Romans & histoires Emotionally Exhausted Quotes

Tama na muna. I'm tired to think and these whole 'thinking' is exhausting. :)

"…I don’t remember the last time I was just tired, Marianne. Not alert-tired. Yung pagod na alam mong pwede ka nang pumikit dahil wala nang susugod sa iyo pagtalikod mo." Bahagya akong dumanas paitaas at mas lumapit pa sa kinalalagyan niya. Hindi para ayusin ang kaniyang mga iniisip. Hindi para iligtas siya mula sa kaniyang mga emosyon. Just to be there. Para lang iparamdam sa kaniya na sa pagkakataong ito, hindi na siya nag-iisa sa dilim. "Then be tired," malumanay kong sabi, hinayaan kong sumandal ang aking balikat sa kaniya. "Hayaan mo namang mapagod ang sarili mo nang walang binabantayang kalaban."

She couldn't finish the sentence. But she didn't need to. I understood. "I was there." She nodded. "I know." "That's why I'm grateful." I looked at the city lights. "You know..." "I don't think you realize something." "What?" "You don't have to carry everything alone." She became silent. Then she smiled sadly. "I don't really have a choice." Those words were simple. But they carried years of exhaustion. I turned toward her. "What makes you say that?" She looked down at her hands.

Unti-unti niyang inangat ang tingin at nagsalita gamit ang basag na boses. “I'm not fine. I'm just so tired. I'm tired of being laughed at because my ex-boyfriend is gay. I'm tired of my job because of these clients who act like I'm just their mere servant and belittle me. I'm tired of doing all these extra work just to earn money. And I know I'm doing all these things for my family. But sometimes. Sometimes I'm just so fucking tired.” Humahangos na siya matapos sabihin ang mga hinanakit niyang iyon. First time niya yatang makapagpalabas ng nararamdaman.

"Gusto ko lang ipaalam sayo na kahit na naging busy ako ay talagang hindi ka nawala sa isipan ko. And about sa work, nothing I can't manage. Kasama ko ang mga kapatid ko kaya naayos din naman." Tahimik akong nakikinig habang nakapikit, iniisip ang itsura niya habang nagsasalita. Yung kunot ng noo niya kapag pagod. Yung hawak niya sa sarili niyang batok kapag stress. “You must be exhausted…” bulong ko. “I was. Pero ngayong naririnig kita? Parang na-recharge ako agad.” Oh my god, Gianna, hinga lang… don’t swoon. Don’t you dare swoon!

Dahan-dahan akong umupo nang mas maayos. Ramdam ko bigat sa dibdib ko. “Sino pa ba ang totoo sa paligid natin?” bulong ko. Hindi na siya tactical question. Hindi na siya strategy. Emotional exhaustion na siya. Trust exhaustion. Parang lahat ng mukha na nakikita ko ngayon, may invisible question mark na. Lumapit si Torren sa table. Hindi mabilis. Hindi threatening. Pero steady.

Anong silbi ng pisikal na sakit kung ang emosyonal na sakit ay mas malala? “I hate him. I gave him my all. He took and took and I continued to let him. He left me with nothing, Ethan. I’m empty, so dark and cold. How do I live like that? How do I let go? I’m so tired of fighting, all these weights I’m carrying are getting heavy,” umiiyak kong sabi. Bakit hindi ko nakita na hinahawakan ko ang isang bagay na hindi naman dapat tumayo? Na nabubuhay ako sa isang lupain ng basura na tinapon nila ako?

Kusang huminto ang mga kamay ko sa pagtulak rito at kusa ring tumulo ang munting luha sa mga mata ko. That time I am terribly got tired. Mentally, physically, and emotionally tired. I am so much tired of all the problems that I am carrying around me. Lahat sa akin ay pagod na. I am just a woman who also feels exhausted. All I need is only a solution to my problems, but then I am only insulted by him.

God! This night has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me! So exhausting and tiring! And I deserve a break. I deserve a rest from all this loads of shits and exhaustions.

“Kakaiba ka talaga, Zeno! Kahit bakasyon mo, trabaho pa rin nasa isip mo.” “Siguro rin kasi ayokong nababasa at ayokong nasa ilalim masyado ng araw. I’ll burn under the sun.” “Hindi lang workaholic, bampira rin pala. Kaya ka pala nagrereply sa mga text ko na anong oras na ah!” hindi pa rin humuhupa ang kanyang pagtawa. “Kailangan mo talaga mag-let loose noh! Ayos lang na magkasunburn kasi experience din. Ilang araw kang hindi makakagalaw nang maayos pero ayun yung batid na sobra kang nag-enjoy sa swimming.”