Novel & Cerita Words For Peace Of Mind

Mahina akong natawa, at palagi namang ganito ang scenario na ako na naman ang muling nahuli sa amin. Simple lang ako ngumiti nang maramdaman ang tahimik ng paligid. This feels peaceful but sad at the same time. Peaceful because no one can enter your life and sad because you're just you, and no one can understand you. But for the sake of peace of mind, I would rather stay in that ideal kind of life. Well, I wished I can pick, but there's nothing I can do because here I am.

Napilitan akong tumango kahit alam kong mahirap 'to para sa kanya. “Mom can I ask?” she looked at me and nodded her head. “How's the feeling to be betrayed?” sandali siyang natigilan pero sa huli ay sinagot niya ang tanong ko. “Masakit anak, 'yong tipong binagsakan ako ng langit at lupa dahil sa bigat at sakit na nararamdaman. Niloko ako, nasaktan at nagmukhang tanga sa kanya. Pero hindi naman ibig sabihin non na hindi ko siya mapapatawad. Acceptance is the key to my peace of mind.” Masaya akong tumango. Tama si mama, pagpapatawad ang solusyon para sa kaginhawaan sa dibdib.

I saw pity in his eyes. "W-what is your deepest desire, Ganther? Can you tell me?" His eyes were pleading me to tell. "My deepest desire? Ataraxia... Kit. Ataraxia. Peace of mind. Because I never had that in my life. All of my life I felt drowning in the ocean of chaos. The waves of insanity keep hitting me. Kit, I just wanted my nightmares, my demons to be calm. I wanted peace of mind. I want serene... I want tranquility in my head and in my emotions."

aniya pa sa akin. "Masanay? Anong ibig mong sabihin? Kung may binabalak ka na araw-arawin ang pagtulog dito. Huwag naman, maawa ka naman sa akin. I need peace of minding." Sagot ko sa kanya pero tumawa lang ito. "Baby, peace of mind 'yon." Sabi niya sa akin. "Anong baby?" "Baby ko," sagot niya sa akin.

Kaya naman pala kayo walang Peace of Mind dahil sa pag-aalala na baka may lumamang na isa. Minsan ang importante sa mundong ito ay yung tinatawag na acceptance. Tangap mo kung sino ka. Tangap mo kung anong meron sayo. Tangap mo ang katotohanan na hindi lahat ng tao magtitiwala sayo. Kagaya nga ng sabi ni Kuya sa akin. Nang makababa kami, pumunta sa dining area. Wow. Mapapawow ka na lang talaga sa laki ng chandelier at mga kagamitan nila.

Tila pinahahapyawan na ako ng payapa na ito dahil baka pagtapos ng araw na ito ay hindi na kami mapayapa. I smirked at that thought. I used to believed that peace is ideal, but I've been given peace since I married Ander. Iba siguro talaga ang nagagawa ng kapangyarihan, pera, koneksyon, at proteksyon. Of course, when you have everything — it is very easy to feel safe and protected. Secure to the highest possible feeling of contentment.

Ngumiti ito at ibinaba ang tasa ng kapeng hawak. “Wala ka namang hindi nakasundo. Lahat ng umaway sayo noon ay matalik mo ng kaibigan ngayon.” aniya na tila hindi na nabigla sa sinabi ko sakaniya. “Masarap kasi sa pakiramdam ang wala kang kaaway. Meron tayong peace of mind. Makakatulog tayo ng walang alalahanin at bumabagabag saatin.” tugon ko.

“Truth, Mrs. CEO.” Ngumiti siya, at sa pagitan ng katahimikan, may kilig na bumabalik — hindi ‘yung mabilis, kundi ‘yung mabagal na pagbalik ng spark pagkatapos ng bagyo. Lumuhod ako sa harap niya, hinawakan ang mga kamay niya. “Chin…” “Hmm?” “I realized something.” “Ano ‘yon?” “Peace scares me more than war.” Nagulat siya. “Why?”

The irony happens, he's a psychiatrist yet he thinks he needs to undergo therapy. "Alam mo, ganito lang ang gusto kong buhay. 'Yong tahimik, ganito ang buhay namin sa probinsya kahit hindi kami mayaman basta masaya. Habang tumatagal mas natututunan ko ang kahalagahan ng katahimikan ng kalooban at paligid," she's talking happily and her eyes are glowing in peace. "Peace of mind is the most expensive thing in today's world. We are now in a generation full of chaos and negativity. And I'm very happy to meet you at this point time. You are my peace in my chaotic world," he sincerely replied.

And it ended. No one talked nor moved. We remained in our positions. I can't help but to smile as tears roll down my eyes. No crimes? Healthy nature? No wars? No discrimination and inventions? She's making me laugh. It's impossible to happen. That will never happen. Just a single step outside your estate already has thousand of dangers in different ways. Your wish will never happen, Xerene. 'PEACE' is just a word. JUST A WORD. *wheezes*