It's The Least I Can Do Novels & Stories

I’m only doing this for you, I don’t really wanna go. But deep in my heart I know, this is the kindest thing to do. You’ll need someone who’ll be the one that I could never be. Who’ll give you something better than the love you find with me. Oh, I could say that I’ll be all you need. But that could be a crime. I know I’d only hurt you, I know I’d only make you cry. I’m not the one you’re needing…🎵

Not fully. I took a shaky breath, then another. Slowly, I lowered myself to the floor, hugging my knees close. “I can’t keep doing this,” I whispered to myself, voice cracking. “I can’t just be… a shadow in someone else’s world.” But deep down, I knew I would. For now.

Ilang segundo kaming walang imikan. "I'm not asking for special treatment," I continued, voice trembling. "I just want a chance. One real chance. Without people assuming na kaya lang ako nandito dahil sa awa o dahil pinapaburan mo 'ko." Tumingin siya sa’kin ulit. "Then prove it." "I am." "No, you're not. You're apologizing for existing." “Because maybe I feel like I have to,” bulong ko. “Every single day.”

Pero kahit na ganito ang sitwasyon, gusto ko pa din magpatuloy sa gagawin ko. It's not a selfish thing for me. This is what myself wanted and I will give it to myself. I'm giving myself what it wanted because it doesn't receive anything before except for the treatment. Magiging masama man ako sa paningin ng iba, I will give no care, they don’t know what I’ve been through.

I couldn't help but pity my self. But it's okay, I know I'll be over this somehow. I can manage my self. Just like how I told Manuelito that I can wipe my own tears. Just like how I told Laila that I can manage the business my self. Just like how I told my friends, that I'm okay and will be okay.

Hindi rin niya nagawa na tawagan at i-text ako. Am I thankful for that? I am really not so sure. Alam ko na marami ako na dapat na ipaliwanag kay Trey, pero natatakot ako sa mga panghuhusga na maririnig ko buhat sa kan’ya. I can accept anything that’s being said about me, but if it comes from Trey, I really don't know if I can. But despite that, a part of me wanted to be honest with him about everything that was going on. It's the least that I could give him at this point.

Kahit mukha na akong tanga rito ay hindi ko pa rin mapigilan. Damn. I'm such a crybaby!

for my mother and her justice, I'm ready to do this. — S O L A I N E –

“It’s the least I can do. You’ve been carrying too much for too long. You deserve to build something you believe in.” Hindi ko na kinayang tingnan siya diretso sa mata. Kasi totoo ’yung sinasabi niya. At lalo akong natutunaw tuwing ramdam kong hindi lang siya nandiyan—pinapakinggan niya ako. ⸻

I should do something. *************