Always Remembering Novels & Stories

"Nope but he felt it. Years passed his mind are always on that girl, she even visit denvil's dream. And denvil's system can't get over it and never forget of that memory he had with her in the very shorten time." "Memory..." Ulit ko ng may maalala ako. " Naalala ko iyong sinabi mo noon. Sabi mo 'An unforgettable memory is an unforgettable experience." "Yeah, they even said that no matter how long or short your memories with them but once your heart cherish it heartedly your mind can't get over it too." Napatango tango ako sa sinabi ni gwapong driver. Tama nga sya, pag ang puso na ang nagbigay halaga nito kahit isip mo ay damay.

Why can’t I just have my memories back? Sa paanong paraan ko ba maaalala ang lahat? Kailangan ko pa bang mauntog o maaksidenteng muli para lang maalala ko ang lahat? I did take the damn risk! I did that damn bodyshot but why can’t I remember anything?! Is this some kind of a joke or what?

"Those old memories. Ang sarap balikan, ano?" "Tama ka! 'Yon 'yong araw na unang beses mong pinaramdam sa akin na ang swerte ko kahit na wala namang kakaiba sa akin. Mula noon hanggang ngayon, hindi ka napapagod pahalagahan ako. Sana hindi ka magbago." "Ano ka ba! Naging consistent nga ako sa loob ng mahabang panahon, 'di ba? Wala na 'tong pag-asang magbago."

Pero kahit gaano karaming alak ang inumin ko, hindi pa rin nawawala ang isang mukha sa isip ko. Mich. Fuck. Tatlong taon na. Tatlong taon ko nang sinusubukang kalimutan ang babaeng iyon pero parang mas lalo lang siyang tumatatak sa utak ko habang tumatagal. Hindi ko na nga maalala ang mukha ng ibang babaeng nakasama ko noon. Pero siya? I could still remember every detail. Her eyes. Her laugh. The way she looked at me inside that elevator like she wanted to stop but couldn’t.

“Ah… ganoon ba. So, wala ka talagang maalala sa nangyari kagabi pagkatapos mong uminom?” “May naaalala naman ako… just fragments. I remember calling you repeatedly and getting more and more irritated when you wouldn’t answer my call. Iyon ang tanging ala-ala na nakarehistro sa utak ko bago ako nawala sa sarili,” aniya.

At biglang may pumasok sa isip niya na hindi niya maintindihan kung saan nanggaling. Isang flash. Isang batang siya na nakatingin sa keypad. Nakamasid. Tahimik. Pero malinaw na inuunawa ang bawat pindot. Dr. Reyes (memory): “Watch carefully.” Dr. Reyes (memory): “Patterns are everything.” Dr. Reyes (memory): “You remember better than the others.” Napahinto siya. Elena: “Patterns…” Elena: “I remember patterns…” Elena: “That’s why…”

Hindi ko mo na sinabi sa kanila that my memories are back. I want to remember everything about myself bago ko sabihin sa kanila ang lahat, yeah I remember pero parang kulang e. After kong magpalit ay hinanap ko yong infinite necklace na binigay sa akin ni Vaughn, I want to see that necklace again Kung saan saan na ako naghahanap hindi ko pa din nakita, tanungin ko kaya si Mama or Daddy hmmpf!

So what's this? Was it because... her heart can remember everything? Kaya kusang gumagalaw ang katawan niya nang hindi niya napapansin, dahil alam nito ang nakasanayan na niyang gawin dati pa kahit wala siyang maalala ngayon?? Is that even possible?? Hindi ko na naisip pa kung anong ginagawa ko kanina. Parang bigla ding naglaho ang inis na nararamdaman ko.

putol nito ulit sa kanya. "W-what?" naguguluhang tanong niya, pabulong. "I don't have any memory of you. And though after tomorrow, we'd just totally be strangers who happened to marry each one time in their lives, I still want to have memory of you. You see, I don't know if I'd ever remember the past. But just in case I don't, I'd still have a memory of you-- one thing that I'd get to keep and remember for this lifetime that we will spend apart."

But our lips remained connected, never minding the cold that the rain had poured on us. But… I will remember it all. Even this cold. I will remember it.