Romans & histoires Fear Of The Unknown

Kundi dahil parang hindi mo alam kung ano ang iniisip niya. At sa paraan ng pagtitig niya… may kakaibang init. Hindi niya alam kung bakit, pero bigla siyang kinabahan. Hindi yung takot. Iba. Parang may kumikiliti sa hangin. Parang may nag-aalab na hindi niya alam san nagmula. Hindi niya sinasadya, pero may gumigising sa loob niya. Isang pamilyar na instinct. Isang babae. Isang damdamin na matagal na niyang nilibing.

Bakit kung kailan natututo na kaming huminga ni Stefanie nang sabay? Lumingon ako sa asawa ko. Nakatayo siya malapit sa pintuan... ang kanyang mga kamay ay nakakuyom habang ang kanyang mukha ay kasing puti ng papel. Alam ko ang takot na nararamdaman niya. It’s the fear of the unknown... ang takot na baka ang lahat ng kapangyarihang hawak niya ngayon ay mabawi sa isang iglap lang dahil sa isang nakatagong sikreto.

Naka-ngiting sabi ko na ikina-ngiti niya rin. "You're so dear, Aloisia! You're completely opposite of the things they said about you~" well, work is work. I need to be fierce para matakot sila sa akin. What is dominion without the word FEAR? You need people to fear so you can have the control over them. To have the power to manipulate them. Without fear, you think you can have them as your puppets? No. FEAR has the greatest amount here in this world. Every person has their own fears. It's up to them if they'll let other use it against them.

I hated not knowing anything because I feared the unknown. “Ano nga?!” “Can you handle the truth?” Sa sobrang inis ko at kaba ay hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong kwelyuhan siya at itulak pasandal sa pader ng banyo. I had seen how fear and shock registered in her features. Tila napigtas na talaga iyong natitirang pasensya ko sa kanya. “I don’t anymore have the patience to play with your sick games. What the fuck are you talking about my family?!”

Histeric na sabi niya. I caught Uno intensely looking at me while his forehead was slightly creased. I automatically averted my eyes when I remembered what happened in the test. It's still vivid. Sa dinami-dami ba naman ng lalaking makikita doon—bakit si Uno pa? Pwede naman si tres nalang! I am more comfortable with tres! What was that fear called? Intimacy? A fear of intimacy? I never imagined myself doing that to someone, especially Uno!

How can I even begin to find myself when I didn't realize I was lost in the first place? I believe the most crucial test of all is the one where we have to find the courage and strength to look for ourselves again and again, because we're always changing. Fear is a significant factor in the way we lose ourselves, more so fear of the unknown. By definition, the unknown is not yet known, but we let it control us. Perhaps the question you should ask is, "How can I be okay again?"

Someone loves you, what if. We all chose to take a grip on the buts and what-ifs in our mind because of one reason. Iyon ay dahil natatakot tayong masaktan at umiyak. We are scared to experience strife, struggles, and failures so we kept on looking for possible preventive thoughts. Kasi gano'n naman talaga... gano'n naman talaga dapat. Sino ba ang hindi takot na masaktan at umiyak ng paulit-ulit because of someone? Who want to have a sleepless night? Who want to have a miserable life?

"What?" ​"You're afraid of me," ulit niya. "Not in a literal sense. I know you're not scared of me like that. Pero emotionally. Psychologically. You're terrified of what I represent. Every time na lumalpit ako, umuusog ka. Every time na nag-attempt akong mag-start ng real conversation, binabara mo ako with professionalism. What are you so afraid of? What about me specifically terrifies you?" ​Hindi ako makasagot. Paano ko ba sasabihin na natatakot ako kasi baka magpadala na naman ako? Baka maging tanga na naman ako?

Napasulyap siya sa'kin ng may mga matang naglalapadan. "H-Hindi, hindi pa sa ngayon, baka palayasin niya tayo," bulong niya sa isang nanginginig na pagsasalita. "Why would she? I know what will be her possible reaction," "Masama ang kutob ko sa mga possible outcomes that could possibly occur, kung gagawin mo yan," "Logically speaking, that possibility you're saying was so minimal, Detective Reist," "Ngunit mayroon pa ring posibilidad, just like sa mundo natin, humans fear the unknown, and that unknown was us," saad niya, "observe, people looked at us different to this town pa lang."

I didn't know he'd feel that way. "You know I hate the weather sometimes. The thunders and lightnings. It's scary." I blurted out just to divert the topic. "Why?" "It's just too unpredictable. Kahit 'yung mapapanood mo sa balita or what you read in the net, hindi accurate. Anong sense?" "But isn't life unpredictable, too? So, you're also afraid?" "I know and yes, I'm still not used to it though but like what they always we'll just have to go with it."