Reminiscing The Memories Novels & Stories

Naitanong niya kasi kanina kung sino daw ang kasama ko sa bahay, ang sabi ko ay si tatay at ang dalawa kong kapatid. "Oh, I'm.... sorry to hear that. And I'm sorry for asking." hinging paumanhin ni tito, ngumiti ako sa kanila para ipakitang wala namang problema kahit na ang totoo ay bigla na namang bumalik sakin lahat lahat. Jist one mention of her name, or just one thing that will remind me of her, and everything will flash in my mind again. Evrything that I felt before will be recalled.

“Are you missing your childhood?” “No,” agad niyang sagot at tinaasan ito ng kilay. Ngunit agad din itong lumambot. “Hindi ko alam kung ako lang ba, pero… why am I suddenly recalling blurry images from my past? Hindi naman siguro ako nauntog, ‘di ba? Why am I suffering memory loss?” Saglit na natahimik ang binata. And after a few moments, muli itong nagsalita.

"Won't you tell her about that incident?" Natigilan siya. Kanina lang ay iniisip niya iyon pero hindi pumasok sa kanya ang ikuwento ito kay Lexie. Pero ngayon na tinanong siya ng kaibigan ay hindi niya malaman kung ano ang isasagot. "I—I really don't remember some pieces of that incident. Even her face and their names— you know human memory is strange. Your brain will shut down the bad memories as a defense mechanism to protect your fear. And it will let you forget something terrible that happened. Lahat sila, may nakakalimutan katulad na lang ‘yung may nangyari kahapon or kanina lang. Pero ako ang pangalan nila. Dahil estranghero sila na nakilala ko noon at nagpakilala lang at sinabi ang pa

Hindi maintindihan ni Lola kung bakit bigla- bigla siyang kukumustahin ng binata gayong sa nakalipas na isang taon ay puro kagaspangan ang naging pagtrato nito sa kanya. "Lola, tungkol sa nangyari noong araw na iyon," wika ng binata. "Kalimutan mo na iyon, Nathaniel. Matagal ko nang kinalimutan ang nangyaring iyon," tugon naman niya.

And a thought comes in my mind. I don't to forget them. I don't want to forget all the memories I had with the. The memories I shared with them. I-I want them to remain. In my heart. In my head. In my memories. Ayokong kalimutan lahat ng pinagsamahan namin. I don't want to forget the pain, the tears, the laugh, the victories, the fights, the cold wars...everything that I spend together with them. Bakit kailangan niyang gawin sa akin 'to? Hindi pa ba sapat na nasa kaniya na ako?

Hindi na raw nila sasagutin ang mga tanong ko at hahayaan nilang kusang bumalik ang memorya ko. "Ate, I know you want to remember, but you have to be careful. If you force yourself to remember, your brain might make up memories that aren’t real just to fill in the blanks. Yon ang sabi sa amin ng doctor. Kapag daw nagiging emotional ka, pwedeng maghalo-halo ang lahat. Your mind might create memories that didn’t actually happen. I don’t want that to happen to you. Just take your time and let your memories come back naturally." Iyan ang sagot sa akin ni Scarlet nang tinanong ko siya kung ano ba ang nangyari sa limang taong hindi ko maalala! I cannot believe I can't remember those five freaking

Hindi ko tuloy mapigilang mag-reminisce habang pinagmamasdan ang paligid. My eyes landed on the sofa and my mind played some strange memories I had with him. Agad kong ipinilig ang aking ulo para alisin ang mga alaalang ‘yon. Savrinna, focus. You're here for business meeting so stop thinking of those things! Habang naghihintay ay umupo muna ako sa visitor's chair sa harap ng mesa at nag-scroll sa phone ko. I was busy watching funny videos online that I didn't notice the time.

I hopelessly confessed, “ang naaalala ko lang ay ‘yong papunta tayo sa dati naming compound tapos tumigil tayo sa gilid ng kalsada para mag-usap… tapos… malabo na ang mga sumunod na nangyari sa isipan ko.” I saw how his lips trembled when he tried to say something. He took a deep breath to recollect himself. “So… you can’t remember the conversation we had earlier?” I blinked several times and held my hand together above my stomach. “Well… I remember you pleading or asking something, but I can’t totally remember the exact words you said.” Marcus nodded several times as he listened to me explain. “Hindi mo rin ba maalala ang mga sinabi mo sa akin?”

"Tayo? Paano tayo nagkakilala? Ano ang namiss ko? Ano ang dapat kong matandaan?" Natameme ako. Rewinding to a particular moment and trying to dissect what we could have done differently to change the situation... It is quite a painful process. Even a minute of thinking and reminiscing may dissolve the impenetrable shell I've spent months, if not years, attempting to construct to protect myself. When I remember back to a wonderful moment with someone, I find myself reflecting on how much enjoyment they brought to my life in a short of minutes. These types of recollections cause me seconds of heartbreak while also providing me with a lasting period of tranquility, and in a way, act as a rewind

Napa-iling na lang ako at marahang napatawa sa sinabi niya. Nag-usap kami ni Remus at napansin ko na mas matangkad na talaga siya sa akin ngayon. Nag kuwento lamang siya ng tungkol sa naging past life niya roon sa dating tini-tirahan at dating eskuwelahan niya. Maya-maya pa ay nagpaalam na siya sa akin at babalik na lamang daw siya bukas. Bitbit ang ngiting ibinigay sa akin ni Remus, ay pumasok na ulit ako sa loob ng bahay namin at dumiretso papasok ng aking kuwarto.