I Was Never There Novels & Stories

Nang tumapat ako sa kaniya, ilang inches lang ang pagitan namin, sumeryoso siya bigla. “You will follow the rules. You will not embarrass this household. And you will never—” “Ayoko ng never. Ang daming ‘never’ sa buhay ko. ‘Never loved,’ ‘never prioritized,’ ‘never noticed.’ Pwede ba kahit dito, wag na munang ‘never,’ sir?” Napapikit ako. Gusto kong sumigaw. Gusto kong matawa. Gusto ko siyang paalisin. Gusto ko ring huwag siyang mawala.

So, don't ever think I need more I've got the one to live for No one else will do, yeah, I'm telling you Just put your heart in my hands I promise it won't get broken We'll never forget this moment Yeah, we'll stay brand-new 'cause I'll love you Over and over again Over and over again...

Hindi ko napigilang mapahikbi nang madama kong muli ang mga bisig nitong nakayakap sa katawan ko. Hindi ko akalain na sa tanang buhay ko'y walang nakapansin sa sa'kin, I am invisible. All my life I have been ignored and here at this moment the man noticed me. He noticed my existence, that I am visible. All my life iniisip kong I am alone and no one to lean on but with his presence he made me feel that I am not. That I am alive and breathing. Na nandiyan ito para masasandalan ko sa tuwing kailangan ko

Mapait. Pagod. "Wala yata tayong ginawa roon." Hindi siya sumagot agad. At nang magsalita siya— parang diretsong tumama sa dibdib ko. "Maybe because that was never who we were." Napapikit ako. Dahil bahagi ko nang alam iyon. Matagal na. Hindi kami kuwento ng paghilom. Hindi kami kuwento ng redemption.

Here comes the rain again Falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again Becoming who we are As my memory rests But never forgets what I lost Wake me up when September ends First day of September, year before my parents died, iyan ang araw kung saan nawala rin ang kaisa isang taong sobrang malapit sa akin. My Abuelo. Mahirap kasi pakiramdam ko, pianrurusahan ako. I tried asking myself, bakit ako? Bakit sa akin pa pinaranas? Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last

Iyon lamang ang sinabi niya kaya nataranta agad ako lalo na noong pinatay na niya ang tawag. Iyon lang? Ano ba naman iyan! Akala ko ay may malalaman na ako ngunit mukhang ginagago lamang ako ni Nixie at mas lalong maguluhan sa mga nangyayari. Anong gagawin ko? Laguna. The place where everything happens. Where…I throw away every bad memory.

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much All of the while I never knew I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much "Hi baby." Aware naman siya na naka mic siya, hindi ba? "Baby your face." My girlfriend kiss my mom's cheek. "It's now or never." I rolled my eyes on her. I'm not really confident on my looks, for pete's sake I'm not yet changing my clothes tapos ihaharap niya ako sa mga bisita niya. All of the while I never knew All of the while All of the while it was you

may biglang tinawag na pangalan. At halos mahilo ako sa narinig ko. It was someone I never expected to see— here, today.

Nakakagulat na marinig iyon galing sa iba, kasi sina June at Vivian lang ang madalas magsabi niyon sa akin, madalas pa nga may kasamang tampo. “Hindi naman sa mababa ang tingin ko,” depensa ko, “pero… iba kasi. Parang hindi ko pa maramdaman na kilala ako rito. Alam mo ‘yon? Na parang invisible ako kahit na ilang kanta na ang nailabas ko internationally.”

Omg hell talaga ang pakiramdam. Ang reputasyon ko.. Paano na lang ang reputasyon ko? Never in my life nanligaw ako kahit babae pa man yan. Gosh!