Shame Thesaurus Novels & Stories

natatawang aniya. Humugot ako ng isang malalim na hininga pagkatapos ay pinalobo ang aking bibig bago nagsalita, "Shamae! I-I don't know but I feel so embarrassed! M-may parte sa akin na natutuwa ako pero may kaunting parte rin sa akin na natatakot at nahihiya." Maluha-luhang wika ko

Pagkatapos ay pinagsisipa ang mga gamit ko. "Kulang pa 'to! Kukunin ko ang tv mo at lumayas ka na!" And with that, she had gone back inside, slamming the door behind her. Tears nonstop pricked my eyes as I stood there, paralyzed. I felt the weight of everyone's stares, their silent judgment cutting deeper than her words. Napaluhod na lang ako sa kawalan ng pag-asa. Dahan-dahan kong pinagpupulot ang ibang nakakalat na ibang gamit sa paligid. The shame almost too much to bear.

O kung ano'ng plano naming dalawa? My chest tightened. May bumara din sa lalamunan ko dahil sa pagdaan ng kaba. I don't understand why the guilt, shame, and fear are crawling in my chest so painfully. Ang bara sa lalamunan ko'y inalis ko muna bago marahang tumango. Huli na para takbuhan ko ito. I'm already cornered by my mother at alam kong hindi niya hahayaan na makaiwas pa ako sa pag-uusap namin ngayon.

Wala naman kami ginawang masama. "Hon, you know what I mean. Gagamitin ka lang niya upang makalimot sa kanyang nakaraan." Sambit ni Xenon. "Ashame of you." Inis na asik ni Shara sa kasintahan. Ngumiwi ako. "Hey! Huh, wala naman kami ginagawang masama. Ewan ko diyan sa imahinasyon niyo! Never kong magugustuhan ang antipatikong lalaking yon!" I pouted.

Ang galing niya talagang gumawa ng rason makapag-inom lang. Though pumayag ang lahat. "I'm always by your side, Meeri," hayag ni Mom at niyakap ako kaya naman niyakap ko rin siya. "I know, Mom," bulong ko at mapait na ngumiti. "And I'm sorry for bringing shame into our family." "No, no, baby, it's not your fault." Inalo ako nito pero hindi na ako muling umimik. Kahit na itanggi niya, talagang kasalanan ko ito. I expected this to happen but... I can't handle the shame especially that I'm dragging down my family name.

"He didn't want to attend the wedding because of one thing bitch..." Itinaas ko ang kilay. "Ano iyon?" "Shame"

How will I face her after I shamelessly asked her with my own greed and schemes? This is beyond belief for someone like me to do such a thing. For heaven's sake, kailan pa ako naging shameless? Never did I do such a thing to put shame in my name. This is the freaking first time! Marahas na napabuntong hininga ako, especially when Kriesha went inside my mind so suddenly. "Should I be thankful that it was her who I was gone shameless?" wala sa sarili kong wika.

PAHINA 20 I know what's right or wrong, but I realize. Kahit alam mo na pala ang gagawin, maling-mali pa rin ang pagpili mo ng tama. I could say throughout this years that I live in this world of tempting and seducing someone---is a bad habit at all. When money is...involved. Seven years had passed and I have now a stable job. Yes! Stable job that can pay me as high as you expected. I am the manipulator, but can't be deceive.

Hindi nangimbay ang boses niya, pero halatang pinipigilan. “What makes you think you’re too late?” He swallowed hard. “Kasi Mia learned to protect herself from me. Kasi Liam got to show her what healthy love looks like… habang ako, I was busy choosing pride over communication.” “You’re recognizing the pattern,” sabi ng therapist. “That’s good. Awareness is the beginning of healing.” Pero umiling si Ethan. “It doesn’t feel like healing. It feels like punishment.” “That’s because you’re still viewing yourself from a place of shame,” paliwanag ni Dr. Vale. “Shame says, ‘I am bad.’ Guilt says, ‘I did something bad.’ They are not the same, Ethan.”

Ang dumi-dumi ko! I broke into tears as I remember Shennun's words. "Huwag kang magmaangmaangan na wala kang alam! You! Are! A! Fucking mistress, Eliyah!" Napaluhod ako habang humahagulgol. I rushed to the shower and immediately open it. Nakakadiri. Disgusting. Shameful. Fucking whore! "Ahh!" I screamed as I couldn't take off the disgust I'm feeling.