Novel & Cerita Reminiscing About The Past

I was silently gazing out the window, reminiscing about the moments in the past that we spent between me and Logan. I glanced up at the gray skies, the clouds heavy with the promise of rain. The memories flooded in like a tide I couldn't stop. How his presence could light up even in my darkest days, it all felt so vivid as if it had just happened yesterday. Yet, those memories, no matter how beautiful, were now nothing more than fragments of a time I could never return to.

Sandali itong tumigil bago muling nagsalita. "Pero tandaan mo, hindi natin maaaring pilitin ang utak na maalala agad ang lahat. Minsan, kusa itong bumabalik kapag may nakikitang tao, lugar, bagay, amoy, o pangyayari na konektado sa nawawalang memorya."

Pero gusto kong malaman kung sino siya sa buhay ko ngayon. Pagbalik ko sa laboratory, hindi ko agad maalis sa isip ko ang naging conversation namin ni Eireen. Habang naglalakad ako papunta sa workstation ko, paulit-ulit na bumabalik sa isip ko ang mga sinabi niya tungkol sa past ko, lalo na noong sabihin niyang may mga taong minsan ay naiiwan sa memory natin kahit hindi natin sila maalala nang buo. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero mas lalo akong nabahala dahil sa tuwing naiisip ko ang past ko, palaging may kasamang isang mukha na hindi ko makita nang malinaw.

he whispered in my ear as we seated. Nilingon ko siya at tipid na ngumiti. "Wala naman. I just remember the past." Agad na nagdilim ang mukha niya. "How many times do I have to tell you—" "To forget the past. I know. But still, I can't help it. Isa pa, bakit ko naman kalilimutan ang nakaraan. Kung hindi naman dahil sa mga nangyari noon ay hindi naman tayo magiging ganito kasaya at katatag ngayong kasalukuyan."

Napangiti ako. " alam mo, di mo naman kaylangang mahiya sa past mo eh. Kasi may mga taong mas nakakahiya pa ang past kesa sayo." Sabi ko bringing up the issue kanina. Nakita ko kung pano sya napangiti ng mapait. " you know what, i hate having flashbacks to the memories i dont even want to remember" Mapait na sabi nya sabay tungo. " but i keep on getting unto me"

Hindi maintindihan ni Lola kung bakit bigla- bigla siyang kukumustahin ng binata gayong sa nakalipas na isang taon ay puro kagaspangan ang naging pagtrato nito sa kanya. "Lola, tungkol sa nangyari noong araw na iyon," wika ng binata. "Kalimutan mo na iyon, Nathaniel. Matagal ko nang kinalimutan ang nangyaring iyon," tugon naman niya.

It was like a film reel in my mind as well. I closed my eyes and started to take in everything. The laughter, the arguments, the stolen kisses, the sex we had in this car—they all flashed back in my mind. Bakit ba kailangan ko maalala ang mga ito? I know I always reminisce about the past, but why should I reminisce about it when I am with him? Parang gusto ko na lang umiyak. My emotions, I could tell that everhthing inside me is in turmoil.

Nakita kong bahagya itong siniko ni Jules. And for the nth time, I forgot what to say next. I already forgot the past and don’t want to remember what happened from the past. And still, I didn't know that it still has an effect on me. That house may bring back the painful past to me, but I still value it with my life. Ibinigay yun ng lolo ko sakin, sa amin. Though, it holds every piece of memory I have from my life before.

"Oh... I missed you rin Apo. I remembered na kinarkarga pa kita pag dumadalaw kayo dito ng mommy mo nang maliit kapa but right now I can't do it anymore." He said while chuckling. Being around with the people who are the part of my past helped me alot to slowly bring back my memories. "Axel maiba nga tayo, natukoy na ba ang bumangga sa iyo?" He said seriously. "Sa ngayon po Lo, hindi pa rin masyadong mautak ang taong gumawa nayon. Imagined po Lo it was fucking daylight nang mangyare iyon and wala man lang ni isa ang nakasaksi!

The last time I'm here was indeed an unforgettable one. "Have you still remember the last time you were here? We still have our unfinished business." Sex, that's what he means about the unfinished business. I sighed. "Vince, kalimutan na natin yun. It's in the past, wala nang dapat pang balikan. Alam mo yun." pagpupumilit kong pakiusap sa kanya. "But Vin would remind us from our past Ainah. Anak natin ang magdudugtong ng nakaraan at ng kasalukuyan. There's always a connection between us."