Romans & histoires What Do You Think Makes Us Free

Tsk. "Oo naman, thank you." nagpasalamat ako dahil sa tinulungan niya akong makatayo. Dahil sa pagod kaya bumalik kami sa gazebo para magmerienda. I realized something. Nakaka enjoy pala kapag binigyan mo rin ang sarili mo ng isang kalayaan. Yung kahit isang araw ay hindi mo iniisip ang mga schoolpaper, schoolworks pa yan o ibang working load mo sa buhay.

To not be able to hold the child that made you want to live, to never be able to love the only person you’ve ever loved. This is the opposite of freedom.

sagot naman nya. “You know what? There are so many things that I want to do but I can’t. Hindi naman kasi lahat ng bagay ay kayang tapatan ng pera. Sometimes, the most special things are free. You just have to search for you to find it,” makahulugang turan nya nang hindi inaalis ang tingin sa kalangitan. “In my case, I already found it but I am too afraid to hold it.” Tumitig ito sa mga mata nya.

“I don’t want to.” “Ryven naman!” nahihirapan nang saad ko. “This is the reason why we’re not growing because we’re depending ourselves with each other!” Pilit ko pa ring tinatanggal ang pagkakayakap niya pero masyado itong mahigpit. It’s draining my energy so I felt defeated again. “Ryven... We need to separate ways to reach the freedom we want,” malumanay na saad ko. “Pero ikaw ang kalayaan ko, Fev.”

And most especially, afraid of losing me. But what can we do? This is the only way to have peace in our families, especially with my sister. The only way to grow and realize everything. The only way to heal and breathe. And the only way to love ourselves more than anything else. "Is that really what you want?" tanong niya dahilan upang mapakagat ko ang aking pang ibabang labi. "Do you really wanted to be free — and lose me?" dugtong niya pa dahilan upang mas lalong mapapikit ako ng madiin at pilit na tumango bilang sagot.

Saunders’s household is really something. Nang sandaling iyon ay walang mapaglagyan ang saya ni Edith. Ang kalayaan na matahal niya ng hinahangad ay sa wakas kanya ng nakamtan, bagamat alam niyang pansamantalang kalayaan lamang iyon kahit papaano ay nakahinga at walang pananakit siyang mararamdaman. “Even this is just temporary, freedom is still a freedom, so I should still be grateful,” saad niya sa kanyang sarili. “Isn’t it?”

"G-ganther..." "Freedom. Choose to leave this place than waving a war because of nonsense reasons. Stupidity if you didn't listen to me. Be stupid and let them treat you like a dog with a leash. I'm giving you your piece to move freely. When I say freedom isn't not just leaving this place and running away but letting yourself decide on what you want. This game is played by all and all the players should have the right to choose. " Tumalikod na ako pero ng may maalala ako bigla ulit akong humarap.

"Of course, I talk like an idiot. Otherwise how could you understand me?" Sa huli ay nagpakawala na lang siya ng hangin. "I can give you everything you need, even freedom. But the freedom you are asking is beyond the limitation. You are free in doing anything inside the house, free in giving orders, free in getting and using anything you want. Pero ang lumabas at pumunta sa kung saan, hindi ko mapahihintulutan."

At siguro pagkatapos no'n ay mas magagawa ko nang makapag-isip ng tama. I want freedom. At magagawa ko lang iyon pag-inilayo ko ang sarili ko muna kay Eros at mas lalo na kay.. Flix...

Ngumisi siya sa kawalan. "Kung oras mo na talaga, wala na tayong magagawa. Live your life to its fullest but that doesn't mean you have to violate your freedom. Do what you need to do for yourself and for the people around you," dugtong niya. "You asked why I pursued this path right?" Bumaling siya sa akin at tumitig sa mata kong kanina pa siyang pinagmamasdan. I slightly nodded my head as I recalled our conversation earlier.