روايات وقصص ضمن Disobedient

Hinawakan ko ito nang mag sink-in sa utak ko ang salitang ina. Hindi madali. Hindi simpleng obligasyon. Hindi maliit na responsibilidad. “Sorry… I'm so sorry…” I don't want to blame the child in my womb. I don't want to get confused, but there’s no certainty in the relationship between me and Rex. “Masasaktan ka lang kung mabubuhay ka at malaman mo na nabuo ka, dahil sa pagbabayad ng utang…” “Hey! I've been waiting for you. Okay ka lang ba diyan?”

Bahagyang naging marahas ang kilos nito dahilan para indahin niya iyon. “I am the boss, yes, Catalina,” anito sa galit na tinig. “But they are part of La Commissione. Kapag nalaman ng organisasyon na may ginawang paglabag ang kahit sinong miyembro ay binibigyan nila ng hatol... kahit ako na siyang boss ng Blackstone. That is the rule, Catalina, and no one is exempted. Blackstone is very particular when it comes to loyalty. Break the trust and you are out. Even just one lie, Catalina.”

"H-hindi ba p-pwede mag-usap na malayo k-ka sa'kin? T-this is uncomfortable." "I hate people who disobey me, the people who pretend to be nice, people who dictate what I should or should not do, and lastly, those people who judge me even before knowing me," he replied instead. "And I can't believe that lahat ng iyon ay na sa'yo. Why are you disobeying me? Why do you pretend to be nice? Why are you dictating the things I should and I shouldn't do? And why the fuck do you judge me like you already knew who I really am?"

Sakto lang para maramdaman kong wala akong kawala. “Look at me,” utos niya. Tumingin ako. “You think I don’t know you hate this,” sabi niya. “I see it. I allow it.” “Why?” tanong ko, halos pabulong. “Because resistance makes obedience sweeter,” sagot niya. Binitiwan niya ako at umatras. “But don’t confuse my patience with mercy,” dagdag niya. “You are free to feel. You are not free to leave.”

Kaya nang maghiwalay si Reisha at Lozero, at bumalik siya at si Reisha sa pamilya Carzen upang manirahan, nagkaroon siya ng stress reaction, takot na sisihin ng iba, takot na buntong hiningahan ng iba, kaya bago siya mag-dose o trese anyos, kahit na napakabait ng lahat sa pamilya Carzen sa kanya, napakabait pa rin niya. And, even though the whole Carzen family treated her with genuine warmth, she remained extremely obedient. Too obedient. She didn’t dare make mistakes. She didn’t dare express herself. She didn’t dare have her own will.

Hindi siya mapakali, ganun din ako. Napaisip ako, sa sinabi niya, kung binantaan niya ba si papa. Pero she's just a poor woman like my mother said. Ano naman sana ang laban niya kay dad? Napakasakit ng ulo ko sa kakaisip, hindi ko kinakaya ang mga pabigla-biglang plano ni Dad. Kaya naman sinubukan kong kausapin ang mga bodyguards ni dad pero hindi sila nagsasalita, they rather die than to defy my father. Masyado silang tapat kay papa, at wala akong magagawa doon. My father helped them a lot, halos lahat ng tulong ay binibigay ni papa sa kanila kaya naman ganun na lang ang katapatan nila sa kanya. Kaya kahit pa anak ako ni dad,kapag sinabi ni dad na huwag nila akong kausapin ay gagawin nila.

Hindi naman saklaw ni Ate Roa ang buhay ko at baka sabihin lang nito na nasa akin ang desisyon. Isang desisyong hindi ko alam kung paano kastiguhin. I’m an obedient daughter who does what others tell me to do. That’s exactly what I am. Wala akong kakayahang tumayo sa sarili kong mga paa at nakadepende palagi sa sasabihin ng iba.

matagal bago ako nakapag-isip ng mabuti. "I don't have the right to informed you about our child when you already let me go. Para saan pa Winter kung papakawalan mo rin pala kami? It is better that way. It really was." I lied on the last two phrase. It was never been better. I have a lot to surpassed when I was pregnant with his child. It was never been. SecludedFantasy: Trevor's story is Wicked. Kindly read it :)

"Be obedient, stay by my side, and stop this pathetic attempt at rebellion. Magpakabait ka, show me total submission, and I’ll let them walk out of that basement. I’ll let them go home, safe and sound." Napalunok ako. The choice was clear but impossible. "You’re using them against me?" "I’m giving you a purpose," he corrected, his expression hardening. "If you want their freedom, start earning it. Every day you obey, every day you prove that you are mine, ay isang hakbang palapit sa kalayaan nila. But the moment you slip? The moment you even think about running? They pay the price." "Promise me," pabulong kong sabi, my voice shaking. "Promise me na kapag ginawa ko ang gusto mo, pakakawalan m