Shame On Me Meaning Novels & Stories

Mom came to the side of my bed at agad naman akong napabalikwas para siya yakapin ng mahigpit. "Mom, I missed you so much and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for lying to you..." Hindi ko na napigilan at tuluyan na akong napaiyak. I knew I have terribly hurt my mother and I felt so ashamed of what I did. She doesn't deserve to be put to shame. I just wish she didn't watch the scandal. I felt like I look like a horrible whore there.

Can't believe I injured myself three times. What kind of clumsy idiot are you, self? I should be independent by now, pero tama sina Mom at Dad, they always tell me that wala ako kapag wala sila. I know understand it. Fuck, nag-dadrama na naman ba ako? It just hurts kasi, realizing I can’t even do simple task but I'm so full of myself? Nakakatawa ka Shaniqua. “F-Fuck, h-hey?! W-what happend to you?!” Nagulat ako nang may biglang sumulpot sa likuran ko.

Utal na umatras siya. She's staring at my dick and pointing the pierce on top of it. “N-no. I can't take it...” She's really scared. She even tried to run away from me but she's weak. I can't believe for the first time in my entire life, I feel ashamed!

Tapos nagwalk-out. I don't know what to do. I was quite shock from his outburst. Ngayon lang ako napahiya ng ganito. I felt myself burning in shame. Kitang-kita kong magbulungan ang mga tao sa canteen. At wala akong nagawa kundi umalis doon ng nakayuko. Nakakahiya! Hindi ko na din inintindi amg dalawang stupid na iyon. Feeling ko kasalanan nila kaya ako napahiya mg ganun.

Ibinaba ko ang paper bag sa lamesa bago ako humarap sa kaniya nang buong-buo. "I want to apologize, Shan," wika ko, looking straight into her eyes. "I’m sorry dahil pinairal ko ang pride ko noong isang gabi. Instead of understanding kung saan nanggagaling ang takot mo, nagalit ako dahil naramdaman kong hindi mo ako pinagkakatiwalaan. That was very unfair to you." Napatitig sa akin si Shanaia, tahimik siyang nakikinig sa bawat salitang sinasabi ko.

Hindi ako nagsalita. Hinayaan ko siyang ilabas ang gusto niyang sabihin. "You embarrassed me!" halos manginig ang boses niya. "In front of everyone!" Huminga ako nang malalim at sumandal sa kinauupuan ko. "Do you have any idea that woman humiliated me!" bahagya akong kumunot ang noo. "...Shania?" "Yes!" muling sigaw niya. "She had the audacity to look down on me!"

All I can remember is that there was immense pleasure traveling through my body. I push Heath out of the bathroom, feeling my own shame creeping up on me when I hear in my head how much I sighed and moaned the night before. “You can’t escape this, Brianna,” sabi niya lang sa’kin bago ko sinarado ang pinto sa mukha niya. I press my back against the door and slide to the floor, my face in my hands. Ano ba talaga ‘tong pinaggagagawa ko sa buhay ko?

Kung pipigilan ko pa ito ngayon, hindi ba magmumukha lang akong guilty? Nang ma-realize ni Shiela na pareho kami ng iniisip, napalitan ng excitement ang galit niya. “Say no more! Ako na bahala sa PR response. Tingnan mo—papaluhurin ko ‘yang mayabang na ‘yan para mag-serve ng tsaa at humingi ng sorry bago matapos ‘to!”

She feels sorry for her. "Gail, sorry. Sorry kung nasasaktan ka. I'm really sorry. I-I don't know how to ease the pain. I-I'm sorry." Tipid siyang ngumiti. Unti unting tumulo ang mga luha sa mata nito. Nakagat niya ang labi. She feels guilty as hell!

And with that, she had gone back inside, slamming the door behind her. Tears nonstop pricked my eyes as I stood there, paralyzed. I felt the weight of everyone's stares, their silent judgment cutting deeper than her words. Napaluhod na lang ako sa kawalan ng pag-asa. Dahan-dahan kong pinagpupulot ang ibang nakakalat na ibang gamit sa paligid. The shame almost too much to bear. Homeless. Jobless. Helpless. Hopeless , and broke.