When I Close My Eyes นิยาย & เรื่องราว

He's just always there, showing up whenever I try to close my eyes. "Ilang beses ko bang ipipikit at ididilat ang aking mga mata, sa tahimik na gabing ito? Ilang beses ko bang kukumbinsihin ang aking sarili na matulog at huwag pansinin ang sinabi niya?" d***g ko sa sarili ko. Kahit tahimik ang gabi, kabaligtaran iyon sa naisip ko. Gabi na, pero iniisip ko pa rin ang isang bagay na maaaring makagambala sa akin.

sigaw ko sa mukha niya. He closed his eyes. We're so close that my breath probably hit his face when I screamed at him. My eyes watered because of my annoyance and anger. I can feel my tears brewing more around my eyes. He watched me in awe as I burst out screaming in front of him, my eyes blurring because of the tears.

Kahit pag-ikot lang ng paningin ko sa paligid ay nakakapagod, at pakiramdam ko, pati paghinga ay nakakapagod. No one is in the room, except me. The lights were dim, and it's cold, but comfortable. I wanted to move, but I can't, I feel weak. Maingat na huminga ako ng malalim at ipinikit muli ang mga mata ko, pero hindi ako natulog. I just close my eyes, pinapakiramdaman ang paligid, pero wala namang kahit ano, napakatahimik at payapa.

She closed her eyes and whispered her wish. Ramdam niya ang pagdapya ng malamig na hangin sa pisngi niya at ang marahang paglipad nito sa ilang hibla ng buhok niya. Somehow, she felt at peace everytime she did close her eyes and felt the gentle breeze. Pero agad din namang nawawala kapag didilat siya at mapagmasdan muli ang magulong mundo. Ilang sandali pa siyang nananatiling nakapikit, matapos sambitin ang hiling niya. Nang idilat niya ang mga mata niya ay napatingin siya sa baryang kumikislap sa ilalim ng tubig.

Instead of giving you butterflies in your stomach, sakit pala sa ulo at puso ang ibibigay sa iyo? Funny, isn't? Hilaw na lang ako natawa, at kung iispin parang joke lang ngunit kapag nandoon ka na, yari ka na. I don't want to stress myself for overthinking so I let my eyes closed and dripped into a deep sleep...

Ilang segundo na nakalapat ang labi namin sa isa't-isa. My eyes are open and his are closed. Hindi ako makakibo sa sobrang gulat. Ni hindi na makapag isip ang utak ko kung ano na ang dapat kong gawin.

Kung ako man ang pakay niyo, bakit ako? 'Til the dizziness cover up my consciousness, my eyes went totally close... ••• RaineeeNeee

Natuyo na rin ang dugo sa ilong ko pero ang kapalit naman noon ay hindi ma-kontrol na hilo. Maybe it would not hurt if I just closed my eyes, right? I really really want to rest now.

Nakapikit ako sa lahat ng mga kinuha niyang litrato. "Why are you closing your eyes, mommy? Sleepy kana po?" takang tanong niya. Parehas kaming natawa ni Alex sa sinabi niya. Mas itong nagtaka dahil tumawa kami. "I just feel relax when I'm with you and your daddy that's why my eyes are closed" paliwanag ko sa kanya. "I'm happy when I'm with you and daddy naman po" ani niya. "That's good, baby."

I remembered how blankly he stared at me and how I saw the sadness hiding in his blank stare. I closed my eyes tightly and tried to put him out of my mind. I shouldn't be thinking about him. I should focus on my daughter and son right now. There is no room for someone like him to make me think about him.