Breaking My Heart Novels & Stories

He breathed deeply; his eyes were looking at me with so much worry and concern. "I swear to God, I didn't mean to break your heart. You have no idea how painful it is for me to do this. I hate seeing you cry." His voice broke. He wiped my tears with his fingers. I could really feel his guilt, and knowing that he's guilty satisfies me.

hiyaw ko sabay ng pag dodoorbell baka sakaling maging effective. Pero wala pa rin e! Napaupo na lang ako don sa pavement ng makaramdam ako ng pag ngalay. Napahilamos pa ako ng mukha ng maramdaman ko na yung pagod ko sa paglakad. Ang grabe naman ng gabi'ng to! At grabeng kamalasan na bakalimutan ko ang cellphone ko at nadala yung mga candy! Really? Aanhin ko yun?

She couldn’t hold it anymore. She cried. She cried as her heart broke into pieces. She never knew that love will be this heart shattering that you are willing to give up everything just to see he's happy—with someone else. ///

Nasa puso ko pa rin ang lahat ng bigat at sakit. Hindi naman basta-bastang nawawala ang pain kahit ilang pain reliever pa ang inumin ko. He broke me, a hundred times, so don't expect me to forgive him with a simple apology or I love yous because it's not easy. And I just realized tonight, I'm still broken.

Parang sirang plaka na paulit-ulit kong naririnig, dahilan din kung bakit paunti-unti ring gumuho ang mundo ko, kasabay ng pagkakawasak ng umaasa kong puso. I'm not being dramatic. It's real and I've never been this broken. I hate this. I hate this feeling. It's suffocating, slowly killing me deep inside. "I'm sorry, babe." she apologized. Kahit na nag apologize siya, hindi ko pa rin matatanggap at ang galit sa puso ko ay nanaig. Nagtagis ang aking mga bagang, at mariin na kumuyom ang aking mga kamay, halos sirain na ang hawak kong cellphone na hindi ko pansin.

At sobrang sakit, dahil umasa siya na pareho sila ng nararamdaman ng kanyang kababata. "You break my heart into a thousand pieces," iyon ang salitang gusto niya ipabatid sa dalaga, pero hindi iyon lumabas sa kanyang bibig. Lihim na umiiyak ang kanyang puso dahil sa sakit!

Ngumiti ako sa aking ama. ♪ As the smoke clears I awaken And untangle you from me Would it make you Feel better To watch me while I bleed All my windows Still are broken But I'm standing on my feet... You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper♪ I winked at Evron when he did not even blink while I'm singing.

I felt all of it, then buried it so deep that nothing could reach it again. That day, something inside me broke. I left that church hollow, humiliated, and with a heart turned to ice. Ngunit isang bagay ang tumimo sa isip at puso ko, that heartbreak didn’t destroy me. It becomes my strength and motivation to continue proving myself to others. I told myself that if I weren’t enough for her, I’d become someone no one would dare walk away from again.

Malinaw naman na sex lang ang habol namin sa isa't isa tapos kung makapag-emote ako kanina akala mo talagang main character. "Hayysss....." hindi ko lang pinahalata kila ate at mommy ang tunay kong nararamdaman sa mga oras na ito. Ito ang aking first heart broken. Masakit pala hindi gaya ng inaasahan ko. Ganito pala yung feeling, mahirap huminga at hindi makapag focus. ________________________

May mga gabi pa ring umiiyak siya. May mga kanta pa ring hindi niya kayang pakinggan. Pero hindi na siya tumatawag. Hindi na siya nagme-message. Hindi na siya umaasa. And that was her first victory. Hanggang sa isang gabi. Umuulan. Of course umuulan. Because heartbreak always loves dramatic timing. May kumatok sa pinto niya. Isang beses. Dalawa. Tatlo. Ayaw niyang tumingin.