag gising mo ay maalala mo na ako." Hindi ko alam kung para sa akin ba ang mga salita na yun o may naaalala siya sa akin kaya niya sinabi yun. Saka ko na iisipin iyon ang importante ngayon ay kung pa'no ko ihahanda ang surprise Mother's day celebration para kay mommy.

giit ko pa bago nagmamadaling lumabas na. Ayaw ko silang makita. Ayaw kong makihalubilo sa kanilang tatlo. Ang hirap magpanggap na okay ako, na okay lang sa akin ang lahat ng nakikita ko. Pero ang totoo... ang sakit na talaga. If only my mother was still alive, may mapagsasabihan sana ako ng problema. May mahihingahan sana ako. "I miss you Mom," I sob then wipe the tears that falls to my cheek. "I miss you big time!"

naiiyak na sambit ni Mama. I felt so weak dahil ngayon ko lang nakita si Mama na umiyak sa harap ko dahil hindi ko naman siya nakikitang umiyak. "Ma...okay lang po hindi ko kailangan ng marangyang buhay para lang makuha ang mga gusto ko, mas gusto ko pong makatulong sa inyo kaysa maging pabigat sa inyo...Ma konting tiis na lang...mabibigyan ko na kayo ng buhay na gusto niyong makamit...konting tiis na lang Ma maii-ahon ko na kayo sa hirap," I tried not to be weak in front of my mother, gusto kong maging matatag sa harap nila kahit alam ko sa sarili kong hinang hina na 'ko.

I can't even thank them personally, maybe tomorrow I'll be gone, and at least now I can still do it. I'll put Jacob first. Dearest Jacob, Thank you so much, thank you for giving me the happiness that no one else can match. Thank you for giving me the experience of being a mother. Thank you for giving me one of the most beautiful gifts I have ever received. Even if you don't remember me, I hope you remember, you have the feeling that you are happy with me. I hope you remember the things we promised each other while we watched the sunset. I want to own you, I want to hug you, I want to kiss you. But I do not know-how. I don't know if that's still possible–

“How could you-” Sinampal niya na ako, masakit. Pero mas masakit yung nararamdaman ko ngayon. All my life, I never felt her presence as a mother. I never experienced to have a mom who always cook a lunch for me, a mom who will do my hair before I go to school, a mom who will sing me a lullaby whenever I can't sleep. “You're just good at hurting me, go hurt me all you want. You didn't care at me right?”